Chapter 17

I felt like it took us so much longer to get out of that place then it did to get back to it. I know logically it was around the same amount of time, but I think because I was enjoying the time with Bellamy that it just felt like the time flew by. The entire drive we kept in contact somehow. Even when he took his turn driving we were touching somehow.

When the base finally came into view, my heart was racing. I knew we'd have to walk the rest way, so Miller wouldn't be seen. We didn't want anything to happen and they find out about Miller. We got out of the van and I immediately look Emori's hand. She gave me a look but never said a word.

When Bellamy started walking up behind us I stopped "what're you doing?"

"You don't think I'd let you go in there alone, do you?" He replied.

"Bell do you think that's a good idea? You were one of the guards. You took their weapons. They may not be so forgiving to you." I was starting to panic a little.

"Now don't worry your pretty little head Princess. I'll be fine." He said without a hint of fear in his voice.

"I always worry." I told him honestly.

He bent down and gently placed his lips on mine. Since I still had Emori's hand in mine I squeezed her hand.

"That doesn't make me feel any better." I told him as he straighten himself back out.

I took one last deep breath before I started walking again. Bellamy stayed behind us. We were about 50 feet from the entrance when I heard the guards yelling. I couldn't actually hear what they were saying but Bellamy told us to stop and place our bags in front of us, so I did just as he said. We all stood there, hands in the air until about 8 guards were on us.

"State your names and your reason for being here." One of the guards said.

But before we could get a word out one of the other guards said, "That's Bellamy Blake and I'm almost positive that that's Doctor Griffin's daughter."

"John is that you?" I heard Bellamy ask from behind us.

The guy nodded. I didn't miss the smile that crossed his face but was quickly masked.

"What are you doing back here?" The first guard asked looking directly at Bellamy.

"Actually, were here to ask your help. One of our people has become pregnant and we don't have the resources to deliver the baby without the chance of losing one or both of them." Bellamy answered him in a very serious and professional tone.

"We'll bring you inside, but this'll have to be discussed." He said and once again only directed it to Bellamy.

The guards then searched each of us then one of them grabbed our bags. My guess was to check them as well making sure we didn't have any weapons on us.

As soon as they started walking we followed behind them. The moment I felt Bellamy's hand on my back it helped my nerves. I was still scared out of my mind but having him there really helped.

We followed through the gates then to a room straight to the right. I didn't remember this room from before.

When we were alone Bellamy wrapped his arms around me, kissing me again. "I'll probably have to go with them, but I'll come find you."

"What do you mean? Why would you have to go with them?" I didn't like the sound of that at all.

"Like you said I was one of their guards. They will need to speak to me alone."

"But you'll be ok? Right?" I hated the way I sounded but I couldn't have something happen to him.

"I'll be fine." That was the first time he didn't sound so sure.

"Bellamy what aren't you telling me?" I was really starting to get frantic.

He held me tighter "you've got nothing to worry about."

I had this feeling in the pit of my stomach that that wasn't true.

The door opposite of where we came in opened and I recognized one of the guards that appeared "Sergeant Blake. Colonel Kane would like a word with you."

Bellamy attempted to get up, but I held him tight. He stopped fighting and put his hand on my face "Clarke I have to go. I'll come find you in a little while ok?"

"I'm scared." I didn't know what it was, but I was always able to be completely truthful with him.

"Don't be. You get Emori to your mom. Do what you need to and don't worry about me."

He kissed me one more time which was interrupted by the guard clearing his throat.

He held my hand until he couldn't anymore but before it was too late I yelled his name.

He looked back before going through the doorway.

"I love you." I didn't know why but I felt like I needed to tell him. Like he had to know.

I don't know what I expected but it wasn't for him to just turn away and walk through the doorway.

"Ouch." Emori said which brought me back into the room with just the two of us.

"He's not safe. He knew he wouldn't be, but he came anyway." I said not really speaking to Emori.

"He came because he loves you. I hope you know that." I looked over to Emori and saw the sincerest look I've ever saw from her.

"And that may be his death sentence." As soon as the words left my mouth I broke down, I couldn't help but think about Murphy and him dying because he loved me and now the same could happen to Bellamy.

I felt Emori's arms around me and it was the oddest feeling. I never thought in a million years that she would comfort me.

"You need to be strong Clarke. You need to think about the task on hand. You and I both know that Bellamy can take care of himself." Her words seemed to help.

I heard yelling coming from outside the room and I knew right away who it belonged to.

I could hear the guard say something, but it was too low to understand his words. But when my mother spoke I could hear her words clear enough.

"I don't give a damn about your orders. You will let me take my daughter home and have your Colonel find me. I think he and I need to have a little conversation." She was steamed.

To my surprise the door opened and when I saw my mom I felt like a kid all over again. I jumped up and ran to her. "Mom."

"Clarke. I can't believe it's really you. I heard rumors, but I had to come myself." She said as she had me wrapped in an embrace.

"Who's this?" She asked the moment we separated.

"This is my friend Emori and she needs your help." I told her.

"How far along are you?" She asked immediately.

"Uh… I'm not really sure but I'm guessing around 6 months." She looked to me "Is that right? Murphy's been dead about 6 months, right?"

I nodded.

My mom looked at me with huge eyes. "Murphy's dead?"

I just nodded again. "We'll talk later. Can we go? She needs to eat."

