AN: ANOTHER chapter? I must be crazy..
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Gibbs had carried Tony out in the car and driven him home. He was tired. Exhausted and Tony hadn't gotten too much sleep himself. He had carried Tony upstairs and fallen on

the bed, instantly falling asleep. Eight hours they had slept there, together, curled into a ball, both men to exhausted to speak or cling to eachother, but both still wanting to be

close to one another.

Tony was looking at him when he woke up, propped up on his left elbow.

"Hey" Gibbs said.

"Hey yourself" Tony said, "you know, you're pretty when you sleep" Tony said and looked up, smiling, "that came out SO wrong" he said and looked down at Gibbs. Gibbs

chuckled.

"What I meant was of course that you're very.. hot.. and... masculine!" Tony said. Gibbs chuckled again and grabbed Tony, pulling him close.

"So I'm pretty huh?" Gibbs asked. Tony laughed as he started tickling him.

"Oh no, it's a squid!" Tony laughed as GIbbs chuckled, continuing to tickle him.

"Okay okay I give up.. please stop.. please" Tony panted. Gibbs stopped and lay down again. Tony looked at him, still panting slightly.

"It's not really fair you know, that I have all these ticklish spots and you have none" Tony said. Gibbs looked at him.

"I think it's very fair" Gibbs smirked, "especially when you do that.. thing.. with your tounge?"

"Oh right.. and the.. other thing.. " Tony smirked.

"What other thing?" Gibbs asked.

"This one" Tony said and dived into Gibbs's chest.

"TONY!" Gibbs yelped as soemthing Tony did sent a wanted reaction through his system and at the same time hurt him. Tony looked up at him.

"So you like that, huh?" Tony asked.

"Oh shut the hell up" Gibbs growled and kissed him.

They made love. Slowly. GIbbs was afraid he would hurt Tony and Tony was afraid he wasn't attractive anymore. Neither man voiced their worries.

"'S nice" Tony mumbled as they lay in the bathtub. Gibbs was gently massaging his aching shoulders.

"You're just lucky you got me" Gibbs smirked.

"I know.. do.. do I look.. different?" Tony asked, his fingers tracing some text on a shampoo bottle.

"Of course you're different Tony, you've lost weight, you've been sick, you forget things.. of course you're different, but that doesn't necessarely mean that you've changed for the

worse" Gibbs said and kissed his shoulder. Tony shuttered involuntarily. That gave him the answer to.. nothing.

"No.. it's.. it's not that.. I.. God I'm such a whiny little kid sometimes.. am I ugly.. do I.. do I repulse you?" Tony asked, not turning around. Gibbs frowned. He looked at the

back of Tony's head, hair regrowing.

"Where's these thoughts coming from Tony?" Gibbs asked.

"I don't know, can you just.. if you find me.. repulsive.. I'll go, okay?" Tony asked, "I'll move out and-"

"HEY!" Gibbs shouted. Tony looked at him, "I love you, and I think you're gorgeous, I think you're the best person in the world,and please don't make me repeat that, I'm not

exactly Don Juan" GIbbs chuckled. Tony smiled.

"You could do so much better.. go out and find yourself a healthy dude with-"

"No humor, no emerald green eyes that says 'I love you Jet', no cravings for icecream at five in the morning, no guy in my bathtub pressing on my bladder" Gibbs said, cupping

Tony's face in his hands. Tony's elbow immediatly removed it's preassure on Gibbs's bladder.

"Thank you Tony" Gibbs said and kissed his temple.

"No problem.. I love you Jet?" Tony said.

"I love you too Tony" GIbbs said and smirked.

When Gibbs came back from the store, Abby and Ducky were there. They looked a bit panicked and ran over to Gibbs's car window.

"Is he okay?" Gibbs asked.

"We don't know! We can't find him!" Abby said. Gibbs's mind raced a mile a minute. If Tony was out there all alone he could die. In his current state police could take him for a

drug addict, people could easily overpower him and.. no.. no he couldn't afford to panic right now, he needed to stay calm and find Tony.

"Get in" GIbbs said. Ducky and Abby got into the car and they drove slowly through the neighbourhood. Tony was nowhere to be seen.

"Places Gibbs?" Abby asked.

"Places?" GIbbs asked.

"Jethro.. where does Anthony like to go? Was he upset? Was he happy? Where's the most likely place he'll be?" Ducky asked.

"At HOME!" Gibbs growled, then sighed, "I'm sorry Duck.. it's just.. he asked me if I.. if he was different.. if I was attracted to him anymore, and I am! But I don't think he

believed me.. he might have gone to the baseball field.. did you see Winnie anywhere?"

"No, he took her with him" Abby said.

"Good, Winnie's smart" Gibbs said, "I swear that dog understands exactly what we're saying to her".

"I know, she always knows when she's in trouble, and she sort of looks at you, her head going from side to side.." Abby said.

