Memo: Isn't it funny how we lose track of time? Well not everyone else, mosly just me. Or mabe it's just because I procrastinate, but whatever. Yes, it has been a very long time since I updated, but what can I say? Even though I love writing, I can't do it all the time.
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She would have to understand. We were enemies. It was in our blood to kill the other. I sighed, shoving my hands into the pockets of my torn up jeans.
The bloodsucker didn't mean much at all to me, but to Bella…now that was a different story…
Chapter Quote:"Oh Bella, you will be the death of me. I swear you will."
I think I'm drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you've created
You're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction
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JACOB POV
It could no longer be ignored. I knew she was hurt. Badly. I couldn't try and pretend this didn't happen. Because it did. I had caused this. It was all my fault. He wouldn't be dead if it weren't for me.
The seconds would melt into minutes, the minutes to hours, the hours to days. I forced myself to think of anything else…anyone else besides Bella. But as much as I tried, I couldn't get my mind off her.
The pack kept trying to reassure me that she would forgive me…sooner or later. I doubted it. Why would she? Look at the facts Jacob. I was the one that killed him…and she…she obivously loved him. She would hate me for the rest of my life if I told her.But was it better to lie- to keep it it from her for as long as I lived, to not be able to stand looking into her soft face, to pretend I had no part in his death- when I was the reason behind it all?
Or was it better to tell her the truth? To accept what I had done, knowing that she may likely never look me in the face again.
The battle waged inside of me. One side would have to win. Once and for all.
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BELLA POV
4:15 PM
"Are you sure you brought everything?" Renee asked, for what seemed like the tenth time in a row. I sighed, pretending to check my packing list for her satisfaction.
"Yes Mom." She turned to face me. I could see tears starting to form in her eyes. "Aw, don't cry. I'll still come and visit." I wrapped my arms around her and squeezed gently. I could feel her shaking slightly. I let go and gathered my measly luggage, looking at Phil. He was more conservative. I hugged him once, and let go, facing the gate.
"Now boarding first class seats," the announcer said. "First class seats, please board." I looked up at Renee.
"I'm going up after this." She hugged me again, and looked down at me with a stern face.
"Now remember to be on your best behavior with Charlie, and don't get into any trouble." I could catch the joking tone in her voice. I nodded.
"Seat numbers twenty-two D to thirty-two, now boarding." That was me.
"I'll miss you," Renee said.
"I'll miss you too," I replied. I turned to leave.
"Remember to e-mail me Bella Swan, or I'll have you sent back to Phoenix immediately."
"Of course," I said, sarcastically. I walked up to the desk, handing the flight attendant my boarding pass, and waved, gloomily, seeing Renee's happy face and Phil's serious one. The attendant ushered me on, and I quickly walked up the flight ramp, turning to catch one last glimpse of the brilliant Phoenix sunshine soaking through the windows…I wouldn't be seeing that in Forks.
………
"Please remain seated until the plane comes to a complete stop. Make sure your seats are up to their first position and the food tray is locked into place. Thank you for flying with United airlines. Be sure to join us again for our many flights all over the country!"
I sighed, warily, staring out the window at the dark clouds and rain washed ground. Yep. I was definitely in the U.P.
The seat belt sign flickered off, and I slowly got to my feet, stretching. People were beginning to get out as well, lifting up the compartment above and taking out their suitcases. I slid out to the aisle and began walking down to the air hostess at the far end, showing the passengers toward the exit.
My feet caught on some unknown object as I was walking, and I tripped, spreading my hands out to catch my fall. Before I hit the ground, however; strong, sturdy arms caught me and gradually lifted me up. I stumbled awkwardly, looking at the person who had caused me to lose the bruises I would have had otherwise.
He was a man with dark, wavy hair and catlike eyes. His skin was pale and harsh. He could have passed as a vampire, but he didn't have the hard muscles or the maroon/topaz eyes. Instead, his eyes were an ordinary brown, and his build was slightly smaller than that of the pale beauties I could recall so easily. A/N: Remember this guy!)
The passengers behind me were getting restless, what with me standing in the middle of the aisle and all. I turned my head from him and continued down the plane, this time, being careful not to trip on anything.
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7:23 PM
By the time I had finished getting my measly luggage from the baggage claim, riding the shuttle back to the main building where the parking structure was located, and arrived at the cab, it was already close to 7:30 PM.
Charlie wasn't there to pick me up like before. Supposedly, there was some robbery in the Newton's store and he had to be there to check it out.
I didn't mind that much. Charlie and I would probably only say a few words on the ride back anyway.
I signaled for a cab, and when it came, gave the driver the directions and address, sitting inside the back seat that smelled faintly like tobacco with a hint of peppermint.
The ride was long and slow, and soon, I could feel myself nodding off to sleep…
………
I was walking down the same street again- wandering aimlessly. I waited for what I knew was coming. Edward gripped my arm and I whirled around.
"Time. You are running out of time," he whispered.
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"Miss, miss!" A voice yelled, seemingly far away. "Wake up!" Something shook me, and my eyes fluttered open. I looked up into the curious face of the driver.
"Are you ok?" he questioned. "You were screaming." I gulped. My mouth tasted like sour bile.
"Yeah," I muttered. "It was probably a bad dream." There really was no need to tell him the details.
He stopped the car and looked back at me.
"Are you sure you'll be alright?" he asked again. I frowned.
"I'll be fine." I handed him the money and slowly got out of the cab, grabbing my suitcase from the trunk.
I made my way up the street. The taxi slowly left, and I was alone. I'd told him to drop me by the road. I wasn't going to Charlie's house. Instead, I was heading toward his mansion…Edward's. His name no longer caused me to double over, clutching my chest, but when no one was looking, that's exactly what would happen. I couldn't bear the thought of him. Just imagining his perfect face would cause me to remember so many things I wanted to keep uncovered. I didn't want to think of him. Yet, I was heading towards his house right now, where all the memories would start to come back.
The rain had gone down to a slight drizzle when I finally reached the barely visible path to the house. I stepped through the trees and stopped immediately.
It was exactly the same. I don't know what I'd expected…maybe black drapes in place of the soft white ones, or stakes pushed through the doors. But nothing had changed. Coming to that realization was even worse. It was too overwhelming for me. I couldn't think properly at all. One name screamed through my mind over and over. Edward.
And for the first time in a long time, I acknowledged the truth.
There was no hope left. There was no love. There was nothing left in Pandora's Box. He was gone…never coming back.
Right then and there, I accepted the truth.
Edward had died. And there was nothing I could do about it.
I sunk to the ground, collapsing.
The hole inside me had achieved its goal.
Finally, it destroyed me.
You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me
A/N: Hey everyone! I hoped you liked it! Again, sorry for the late update.
Chapter Summary:
In the first part, Jacob is debating whether to tell the truth to Bella or lie. Then Bella's going on her airplane to Forks. By the time she reaches, its 7:30. She takes a cab since Charlie is occupied with a robbery at the Newton's…which rarely happens so he has to be there to figure stuff out since he's the chief police.
Later, Bella has the same dream again and the driver wakes her up, asking if she's ok. She says yes, of course, hiding her true feelings. He drops her off at a side street and she heads off to the Cullens house (Alice had told her to come here first three chapters ago).
When she sees the house, she finally tells herself that Edward is really dead and nothing can change that.
From shock mostly she collapses on the driveway.
Song: Time Is Running Out by Muse.
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