Chapter 19
After leaving my mom and Marcus I went and changed quickly. Then headed to the only place I could think to go. I needed to speak to one of the guards and I had a feeling the best place to go would be the entrance. The moment I approached the gate I had two guards on me, but neither was the one I wanted to see.
"Miss Griffin you're not supposed to be here." I don't know why it surprised me that they knew who I was.
"Sorry." I batted my eyes "actually I was uh… I was kind of looking for someone… John something, I'm sorry but I didn't catch his last name." I acted embarrassed "I was just really hoping to see him again."
I knew I wasn't that good at acting like this person anymore, but I needed to try something, and I had a feeling John could help me. Both guards just stared at me.
"Look I get it, I'm not supposed to be here. How about you give him a message? Ask him to come by my place? That way you guys won't get in trouble for going against the rules." I was starting to worry that they weren't going to help.
One of the guys slapped the other on the arm and finally said "we can give him the message. It's not going to hurt anyone."
The other one seemed not so convinced but he didn't argue.
I knew I was about to push my luck with my next statement "well the sooner the better." I pretended to blush "I'd really like to see him again."
I turned and walked away hoping like hell that one of them would go run off and tell him I wanted to see him. I knew the impression I gave them, I just hoped that John wouldn't be expecting anything when he shows up.
I was surprised that I hadn't even been home 10 minutes when there was a knock on my door.
I opened it and a very confused looking John stood there "I was told you wanted to see me?"
I stepped aside "come in please."
He hesitated but did in fact come inside. I closed the door behind him then turned around with him staring at me intently.
"I'm sorry I didn't know who else to go to." I took a deep breath to control my emotions "I'm worried about him and I didn't know who else to go to. You seemed like you may have been close at one point."
Finally, clarity crossed his face, he finally understood why I asked him there.
"He shouldn't have come back here. He knew what the sentence was for someone who betrayed us." The way he said that scared me even more than I already was. Is he in a lot worse shape than I thought?
"I told him not to come but he's stubborn and wouldn't listen." I tried not to choke up.
"He just wanted to protect you." He said knowingly.
"I know." I whined and then went and sat on the side of the bed. "I want to see him."
His eyes widen "you could get yourself thrown in there with him."
"I don't care." I said without hesitation "I won't let them hurt him, not because of me."
John shook his head. "What do you need from me?"
"I need to know where he is and how to get in."
He let out a breath "well you won't be able to get anywhere near where he is by yourself."
"There has to be a way." I wasn't going to give up.
"There is but you guys will owe me big because if I get caught I could be in the same boat as Bellamy." He and Bellamy must have been closer than I originally thought if he's willing to put himself at risk for him.
"I'll do anything." And that was the complete and honest truth.
"I'm glad you say that because I'm thinking you won't like what you'll have to do much." He said almost in an embarrassed tone.
"So, what's your plan?" I asked.
"Well I'm going to bring you back to my room for a little one on one party." He paused then continued "then once the coast is clear I'll sneak you in to see him."
"Let's do this." I said jumping up off the bed.
"I never thought I'd see the day when Bellamy Blake actually had a girlfriend again. After his breakup with Gina I honestly never thought he'd let himself fall for someone."
I hadn't heard much about Gina except that he really loved her and when she left him it left him cold. That was about a year before the world died.
I couldn't help but blush at his comment though, I knew we weren't officially anything yet, but I hoped after all this that would all change.
As we started walking to what I could only assume was the part of the base that the guards stayed he took my hand and quietly asked "so how long you two been together?"
I giggled "actually were not."
He stopped and took both of my hands in his "then why are we doing this?"
"Because I love him." I said finally not caring who knows.
He nodded then started walking again. It was obvious when we started to cross over. Things looked so much different and honestly, they looked a lot better than the rest of the base.
He held my hand a little tighter "get ready."
Just on cue I leaned into him like I was whispering something in his ear then kissed him on the cheek just as one of the other guards came toward us. I knew the whole plan could come crashing down if someone got suspicious of him bringing me to this side of the base.
I'd never saw the guard before but the way he looked at me made me squirm a little. He stopped just as we were about to pass "hey John why don't you introduce your friend."
