Hi! Hehe, I forgot, this IS the third to last chapter. Anyways here is "Broken Memories"! The boldface is Robin's part, the underlined chorus is Starfire's...they're not singing, it just fits with them. If you want, you can just enjoy the song, I just like making things complicated.
Sorry I haven't updated sooner, I was painting my bedroom for the past two days. It is now PURPLE!
Sound familiar?
Disclaimer: I don't own TT or "Broken Memories" by FairieAngelx3o
Starfire was...well, to say she was better would be exaggerating, but she was improving. She had less nightmares and more 'normal' moments, where she was in that same depressed state. Her made-up memory bank, however, had stopped working. Robin never stopped filling her in on life with the Titans, and, though she didn't remember it, it filled the missing spots. Robin had been working with her on her powers, too, although flight wasn't coming on so well. Plus, there wasn't a whole lot to be righteously furious about besides hating him.
Hold on tight
with all your might
open your eyes and see
that this love is gone between you and me
say goodbye
cause I won't be back ever again
Up and down
you're everywhere to me (woah woah woahh woah)
Flashback
"Alright, just imagine that there's a huge, gooey monster attacking Tamaran, and you're the only one that can stop it. Just get angry at it. Don't hate it, hate what it's doing to your home," Robin instructed. Starfire's hands glowed a faint green. "Good! You're getting there. Now try again. What makes you angry more than anything else?"
Starfire thought for a minute, and then shook her head. "Nothing."
"Come on, Star, there has to be something," Robin prodded. Again, she shook her head.
"I cannot feel anger." Huge setback. Robin should have known. All she ever showed was sadness or despair.
"I guess boundless joy's out of the question, too," he muttered. Starfire agreed. "Well, we'll just have to make the best of it. I want you to concentrate as hard as you can. Even a little bit of anger would help. Just concentrate." A little more glowing. Starfire sank down to the floor, exhausted, and Robin hurried over to her. "That's enough for today. Let's get you back to your room."
End Flashback
Broken heart, broken dream
all I have about you are
broken memories.
You took my glass heart
and threw it to the cold floor
and now I know
we are no more
and all I have from that are broken memories
Flashback
"Robin, what are you doing?" asked Starfire. She had come to sleep, after walking all the way from her room to Robin's and back. Granted, it was only about fifty feet, but it was the start of a miracle for her.
Robin was standing on her four-poster bed, attaching a thick, black cloth to each of the four posts. The cloth had strategically placed holes poked in it, and was otherwise completely opaque, even under light.
"You'll see," Robin answered. He finished with his cloth and climbed up to the top of a post, attaching a string to the ceiling of the room. "Hey, Star? Could you hand me that candle?" Starfire located the unlit candle and gave it to him, watching warily. Robin tied the string around it and lit the candle. The effect was amazing.
"Robin..." Starfire breathed. He climbed back down, smiling a little.
"Do you remember?"
The two sat on Starfire's bed, underneath the cloth, and looked up at Robin's imitation of Earth's night sky. "Look, you can see the Big Dipper. And that's the North Star. It never moves, and it's the brightest in the sky, so people can always tell which way is which after the sun goes down. About two hundred years ago, give or take, slaves escaping from plantations would use this star to guide them to freedom," Robin explained. Starfire nodded.
"It is..."
"Halfway decent? You should've seen the nights on Earth. They were way better than this. You and I would always sit up on the roof of Titan's Tower together, watching the sunset. I won't even try to recreate that. You'll have to go to Earth someday to see it." Starfire knew she never would, and now, Robin wouldn't either.
End Flashback
I never said 'I'm sorry'
but I did hear 'I'm leaving; goodbye'
Pictures of you still make me smile
A kid plays with his toy
Laughing, smiling, and showing all his joy
And then I know that I need to let go
Flashback
"Trust me," Robin whispered in Starfire's ear. She gulped, wrapping her arms around Robin's neck. Jumping from the roof of the palace, he grinned easily as Starfire squealed with fear. There were falling alarmingly fast. He fired his grappling hook at the roof again, enjoying the feeling of her embrace. He'd missed it so much. Was it just him, or was there an extra sparkle in her eye?
They landed back on the roof they'd started on, and Starfire went as limp as a rag doll again, any faint sign of happiness long gone. "So that is the joy of flight you wished for me to experience." Robin nodded, his smile faltering.
"And...?"
"I wish to go to my room now." Robin had known something like that was coming up. Her feelings were now so complicated, even she couldn't understand them. Now he had brought joy in the picture, and it was worse. She needed to think. Still, he didn't regret putting that on her. Everyone needed to feel joy, especially Starfire, Miss Happiness Incarnate.
"I know, and I'll take you there, but first, did you like it?" Starfire turned to him with a blank look on her face. "Flying? Did you like flying?"
"I do not know." She started shaking, and Robin held her while she had another one of her attacks. This was not working.
End Flashback
Broken heart, broken dream
all I have about you are
broken memories.
You took my glass heart
and threw it to the cold floor
and now I know
we are no more
and all I have from that are broken memories
This was it. He'd failed. Tomorrow was the day, and Starfire was Starfire no longer. He could only hope the Titans would come, find out what happened to him, and help her. He hadn't been able to, but maybe they would be more successful. Deep down, he knew it wasn't happening. Starfire was lost forever.
"You are going tomorrow," Starfire said.
"Huh?"
