I did this chap III after reading a fanfic- Into You I Go. It's really nice. Kinda felt pretty bad coz it's still unfinished. Though it's late in the eve, I wrote this chap coz I just feel so inspired at the moment…
Thanks again for those who reviewed…
This chap is dedicated to the real life version of Mikan Sakura in my life, (I wanted to make her identity a secret but MA. SHAREE LOU A. VILLANUEVA pestered me to introduce her name to the world). Well, thank you so much for introducing me to the world of fanfiction and Alice Academy… I owe you one…
-aiyensakura02
Disclaimer: Don't own Gakuen Alice even though Kami-sama knows how much I wanted to…
CHAPTER III: Feeling Pain to Love
Everywhere there was light…
It feels different. He never knew of this feeling before, much more surprised to even experience how it felt. The way things looked so much brighter, the way his cold insides turned into a body so full of warmth and life, the way he looked into his window just after waking up and admire the beauty of the world inside the academy he cursed but still protected all his life. He never felt happier.
"Got to go check on my only and favorite polka.", Natsume said to no one in particular as he walked towards the girls dormitory.
He felt ecstatic to the thought of just seeing her. For how long he, unconsciously at first, yearned to be with her might just be the equal time Mikan Sakura have spent her life at the Academy. Yeah, he wanted her from the very beginning.
Now he have her. And the last thing he'll ever do is to let her go. She will be his. She is HIS.
Stopping for a few seconds in her front door, Natsume made an effort to regain his cool composure. He's like so in-love, that was kinda hard to admit out loud today, but he still can't let her guard down. He doesn't want to look so hormone-enraged for Pete's sake.
Then, he stared to knock on the door.
Knock Knock…
No answer. Probably she's just going to get on the door.
Knock knock…
Nothing still. Maybe she's in the bathroom.
Knock knock…
The door is still unmoving. Patience Natsume
Knock knock…
Nothing's happening. Is that girl still freakin' asleep?!?
Knock knock…
Bloody hell open the door…
Knocking there like an idiot before a door that never seemed to open, he grew impatient. It took five years to gather great courage for him to face his true feelings and so much more to confess to her. Now that he have her, he won't let anything, and it means anything, stand in the way. Especially if it's just some rectangular piece of stubborn old wood. Nothing should stand in the way. Nothing at all…
Since he knew that burning his girls' door would be a very bad way to start their morning, he melted the doorknob instead. At last opening the door, Natsume was surprised to see Mikan just sitting in her bed looking completely lost in her thoughts, and unusually silent and, cold? Much more surprised to sense the presence of the human, if he could still be called human, that he most hated in the world, Persona…
"Mikan!", he called her name while quickly running into her direction. Whatever is happening here, he had a bad feeling about it. The presence of Persona only made it worse.
"What the hell are you doing here Persona?!?" He said as stood in front of Mikan.
"Hmmn, my dear kuro-neko seemed to be having an attitude towards his mentor lately.", Persona said smirking.
"I asked what the hell are you doing here?!?"
"You forget Natsume, Ms. Sakura here is also under my command since the day she had been transferred to the Dangerous Ability Type and accepted missions. It's not a surprise at all for my presence to be found with her."
"Then why are you here? Are you giving her missions? Well stop doing it coz I'll just take her part."
"Fortunately for you, I'm not giving her missions, yet. I'm just keeping my students in check, making sure for them to be always fit incase there will be any need to protect the Academy."
"What did you do to her? Whatever you did, you better clean it up. I'll swear you'll never see sunset if I found a single bruise In her."
"Oh really? Are you even threatening me my dear kuro-neko? Coz if you are, you're doing a pretty worthless job."
"What did you do to her?!?"
"Well, I guess there'll be no harm telling. To start my explanation, let's go to that little love affair in the middle of the night at that ugly sakura tree of yours."
Natsume evidently became surprised at this. He saw it. He knew everything…
"Youthful love is it? Do you think I'll just let anything important concerning my prodigies slip by? Of course not. I don't care about anything concerning your petty hormones and all, but those involving your performances on missions is were I fully take charge. Whether you like it, or not."