John looked annoyed "Dax this is Clarke, she's a friend of mine."
Dax looked me up and down then finally landed on my face "well if you get tired of him your more than welcome to come find me. I'd rock your world."
He instantly pissed me off "Oh believe me when I say that he satisfies my every need."
Dax actually looked taken aback, he looks at John "good job. Didn't think you had it in you."
We continued to walk and the moment I knew we were out of earshot I whispered "sorry."
"Don't be. That felt pretty damn good." He had a cheeky grin plastered on his face.
We walked just a little further before he stopped and pulled me to a door. "This is me."
My heart was pounding knowing what was about to happen. We hadn't really talked about the details, but I knew we needed to make it seem like we were here for one reason and one reason only. He pulled me to him before we reached the door, he kissed my cheek then he moved to my neck and instinctly I pushed him up against the door. He ran his hand up and down my body purposely missing any areas that he shouldn't be touching.
Finally, I pulled myself away from him "will you open this damn door."
The moment we were behind his door we parted in a very awkward silence. Neither would look at the other. After about 10 minutes of complete silence I couldn't take it anymore.
"Ok obviously that was awkward as hell, but we did what had to be done without crossing any kind of line." I said with a huge breath of air.
"I feel like I did cross a line. I just had my hands all over a friend of mines girl." He still wouldn't look at me.
"It was for show. You made sure you kept your hands in appropriate places." I hoped I could get through to him. I don't want this weighing on him when he's trying to help me out.
Finally, after about a half hour he finally seemed to relax a little. We discussed what was going to happen after this. He wasn't going to be involved anymore, everything after this was up to me. If something happened and I ran into someone once I left his room I needed to come up with a pretty damn good story about why I was wondering around the guard's quarters.
We decided to wait close to two hours after we made the appearance in his room. Then I would take a walk afterwards and my story would be that I got lost trying to get back home. I hoped I wouldn't have to make up the excuse. He said usually the guards didn't patrol their own area, so I hoped I could get to lockup and not be stopped.
"Wish me luck." I said as I was about to head out the door.
"You don't need luck. You've got this." He handed me a key then hugged me. "Be safe out there."
I took a deep breath then "snuck" out the door. When I closed the door back I laid back on it and pretended to be sad about what I just did. After about a minute I took a step from his room and headed back the way we came but when I got to the fork I pretended to be confused and accidently walked the wrong way. After heading in that direction for a little bit, I acted like I just noticed that I may be lost. I turned around a few times then "randomly" walked in a direction.
I felt my heart pounding, I was almost there. Walking just a little further I saw the building, it was just as John described. I kept with the being lost look and finally pretended like I was giving up and went and knocked on the door, lightly of course so I couldn't actually be heard. I snuck the key into the door and when I heard it unlock. I quickly put the key back in my pocket. Pretending to knock a couple more times before trying the handle and noticing it was unlocked.
Once I was behind the door, I hurried and locked the door behind me before rushing to find where they were keeping Bellamy. When I finally found the cells my heart broke, they were horrible. I walked down the row of cells before I finally saw him. He was sitting in the corner in a ball, his arms were wrapped around his ripped and dirty pants.
I ran to the cell and barley got out "Bell?"
When his eyes met mine, they instantly went into alarm. "You can't be here."
When I saw his face I almost burst out crying right then. He had so many cuts and bruises covering his face. "What'd they do to you?"
"The same thing they'll do to you if they catch you in here." He finally made his way to me, I put my hand through the bars and lightly touched his beaten face, he winced.
"You promised me you'd be ok." I said not being able to hold back the tears any longer.
"I am ok." He didn't sound very convincing.
"But for how long. How long will they leave you rotting in this cell?" I was getting worked up.
"I knew this was a possibility Clarke, but I couldn't have you coming back here alone. I couldn't take the chance that something would happen to you." He closed his eyes as he spoke. Obviously, it pained him to even speak.
"You can't leave me. Do you hear me? I can't do this without you." I had both hands through the bars not wanting to lose his touch.
He took a deep breath then slowly blew it out. "I can't promise you that."
