Warning: This chapter has an M rating in my opinion the context can be very disturbing to some.
It was after Neela's shift, she tried all day to call Ray and he would not answer the phone. She started to get worried that something had happened to him. She took the L to his apartment. When she reached the apartment she rang the door bell but, there was no answer. Neela called out Ray's name but still no answer. Neela remembered that Ray left a spare key on top of the door frame. She got the key and decided to open the door. When she open the door the apartment was dark, she started to worry that Ray never went home last night. She walked to his bedroom and he was not there. She went to the kitchen and he was not there either. She looked over to her old bedroom and noticed that the door was slightly opened she walked over and opened it slowly. When she looked inside she saw Ray sitting at the edge of her old bed, holding on to a picture they took about five weeks ago. It was when the fair came to town and her and Ray decided to go. I was actually their first real date. Neela walked up to him and stop right next to him. She could see that he was upset.
"Ray, what is the matter I have been trying to call you all day, I was worried about you?"
Ray never answered her.
"Ray, what is going on why are you sitting here like this?"
Again he never answered her.
"Ray, dammit I am speaking to you answer me please. What happened?"
Ray looked up at Neela with a look that brought shivers down her spine.
"Ray, what is it?"
"Neela, why are you here in my apartment?"
"Ray, I was worried about you, I tried to call you all day, and then Pratt told me you called out. Why are you sick?"
"I need you to leave right now."
"What?"
"Leave me alone Neela, leave my apartment right now." Ray's voice was increasing in tone.
"But Ray why?'
He looked at her, and then he stood up and walked towards the window. Neela was unable to move. She was afraid she did not know what was going through Ray's mind at that moment. Ray started to speak in a low tone and elevated it as he went on.
"Neela, I never thought in my wildest dreams I would ever say this but you are a lying bitch."
Neela was in utter shock by his words.
"Excuse me?"
"You heard you are a lying bitch, you have been lying to me all this time about how much you love me and how much I mean to you. I am so stupid to even think I could fall for you bull shit. I opened up my heart to you and what you do chew it up and spit it right out."
"Ray, what are you talking about?" Tears started to form in Neela's eyes.
"Don't act like you are innocent Neela, because you are not. You know maybe Katey was right, trying to be with you was only going to bring me heartache and grief."
"Ray what are you talking about I love you, with all my heart. I want to be with you."
By now Ray was really angry. He turned and faced Neela.
"STOP, STOP YOU'RE LYING, GET OUT OF MY APARTMENT AND DON'T EVER SPEAK TO ME AGAIN. WHAT I THOUGHT WE HAD IS OVER. NOW GET THE FUCK OUT."
Neela could hear the anger in his voice, all she could do is run out of Ray's apartment as fast as she could. She had reached the end of the street and was crying uncontrollably. She was able to control her crying enough to hail a cab to get her home. When she got home she dropped on the floor and was shaking not really understanding what had just happened at Ray's. She heard her phone ring she looked at the caller ID and saw it was Marie. She answered the phone sobbing.
"Hello..."
"Neela, Neela what is the matter?"
"Maarrie, Ray hee haates me?"
"Neela calm down, tell me what happened?"
Neela took a few breathes before she answered Marie.
"I went to talk to him about what was going on at his apartment and he was so angry he called me a lying bitch, and yelled at me, I think he found out about Tony."
"How did he find out?'
"I don't know maybe Tony told him."
"Neela honey I'm so sorry."
"Marie, I lost him, I lost the one man I truly love. My life is a mess again. I don't even want to live anymore."
"Neela don't talk that way you need to go talk to Ray again. Explain yourself."
"No Marie he won't listen anymore. Even if I did both our careers are over. The way he was he'll confront Tony and he will either kill him, or Tony will tell the hospital board. Then I really won't have any thing anymore. I lost Michael, now Ray. I can't go through this heartache again. I just want to disappear."
"NEELA, you are scaring me stop talking that way."
In the background Jon ask Marie what is going on. Marie tells Jon to call Ray right Now and tell him to go to Neela's right now. Jon not sure what is going on, calls Ray anyway, but there is no answer. He called his apartment and his cell phone.
"Ray, Listen its Jon I don't know what is going on but Marie said you should go to Neela's right now it is important. Call me if you get this message man!"
Marie was trying to keep Neela on the phone as long as she could.
"Neela, Neela listen to me relax okay I will call Ray and talk to him for you okay."
"No, it's too late."
"No, Neela it's not don't do anything stupid Neela."
"No Marie it is I have to go now, I love you sis…Bye."
"NEELA, NEELA DON'T HANG UP…"
Click
When Neela hang up the phone she grabbed a bottle of sleeping pills Abby prescribed her when Michael died so she could sleep. She started to take them one by one and by the time she realized she had taken three quarters of the bottle. She sat on the bathroom floor still crying as the pills started to take effect.
Marie started to panic, Jon could not figure out what was going on.
"Baby, what is going on? Why does Ray have to go to Neela's?"
"Oh god baby, I have to call the hospital."
"Why, what hospital?"
"County, I have to send them to Neela's place right now, before it is too late."
"Marie slow down tell what is going on."
"I'll tell you in a minute I have to make this call now."
"Hello county General." Answered a cranky Frank
"Frank this is Marie, Can I speak to Abby."
"Hey Marie how are you?"
"Not to good can I please speak to Abby."
"Sure, hold on. She's right here."
"Marie, hi it's Abby. What's up?"
"Abby, you need to get to Neela's right now."
"Why what happened?"
"I think she is trying to… I god I can't say it."
"Marie, What is it?"
"Kill herself."
"WHAT?"
"Get over there now."
"Okay I will."
"I'll be on the next flight out Abby, please hurry."
Abby franticly hang up the phone and ran to Pratt who was the attending in charge and told him what Marie said. He told Abby to go and have one of the paramedics take her.
When Abby reached Neela's she banged on the door no answer, she kept banging on the door. Luckily she still had he keys. She rushed inside and started to look all over for Neela she found her pasted out on the bathroom floor. She rushed to her side and started to take her vitals, her pulse was weak and her breathing was shallow. Abby saw the bottle of sleeping pills next to her. Abby and the paramedics where able to stable her and brought right away to county.
