After talking to my dad, I found out that he had actually came to the base just a couple months after I left. He never told me how he found it exactly, but I had a feeling that my mom somehow got him there. It's not that I didn't appreciate it, but it made me suspect that my mom had lied to me and she knew where he was the entire time.
When I was with my dad it seemed like all the time had never passed. We talked about everything, I told him about Murphy and about Bellamy. Hell, I even told him about Roan, even though I knew he didn't need to know about everything, I needed him to know. I needed our relationship to go back to what it used to be. And to my surprise it seemed like it kind of did.
I learned that my dad had remarried but both his new wife and stepson had died a few weeks after the outbreak. I felt like I should've been pissed that he had started a new family, but I couldn't force myself to be mad at him.
I'd been so wrapped up in spending the day with my dad that I hadn't even realized that it had turned night, hours before. When I finally went back to my room, I expected to see Emori but all I found was a note. Apparently, my mom had pulled some strings and got her a room right down the hall. I meant to go check on her, but I never made it back out of my room, I was wore out. I was sound asleep within a couple of minutes.
I slept so peacefully that night. I hadn't slept that good in so long. I didn't know if it was because I knew I was safe there, well safe against the dead, that made it easier. When I finally woke the next morning, I felt so relaxed. It had been so long since I was able to sleep in. Being back here was starting to remind me of why I never wanted to leave in the first place.
I knew the first place I needed to go that morning was to see Thelonious. I needed him to know Wells was doing good. I went to my closet and threw on some of my old clothes before heading out the door.
Going from my door to Thelonious I was stopped about a half dozen times by people who couldn't believe it was actually me. I had no idea who any of these people were, but I smiled and nodded being polite. I only had to knock once and Jaha was standing there with the door wide open pulling me into a hug. I expected him to yell but he just seemed happy to see me.
He welcomed me into his room then once we were seated he finally asked the question he'd been dying to ask. "Is he alright?"
I nodded "you'd be so proud of him. He's grown so much being out there."
"I was so furious with you. I blamed you for taking him after I found his note. I went to your mother and she didn't even know that you had taken off yet." He shook his head "I thought she'd be more upset but honestly it seemed like she was more annoyed. It took a while, but she finally opened up and I think you leaving was the best thing that could have happened to her."
I laughed "thanks."
"Clarke I've known you for a long time and if there was one person I could trust my son with, it's you. I know you're loyal, you're like your father. But seeing you here now has me a little shaken."
"Wells is taken care of back home you have nothing to worry about. We have about 20 people with us now. We've grown into a very self-surviving group." I needed him to know Wells is well taken care of.
"Thank you for coming by. You have no idea how much it means it me." He was much appreciated.
We sat and talked for a few more hours before I knew it, I had to go check on Emori. I hadn't saw her since the day before and I needed to make sure she was being treated fairly.
I went by the room she was supposed to be staying in but didn't find her there. Since it was the middle of the day she could be anywhere. So, I figured I'd go see my mom, I hadn't talked to her yet since seeing my dad and I needed her to know that I didn't appreciate that she hadn't told me.
When I walked into medical I not only found my mom but Emori as well. "Hey just the two ladies I was looking for."
They both looked at me at the same time.
I looked at Emori "I just wanted to make sure everyone is being kind to you since my mom gave me her word that they would."
She smiled then nodded "they've been kind. Especially your mom you wouldn't think she knew I shot you."
"You know I couldn't bring you here and not tell anyone. I promised my mom that you don't have any more murderous tendencies so don't make me out to be a liar." I joked.
Then I looked at my mom and said "and I'm kind of pissed at you right now. I can't believe you didn't tell me dad was here. Don't you think that should have been the first words out of your mouth?"
She shook her head "I figured it would be best for you if he just came to see you. I sent him the moment we were done talking."
I gave her a huge grin "I had a feeling you did. Thank you, mom."
My looked at Emori "we were actually getting ready to do an ultrasound and if Emori doesn't mind you can stay. Maybe you can learn a thing or two, you know for when you go back to your people."
Did I really hear her right, she wasn't going to fight me on going back? "My people?"
"Look Clarke obviously I don't want you to go again but I know you and I know if I try to force you to stay here you'll find another way out. I want us to be on good terms, so you will come back and see me."
I never thought she could surprise me in a way like this, for her to accept my choice and be willing to let me go back without a fight showed me exactly how much she had changed. I threw my arms around her. "I love you."
"I love you to baby." Her voice actually broke, it wasn't much but it was enough for me to tell.
After our embrace she cleared her throat then looked back at Emori "so it's on you."
"I don't mind her being here. Without her I'd be dead." She said like it was no big deal.
My mom ordered her on the table and I took my place by her side. She grabbed ahold of my hand, she was nervous, and she had every right to be. This was the first time she would be able to see her unborn child.
I watched as my mom tucked her shirt under her bra then squirted some stuff on her expanded belly. I watched Emori as she watched the monitor and the moment that my mom placed the wand on her stomach and found the baby, the heartbeat was strong and loud. She tightened the grip on my hand. I saw the tears streaming down the side of her face.
I looked up at the monitor just as my mom found the profile of the baby. I couldn't tear my eyes away. One day I had hoped to have a family but with the way the world is I couldn't imagine it anymore. I don't think it's fair to bring life into a world like this.
"Do you want to know what it is?" My mom asked Emori.
She just nodded.