It was that moment that my worst fears came true, they weren't going to let him go and he knew it. He was going to die in this cell and there wasn't a thing I could do to help him.
"Can't you just promise that you'll stay here or something? We can stay here. As long as I'm with you I don't care where I'm at." I had completely broken down by this point. There was no chance of keeping my sobs in check.
"They don't trust me. They think if they let me loose then I'll recruit more of their people to leave again." He sounded defeated.
I should have known Marcus was full of shit, he sat there and lied straight to my face.
Everything happened so fast, the lights came on and all of a sudden, I was surrounded by guards. I heard Bellamy yelling my name, but I could no longer see him. There were so many guards I didn't have a chance. But I attempted to fight and actually was successful in getting two of them down but then I felt strong arms grab me from behind. I tried to get loose but this time I was unsuccessful, they drug me out kicking and screaming. The last thing I saw before being pulled into a doorway was a couple of the other guards opening Bellamy's cell door and attack him. I felt the fresh tears start streaming down my face.
I was shoved into the room and not gently at all and when I finally saw who it was that finally contained my I felt sick. It was Dax, my heart dropped, I knew John was now officially pulled into this mess.
"I knew there was no way in hell that John could actually get a girl like you." He said walking toward me again.
There was nowhere for me to go, I already checked. There was only one way to enter or leave this room and that door was behind Dax.
"So, Clarke you ready to change your mind about my offer from earlier? I may be able to get you out of some of this trouble." I knew it was the wrong move, but I spit in his face.
"You bitch." I had to admit when he was mad, he was scary, and he was quick.
Before I knew it, I was thrown across the room and hitting the wall. By the time I got back to my feet he was standing in front of me with his body pressed up against mine.
"You will never do that again. Next time you'll lose your teeth." He hissed.
The more he spoke the madder I became. Without thinking about the consequences, I punched him straight in the face. I hoped that it would have more of an effect then it did. Without even trying he had both of my hands in his pressed up against the wall behind me.
I really got myself into a pretty shitty situation.
"You're really making it hard for me not to hurt you." He said right before he plowed his lips into mine.
I didn't kiss him back, but it didn't stop him from continuing. Then he had his free hand all over my body. I still tried to fight him which just got my head thrown back into the wall. I finally started to give in, knowing that the harder I tried to fight the only thing that would happen is I would get hurt. I went limp and began to silently cry.
"Get your hands off her." I heard a roar from behind us. I knew I heard the voice before, but I couldn't place from where. "Get him out of here."
When I finally was able to focus I saw Marcus standing there. He looked at Dax like he was going to kill him which I didn't completely understand.
"Are you alright?" He finally came to me once Dax was out of the room.
I tried to be strong, but my legs gave out and I fell to the floor. The tears once again came.
"I'm sorry Clarke. He was just supposed to detain you until I got here. He was not supposed to lay a hand on you. He will be punished for that." He actually seemed to care.
"What are you going to do to me?" I didn't want to wait until he decided to tell me my fate, I wanted to know now.
"Obviously I'm not very happy you broke in, but I'm not surprised. I had a feeling you didn't accept my answer earlier." He told me truthfully.
"Are you going to kill him?" I didn't really want to know but I needed to.
"That's not something we discuss with civilians. What Bellamy did was a serious crime. We will vote on his fate." Marcus looked sadden by this decision.
"You think his fate has already been sealed, don't you?" I didn't need him to answer I could tell by his expression.
"This is something that you just wouldn't understand."
"Then make me understand." I yelled at him "you can't let him die Marcus. I won't be able to handle losing yet another person that I love. It'll break me. How do you think my mom will handle that?"
If nothing else I hoped playing the mom card would work.
"Clarke my hands are tied here. I have nothing to offer instead of him." He was obviously hinting at something without actually saying it.
"Just say what you want to Marcus. I don't like it when people beat around the bush."
He sighed "there is one thing. I don't know if they'll go for it, but it'll be a good trade."
"What is it?" That's perked my attention.
"You for him." Marcus said not taking his eyes off me. "You stay here, and we'll release him back out there but only if he promises to never come back."
I know. I know as soon as they seem like they'll be getting their happily ever after, they're getting pulled apart again.