"Yeah.." Gibbs sighed. He stopped the car outside the baseball field. Abby and Gibbs climbed the ladder up to the top and looked over the stadium. Gibbs had even brought his

binoculears from the car.

"Not here.. TONY!" Gibbs yelled. No reply.

"Where else can he be?" Abby asked. Gibbs let his arms fall to his side, his jaw clenched and he closed his eyes.

"Graveyard" Gibbs said.

"Why?" ABby asked.

"John had cancer.. John's an old friends dad.. you know.. Greggory House?" Gibbs asked.

"Right, the mean guy?" Abby asked. Gibbs chuckled sadly.

"Tony wanted to visit the grave, and told Greg he's place a candle on it.. Greg said whatever but we both know it would mean a whole damn lot to him" Gibbs said.

"Then let's go" Abby said, and they climbed back down again.

"There he is!" Ducky exclaimed as they saw Tony sitting outsid the graveyard, there was one single candle lighting up one single grave, and Tony was panting slightly, shivering.

Gibbs braked hard and jumped out of the car, sprinting over to Tony and embracing him.

"Don't you ever.. EVER.. do that again" GIbbs said, blinking away tears. Winnie barked happily.

"Uh.. right?" Tony asked.

"We came over, and you were gone" Abby explained.

"I left a note" Tony said.

"We found none" Ducky said.

"Oh.. I.. Jet I forgot to leave the note.. it's right here in my pocket, I'm sorry" Tony said and hugged Gibbs back.

"You scared me Tony! Really scared me tonight! Don't you ever go out without telling me where!" Gibbs said.

"I had my cellphone, you could've called?" Tony asked. Gibbs released him and WInnie jumed happly onto two legs and pawed at Gibbs's pantleg. Gibbs slapped himself in the

face.

"I forgot" Gibbs explained.

"Welcome to my world sister" Tony said and smirked.

"Hey! Why didn't any of you call him?" Gibbs asked.

"We didn't know he'd gotten a cellphoe again Jethro, honestly" Ducky said, "you two are the most forgetful couple I know". They all laughed at that. Tony picked Winnie up.

"You wanna ride shotgun with daddy and daddy? Yeah.. she does" Tony said and smiled.

"You cold?" Gibbs asked. Tony nodded. Gibbs sighed and sat down next to him, hugging the cold body closely. WInnie had laid down on top of Tony's feet. Tony looked up at

Gibbs.

"I'm sorry i forgot to leave the note, I just wanted to leave that light.. I told you I'd do it if I made the surgery" Tony sighed.

"I know.. I just... I panicked when Abs and Duck said you were gone. I thought you'd walked out on me" Gibbs said.

"Hey, I'm over six feet, bald, look like I just came from a concentration camp, you think I could've walked away without anyone noticing in your own neighbourhood?" Tony

asked. Gibbs chuckled.

"Yeah" GIbbs said, "you did".

"Not to leave you.. I'll never leave you" Tony said and hugged GIbbs back, closing his eyes.

"You scared me" Gibbs said again.

"'m sorry" Tony mmbled, drifting off to sleep. Gibbs grabbed the blanket next to him and sat back, helping Tony adjust and sprawl out on the sofa. Tony's head was on Gibbs's

lap.

Slashback:

"Hi Greg.. condolations.. no.. yeah.. no it's fine.. yeah.. no of course not.. yeah? Sure.. I know WIlson's the best.. yeah.. if I survive I'll plant a light on his grave.. I.. sure.. yeah

I'm a very mean person.. bye Greg" Tony said and hung up.

"That was Greg" Tony said to Gibbs.

"House?" Gibbs asked.

"No, Greg Wilson.. pffft... of course it was Greg House" Tony chuckled.

"Yeah yeah.. so.. you're all set for tomorrow?" Gibbs asked.

"Yeah.. think so... doctor Jack.. i love that name by the way, told me I'm going to feel like death warmed over.. loose my hair.. my dignity, throw up, wet myself, have seizures if

the tumor grows.." Tony sighed. Gibbs grabbed him and pulled him close.

"You should eat.. a lot" Gibbs said.

"I've already eat three tubs of icecream today, I'm going to be cold for a month if I eat anymore" Tony sighed and leant back against Gibbs, "I'm scared".

"Yeah.. so am I" Gibbs admitted.

Present:

"It just ain't liiiviiiing, and the hardest part of thiiis, is missing yooou.." Tony murmured.

"Nice Tony, singing a song named cancer?" Gibbs raised an eyebrow.

"You know, honestly I didn't even think about that.. but you're right, kind of overkill" Tony said and sighed, "the sofa is trying to kill my back..and I don't think I can even sit up".

Gibbs got up and hoisted Tony into his arms.

Yeah, he was scared, scared out of his mind. But they would have to make this work. And they both had to believe it was going to be okay.

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AN: My GOD I'm just that good.. I will update as soon as I can.. again..