"This is not concerned with our missions. Stop messing with us and we won't mess with the missions."
"Is that so? Well, I definitely beg to disagree. You see my Kuro-neko, emotion is a big factor of every alice. It can contribute to your power, to your weakness more of. I will not allow any form of weakness to take place. You are a machine of power. Nothing else allowed."
"So what will you do to us?"
"Hmmn, I won't really interfere will this so called relation. I am here to control and keep in check with your emotions.", Persona said while pointing his finger at the back of Mikan's neck.
Natsume was for a second confused, however, the moment he checked on whatever Persona was pointing at, everything he needed to know quickly dawned upon him.
Controlling devices…
He could still remember back there at the Dangerous Ability Class when Persona was giving lectures concerning nothing else but missions.
Flashback
Natsume as usual took a semi sitting and sleeping position while the Dangerous Ability Class was going on.
The hell guy, Persona, was talking a million words about battle like always. He was sick of every word of it but a strange sense told him it was better to listen than close his eyes. He wouldn't admit it to a single soul but he has proven countless times how everything Persona taught helped him to stay alive.
He was secretly grateful for that. But hell, he was the one pushing him on missions anyway. Guess they're even.
He was practically trying to sleep, but won't, as Persona said some bloody words again. This time about those blasted Controlling Devices.
"Controlling devices you squirts are devices specially made to let the user control his or her emotions. The device provides its own method of keeping your emotions at low. It uses pain as a motivator for the user to control his or her own emotions. Everytime a user feels an emotion, the device will automatically process a feeling of pain that the user will suffer from. The greater the emotion, the greater the pain. Obviously, no one will ever like put this in his own. Therefore, you must know that we, rather I, will put this to anyone of you whose emotions will expectedly hinder his or her performance during missions."
"The hell will we let you put those at us.", a guy from the back row sneered.
The whole class exchanged amused glances. By the time, with a snap of a finger, the guy who answered earlier was shouting in agony. Persona merely smiled.
"Like you have any choice.", Persona said with an obvious devil grin behind his mask.
End of Flashback
"No!", Natsume said out loud.
"A little discipline could straighten things out you know. As I've said earlier, I do not, and will never, care about this pathetic thing called relationship. But in keeping your emotions, this is where I enter."
"Why her?!? Get that thing out and just place it on me. I'll do anything, just get it out of her!"
"I expected you to say that. Well, it's pretty simple, in placing a controlling device upon my Shiro-neko, not only will I control her emotions, I could also tighten my control on you. You'll do anything for her right? How pathetic really love is." Persona said mockingly.
Natsume flinched at the idea.
"And by the way my Kuro-neko, it will be a waste of time putting controlling devices on you. By just looking at the girl you loved, who right now suffers so much inside, I am pretty sure you'll feel the same or even greater pain in that place called heart. That is, if you still had a heart…"
"I am not, and will never be, like you, Persona…"Natsume answered in a tone of shivering coldness and anger.
"Guess my Shiro-neko gave you back your heart huh? Well, maybe there will come a day when she will give up her own for you. Yes, there will be a day when she will suffer for and because of you, I wonder if that day is starting right now…." As he said this, his figure slowly disappeared into thin air, just like the way Natsume's happiness drifted out of him.
So there's chap III. Hope you like it. I guess you're not practically happy coz this chap went kinda uhm, tragic? Heck, this is Mikan and Natsume's first day as an official couples and I didn't even let Natsume say a proper "good morning my beautiful polka" stuff. The main events of my fic is starting at this part.
Please read this chap VERY WELL coz there are so many points in here which I will be using in the story from time to time.
An eternal thank you for my reviewers and the one's who gave time to read my fic. But it's still a bigger thank you for my reviewers… )
Sorry if I can't update the next Chapter faster than usual. My schedule and things to do for school are so jam packed this week. But I still promise to do my best. Especially if there are a lot of reviews. They're my best motivations you know )...
-aiyensakura02