"Follow me." She grabbed both of us by a hand, so we followed without questioning.

I half expected the guard to say something, but he didn't. He didn't even look at my mom which I thought was odd. What has happened in the last year that the guards let my mom order them around?

Everything looked the same as it did when I left. My mom led us to the cafeteria first and told Emori where to go to get some food. She didn't even pause for a moment, she took off straight to the line.

"We have a lot to catch up on." My mom said the moment we were alone.

"I agree." And I did, there was a lot we needed to discuss. "First I need you to know something about Emori. I can't bring her here without you knowing. She'd been banished before we found her a couple months ago pregnant."

That got my mom's attention. "Banished?"

"Yes. We kicked her out because she tried to kill someone." I took a deep breath. "Mom Emori is Murphy's girlfriend. She had been for a long time."

Her mouth dropped "when you say she tried to kill someone do you mean you?"

I slowly nodded. "There was a lot of problems. And she blamed me for Murphy."

"Why would she do that?" She asked curiously.

"Because he wanted to leave because of me. And the number one rule out there is if you're on the outside do not be distracted. And he was because of me." This was the first time I recalled what happened without breaking down.

"You were there? You saw it happen, didn't you?" She knew the answer to that without even asking.

I nodded.

"Oh baby. I'm so sorry." She hugged me. "So where does Emori come into this all?"

"She was grieving, the same as me. And she blamed me for his death. There are still days that go by that I blame myself as well, but I remind myself that it wasn't my fault." I opened up to her.

"The baby. It's Murphy's isn't it?" That's one thing about us Griffin woman we always catch on quickly.

"Yea."

"I'll take care of it." She said without hesitation.

"Mom do me a favor and take care of both of them. I don't believe Emori is a threat or I wouldn't have brought her here. She's really not that bad of a person."

"Only you could make friends with the person who tried to kill you." She laughed a little.

"Can I ask you something?" I asked her hoping she was still in the sharing mood.

"Of course."

"What kind of person is Colonel Kane?" I heard her talking to the guard about him, so she obviously knew him.

"Why do you ask?" She asked curiously.

"Well they took a friend of mine to see him when we got here." I told her honestly.

Her expression completely changed "Bellamy Blake?"

"How'd you know that?" Now I was curious.

"I'll talk to Marcus about him." She still hadn't taken her eyes off me "so you and Bellamy?"

"We've been working on it."

I knew that next smile oh to well, it was her I told you so smile.

"Oh, don't let her lie to you. Those two are completely in love and have been for who knows how long but haven't been able to admit it until here recently." Of course, Emori would make her appearance back over to us at that time.

"Oh yea, in love huh?"

"Shut up. You had no idea that this would happen." I joked.

Emori was looking between the two of us obviously confused.

"My mom attempted to hook me up with Bellamy before we left here." I told Emori not thinking about how that sounded.

"Well sometimes moms do know best." Emori said looking at my mom.

"No, my mom just hated Murphy and would've set me up with anyone else to get me away from him." I didn't mean to get into all that, but the words left my mouth before I could stop them I looked at my mom and said. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be. That's the truth and I know I drove you away because of the way I was. I've changed so much. You leaving really opened up my eyes." She sounded like her words were the truth. "I'm glad you came back Clarke. You have no idea how many times I prayed something would bring you back, so I can show you how much I changed."

"I'm glad you've changed but I'm not planning on staying." I needed to be completely honest with her.

"What do you mean?"

"I'm hoping we could stay a couple days, but we've got a whole group that depends on us mom. I'm their doctor and Bellamy is their leader. I hoped maybe we could work something out, so we could come visit or something."

My mom stood quickly. "I've got to be somewhere, but all your stuff is still in your old room. When you're ready just take Emori there."

Her behavior was more than a little odd.

As soon as she was out of earshot Emori said "you probably shouldn't have told her that yet."

I walked around with Emori for a little before finally finding our way back to my room. Well the room I shared with Murphy. I warned her beforehand that his things would probably still be there. I didn't want it to be a surprise. It took me a minute to open the door but when I did it looked like no one had touched it since we left.

I couldn't help but look at the bed and remember that last night. How happy and in love we had been when Bellamy came banging on the door, telling us that we had to go.

"You ok?" Emori asked obviously seeing my mood change.

"Yep just hard being back here." I looked back at the bed again. "It doesn't even look like they changed the sheets. I hadn't expected to walk back in here and it look the exact same as it did the day we left."

"Were you and Murphy happy?" She asked.

"I think we were but there was so much against us from the beginning. Honestly if the world wouldn't have pretty much ended I have no idea how we would have factored out." I finally went and sat on the bed "he was distant about a lot of things and I just figured that's just the way he was but now that I met you I really think he kept that distance between us because of you. Even though he was with me telling me he loved me. He loved you to."

"I'm sorry I shot you." She was so serious, but I couldn't help but laugh.

"I don't mean to laugh but it's a little crazy that I think we can actually be friends."

There was a knock on the door. I didn't think my mom would knock and I didn't expect it to be Bellamy this soon. But since there really wasn't any other options I just assumed it was one of the two. When I opened the door, it was the last person I thought I'd see. Someone I hadn't seen in years that I had come to believe I may never see again.

"Daddy…." Was all I could out before I was in my father's arms.