"Galfore said you are going back to Earth tomorrow." More lies. He couldn't help but be surprised at the lengths Galfore would go to protect Starfire from any harm.
"Um...yeah. I..." Robin wasn't sure what else to say. Staring down at the floor, he waited for her reaction.
"Why?" He didn't dare look up.
"I don't really have a choice, Star," he admitted truthfully.
"Do not call me 'Star'! My name is Koriand'r! You are a clorbag! A traitor! Why would you leave me? You said you loved me!" she whispered furiously.
"Star!" he cried, glancing up. Her eyes glowed slightly green, and he wondered if his execution would come a day early. Star was righteously furious. Star had no control over her powers. Star was mad at him. He was in big trouble. "That's not it at all! If I could stay, I would, but I can't..."
"I do not understand," she replied coldly.
"I don't want you to."
There was a very long pause. "Stay," she murmured. "Please." There were tears in her glow-less emerald eyes. Robin swallowed, a huge lump appearing out of nowhere in his throat. This would not do at all. Starfire couldn't want him to stay. She'd be miserable when he 'left,' not that that thought made it any easier for Robin to say what was right.
"I lied, okay? I don't love you. I need you to get better. Everyone does. Galfore brought me here to help you, and he's sending me back tomorrow because I'm not doing my job. You're still depressed. I never did love you."
Starfire didn't respond to this at first. "So all of the stories about the Titans...they were lies as well?"
"No. They were the truth."
Starfire pondered this, and got angry again. "This is not making the sense! How could they be true when you said you did not love me? What about the top of the roof? What about the city of Tokyo? What about...get out! I hate you! I never want to see you again!" she screeched. Grabbing her pillow, she hurled it at him. Somehow, anger brought her strength back. Wonderful, thought Robin wryly as it hit him in the stomach, knocking the wind out of him and sending him careening into the wall. Only Tamaranians could turn pillows into lethal weapons.
"I'm going," he mumbled softly, clutching his stomach and leaving the room.
Her sobs plagued his mind the whole night.
"Up!" a burly guard ordered him. Robin jerked himself awake, climbing out of bed as fast as he could. Unfortunately, this earned him no brownie points from the three huge men glaring at him. Was everyone on Tamaran over seven feet tall?
The guards felt that beating up the prisoner was a great way to repay him for nearly killing the princess. Two of the grabbed his limbs, holding him up high while the third punched him in the face. Robin heard his nose crack and blood gushed out, dripping into his mouth before he could close it. He spat, and the wad landed on one guards shoe. The big man didn't appreciate this, and Robin was pretty sure they'd broken most of his ribs before forcing him to walk, lashing out if he stumbled or slowed down. The pain was unbearable.
The procession passed Starfire's room, and Robin fell, panting heavily. One guard kicked him, and he cried out in agony. Starfire's door opened, revealing the princess herself. She gawked at Robin's condition, while a guard gave her the summary of the situation in rapid Tamaranian.
"Execution. You said you were going back to Earth." Robin didn't bother moving. It hurt too much. Starfire and the guard exchanged quick conversation, and one man helped him up, carrying him into Starfire's room and laying him roughly on the bed. Then he left, replaced by Starfire. Robin's vision was now so blurred, he could barely tell the difference.
"Angel?" he croaked in question. Starfire frowned.
"A heavenly being? I do not believe there is one in the room. If you are able to speak, then speak. If not, you may nod or shake your head. You are to be executed?" she asked shakily.
Robin winced, but nodded. It hurt a lot.
"You lied about going back to Earth?"
Robin nodded again.
"Galfore made this lie up?"
Robin nodded a little hesitantly. Starfire sighed.
"Galfore has ordered for you to die?"
Robin grew tired of nodding, so he choked out, "Yeah. And I'm sorry about what I said yesterday, Starfire, but I'd rather you believe me a lying coward than miss me." He attempted a grin, and Starfire started to cry. Huge, diamond-like tears fell out of her eyes, and Robin was helpless to wipe them away. "Don't cry, Star, please don't cry. Smile for me, one last time. Please." She cried even harder, grabbing a cloth to wipe the blood off his face.
"I...don't want...you to...go!" she wept, her arms shaking dangerously. Robin shushed her, still trying to smile, as a guard came in to take him away again. He was jerked upwards, gritting his teeth against the pain.
"I love you, Star."
Her entire body was convulsing, now, but she managed to blubber, "I love you, as well." It was the most he could have asked for.
"Goodbye..." he whispered.
The word 'struck a bell,' she believed the phrase was. Somehow, someway, it fit.
Flashback of a Flashback
"Goodbye..." she whispered, concentrating as hard as she could and taking off into space.
End Flashback
"Robin!" she cried out. It was too late. He was already gone.
Again I say, as if I haven't said it enough, I loved the song, and that was a first time, too! I hope you keep writing songs, because you're GREAT!
Ahem. My outburst is over.
LOL.
Anyways, hope you guys liked the chapter. You know the drill:
Dude, this was so rushed...blah, blah, blah...I swear all I can write is rushed stories...yadda, yadda...thank goodness it's almost over, I can't believe I made you guys read ANOTHER horrible story...
My self esteem gets a kick outta that.
Ah well. If you voluntarily subject yourself to the torture of readig my stories, then I salute you. If you happened to read the whole this by accident and are now scared to death of FanFiction writers, well...I don't know what to say to you. Usually, people who don't like the story don't go to chapter four without leaving a flame. ANYDAY NOW.
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