"You see that right there?" She pointed to the monitor "that means you're having a little boy."
She started crying even harder. I reached down to comfort her. "Shh."
"How am I going to do this Clarke?" She said between sobs. "I have no one."
My mom stepped in "I know we really don't know each other very well but you have me. I will help you all I can. I will be here with you every step of the way."
"Thank you, Abby."
Once Emori was cleaned up and had finally got her emotions in check she asked me if I wanted to come check out her room. We were on our way out the door when my mom called to me.
I turned around and she said "Marcus would like to have a word with you. Be at my place at 7 for dinner."
I nodded hoping it was some good news. At least I will get some kind of information on Bellamy, we've been here for about 24 hours now and I have no idea where he is.
We went back to Emori's and just sat there and talked. I honestly couldn't tell you exactly what we talked about, I was so lost in my own thoughts that I wasn't paying attention very well. She didn't seem to hold it against me though.
"It's about that time." She said which got my attention. She pointed to the clock hanging on the wall.
I only had another 30 minutes before I was expected for dinner.
"Do you think he's ok?" I asked Emori knowing she couldn't really answer the question but at least she could give me her opinion.
"Remember what I told you yesterday. He can take care of himself. Don't go getting yourself worked up."
"I can't help it. I just keep thinking that if he's in trouble, it's because of me." I put my head into my hands.
Emori tried to comfort me but by the time I left and headed to my mom's I still had that feeling, the feeling that something was wrong.
I stood outside my mom's door, debating if I should just enter or knock. Finally deciding to knock. When she opened the door, the puzzled look she gave me told me I should have just went in, like I used to. But it was too late now, it was already done.
The first thing I noticed when I walked inside was how good it smelled. "Are you cooking?"
She laughed "no, your mom still can't cook. Actually, Marcus is cooking for us tonight."
I looked past my mom and saw who I was guessing was Marcus. He had the biggest smile plastered on his face. I wasn't positive, but I was pretty sure that my mom was dating the Colonel.
Without even taking a moment to introduce myself I asked my mom "so how long has this been going on?"
I wasn't sure why I let it get to me, her and my dad were over years ago. He had already been married but here I was getting pissy with my mom for having a boyfriend.
She swallowed "actually before you left."
I knew my eyes bugged out "what? I don't even remember him from before."
"He's a very private person Clarke. But he asked me to set this up so the two of you could talk." I couldn't help but notice she looked a little nervous.
"Is Bellamy alright?" I couldn't hold it in any longer, I needed to know.
"I don't know anything, but my guess is that's why Marcus asked you here tonight." I could tell that she knew more she was obviously more loyal to Marcus then she was her own daughter.
Marcus was placing the plates on the table as I walked into the kitchen. "Perfect timing."
I knew I should have been polite, but I couldn't seem to keep my mouth closed 'where is Bellamy?"
"You don't waste, anytime do you?" He chuckled. "You guys are really loyal to each other, aren't you?"
"I just need to know that he's alright." I felt defeated.
"Oh." His expression completely changed, he looked from my mom to me "I hadn't realized you two were a couple."
I didn't correct him, we were kind of a couple.
"Let's eat and we'll discuss everything over dinner alright?"
I just nodded and sat down, looking over the plate and couldn't help but notice that it looked delicious. I was still trying to decide what I thought about Marcus but if his cooking indicated anything about himself then I may love him.
Everyone stayed quiet for the first part of dinner before Marcus finally said, "So Clarke how has it been living on the outside?"
"Hard." I told them honestly "you have to fight pretty much every day to stay alive. But it's worth it. I look around at what we accomplished and feel proud. I found myself being out there. I truly believe I found my true self being out there. I don't think I could have done that being stuck here."
Marcus was obviously thinking, he scratched his head "so there's no way that we could talk you into staying here? We could use someone like you here."
I shook my head "I already talked to my mom about this. I'd love to come visit but this isn't my home. My home is out there with my people. They need us."
I saw him let out a deep breath "Bellamy will not be allowed to leave this base a second time."
"What do you mean?" I was starting to freak out a little.
"He's in lockup. He's awaiting his sentencing, but we already discussed that he would not be allowed behind them walls again." It seemed like he was having a hard time telling me this.
I stood up quickly which made my chair tumble backwards and fall against the floor. "He's where? You guys have him locked up?"
"Clarke calm down." My mom ordered but I wasn't going to listen, not this time.
"He came back here because of me." I looked at my mom with tears filling my eyes "I can't have another one die because of me."
Marcus stood up "he will not get a death sentence."
"Not being able to leave here will be like the same thing and he will blame me. He might not mean to, but he will. It'll tear him up leaving his sister out there yet again." I was so angry, but the tears kept coming.
"So, he found Octavia, did he?" Marcus asked me, full of curiosity.
I had a feeling that I shouldn't have said that. I should have kept my mouth closed.
"Can I see him?" The words just left my lips, I hadn't meant to ask. Not exactly anyway.
"I don't think that's a good idea." Marcus replied.
My mom looked at Marcus "what would it hurt if she went and seen him? It's not like she can break him out."
It surprised me that she stuck up for me.
"We'll discuss it tonight and get back with you tomorrow." He didn't sound like he liked the idea, but I guess I had to give him the benefit of doubt. At least he's thinking about it.
I finished my dinner and excused myself, I couldn't be there any longer. I had plans and if I didn't act quickly I may not be able to pull it off.
