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Gibbs had carried Tony inside the hospital and they had to physically pry his fingers from Tony's sleeping form to be able to take a look at him. Ducky and Gerald had pulled him out from the ER room, and now he was pacing the waitingroom floor as a caged, pissed off, very dangerous dragon.
"Gibbs, stop walking or pay for a new floor" Abby said.
Gibbs shot her attempt down with a stare.
"She's right Jethro, you are wearing through the concrete" Ducky chuckled.
"I can't help it.. he's so.. he's still recovering Duck! How the hell could Antonio do such a thing? And I haven't even told Tony his father's dead! And Tony.. Christ!" Gibbs said and plumped down ina chair.
"Gerald, could you please go get a cup of coffee for Jethro?" Ducky asked.
Just that moment a door opened.
"Leroy Jethro Gibbs?" a voice asked.
Gibbs stood up and walked over, followed by Abby, Gerald and Ducky.
"How is he?" Gibbs asked.
"He's exhausted and we had to sow the gunshot wound to the head, but otherwise he's lucid, and asking for you" the nurse said.
"Gunshot wound?" Ducky asked.
"yes, it took out a fair amount of skin on the right side of his head" the nurse said.
Gibbs pushed past her and walked into the room, to see Tony nowhere.
"Excuse me sir, ICU" the nurse said.
"Well then take me TO him then!" Gibbs growled.
"Of course, right this way" the nurse said and led Gibbs to the ICU.
Tony was laying pale and blinking tiredly, a heart monitor showing he was alive, and an IV drip in his arm. Gibbs grinned like a happy baboon when he saw him.
"Hey there champ" Gibbs said.
Tony turned a tired head around and looked at Gibbs.
"Jet!" he said ad reached out a trembling hand.
Gibbs sat down and took it, kissing the back of Tony's hand over and over.
"Hey, easy there, I might need that hand later you know" Tony said tiredly.
"Yeah, well, not anytime soon" GIbbs said, "I was worried"
"I'm sorry.. I.. I thought he'd changed.." Tony sighed.
"The note at home Tony?" Gibbs asked.
Tony started playing with a piece of his comforter.
"I.. I was just so... so damn frustrated, you know? I try so damn hard.. I want to be there for you but I keep forgetting important stuff, hell I even forget your name sometimes.. I just.. and then there's dad.. the fucking twerp..I wish he was dead.." Tony sighed.
Gibbs froze.
"Tony.. there's.. there's something I haven't told you yet" Gibbs said.
"You're leaving me, right? I know I'm hard to live with, and sinse I'm sick I understand an-"
"Shut up Tony" GIbbs said.
"Shutting up now boss" Tony said.
"When we first came here I was told you were in surgery, and that you may never wake up.. and.. i was told you were dead.. I walked in and...Tony.. your dad died from a car accident" Gibbs said, bit his lower lip and looked at Tony.
"I.. waow.. must've been a shooting star when I.. I.. shouldn't I be happy? He's never even liked me and.. he's.. was.. a very violent man.. and yet I feel.. sad.. somehow" Tony said.
"It's normal Tony, anyway you look at it, he was your dad" Gibbs said.
"Waow.. he's.. crap.. he's dead.. he's really gone?" Tony asked.
Gibbs simply nodded.
"That's.. that's HUGE Jet.. that's.. waow" Tony said, "I thought it wouldn't matter if he died but.. but I'd have liked it to end with some good words between us.. instead he tried to shoot me because I'm gay"
"He DID shoot you Tony" Gibbs said.
"And yet I feel so hollow, strangely enough" Tony said and chuckled along with Gibbs.
"This can't be a healthy reaction, laughing when I get shot by my so called dad and I'm sad because he's dead..this is some big Oedipus complex or something" Tony said.
"So you've always had a thing for your mother then?" GIbbs asked, and they both chuckled again.
Tony looked at him.
"Maybe.. maybe I'll join you in councelling Jet.. maybe we could.. figure things out" Tony sighed.
"I want you to know something Tony-"
"Heeere we go" Tony said and rolled his eyes.
"No.. listen to me.. we'll only go if you WANT to go, but I need this.. I need... help.. I almost kicked Thomas's big ugly ass for giving you a ride" Gibbs said.
Tony chuckled.
"Poor Thomas, he wont come over anymore then?" Tony asked.
"He will, in ten years or so.. but Tony, what I'm trying to say is.. aw crap, you see? THIS s why I need help! I can't even say what I'm feeling!" Gibbs said.
"Oh yeah, you're real messed up" Tony said and laughed. Gibbs chuckled along with him.
"I thought the note.. the one you wrote at home.. that you used it as an excuse to walk out on me.. and.. and at first all I could think about was that I had to hunt you down and ask you why.. but then I got that you're.. scared" Gibbs sighed.
"DiNozzo's don't get scared, we-"
"-eat icecream, yeah, I know.. but you've been to a shrink before and she.. I know, I'm a bastard, but I did backgroundchecks on every single one I work with, and she wasn't very nice.. and I don't want to go because of you, I want to go because I want to be better for you" Gibbs said.
"Waow.. this must be some big breathrough or something.. just kidding.. hey.. Jet? I WANT to go with you.. can.. can you forgive me for being a stupid ass?" Tony asked.
"yeah, I think I could do that" Gibbs smiled and kissed Tony.
It was going to be hard, but they'd make it.
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AN: I think that I'm done.. you agree with me??? Or one last chapter? Anything you want cleared up?
