Hi everyone!!! This chap is were our story, more of my, is gonna take a little kawai turn. Hope you like it!!!

Disclaimer: Curse this blasted part…

Don't own Gakuen Alice even though Kami-sama knows how much I wanted to.

Yeah, I kinda figured that out in the first place… -me cursing-…


CHAPTER VI: In These Arms I Belong

"Don't do this." He said to the owner of his arms.

He hated her for being so like herself- caring and loving. Rephrase that part, he hated and loved her for being like herself- so much caring and loving. He wanted her away from him, enough to make her out of the dark where he is destined to forever belong. They were never meant to be, but that destiny was never enough to hold them back. It takes more than that. And lately, that reason had dawned upon them more quickly than they have ever imagined. They will suffer in each other. They will always feel the pain in things that meant "together". Not that they wanted it, it's just the way it is. The dark will never blend with the light. Either the light will shine on the dark or the dark will engulf the light, and the latter is starting to take its own entrance to reality.

The dark will engulf the light, and when it does, the light will vanish forever. Never to be seen again, only to be gone. That's why they need distance. The distance to separate the dark and the light, like this and they could still survive. How foolish was it when he imagined that there could be a chance. There was none. None at all…

He could now see the truth. The moment the she had made her way into his life, she had started to make her venture unto the dark, and worse, there was no escaping. She had spilled blood upon her hands in belief of keeping the life of her friends despite her knowledge about the disgusting political trash behind it. She had placed her soul on the grave everytime there is a so-called need to protect the Academy. She had witnessed things which were not meant for her to see. She had seen herself ripping bodies apart, tearing everything on destruction, maneuvering herself to a possible end all because of the desire to protect, to be with him, and to help him. Thus, the dark had already engulfed the light. And there's no stopping, only a faint chance to control. Controlling his own darkness to still make the light shine, to still keep her alive and breathing. It was the only way.

If only she would just let him control things, which she seems not to. Right now, here she is- hugging her tightly. If only she realized that she was hugging the very darkness which would soon engulf her, but he knew that she did. She was just too stubborn to get away from it, from him, because he knew that she loves him, he knew that she cared.

"Don't do this." He said again.

"…"

"Don't do this. Just get away from me."

"Natsume, I won't."

"Mikan, what do I have to do with you?"

"Just let me stay."

Rage was slowly building in Natsume's weak body. He needs to make her go. He needs to push her away. He needs to control things before everything will be late.

"Can you just go!?! Listen, I don't need you in my life!!! You're making things worse!!! Stay away!!!"

'I want you to go. You can't be in my life. Your life will get worse. You have to be away from me.'

"I know. I'm sorry." Mikan said as silent tears began framing her silky face.

"But I still won't." Mikan finally added. Just then, she reached for Natsume's left hand and guided it towards the back of her neck making Natsume feel the swollen and bruised flesh where the device ought to be.

"You made him take the device away right? She asked referring to Persona.

All Natsume could do was look into her eyes.

"And this is the price you've paid." Mikan said while looking at his bloody, bruised and weak body. "I'm not going away from you, if it's the last thing that I would do."

She was ever so stubborn. Natsume cursed in his mind. There was a feeling of relief knowing that Persona kept his word. He took the device off her as he had promised. But things were just starting all over again. She was still persisting her life in him. No, he can't allow her. He needs to fight for his stand. He has to make her go away, no matter what happened. But how? It was almost irresistible knowing that someone you loved so much never wanted to go away from you're life.

"Mikan, you know very well that either of us will face the end if we'll continue this." Natsume said sounding solemn.

"Neither of us has to."

"We can't do anything about it. You know that."

"Natsume, could you just please stop saying that? I can't bare it. I don't want it to be like this." Mikan said on the verge of crying again.

Natsume manage to make a faint smile.

"You know what, this is my fault. I'm sorry."

"Stop it will you?" Mikan said now with tears flowing out of her eyes.

"I have to set things right. I'm the one to blame for this anyway. You wouldn't really have been into this if it wasn't for me."

"Could you stop blaming yourself? It's not just you who made those decisions. I know what I'm doing even if it's the stupidest thing for you. I know what my life is riding on. Stop thinking that it's your fault. It's not even a fault Natsume, it's a move- my life's move."

"Whatever you say won't change all this things. Whatever justification you make won't change the reality that we both knew, I'm the one who started this. I'm sorry Mikan, I'm sorry for putting you in this."

He have made up his mind. He has to do the best remedy before things turns too late- before Mikan could die because of him. He is the root of all of this, and for that, he is the one who should pay.

"I love you, this should make up for what I have done." Natsume said in finality as he started to activate his own Alice. The moment he did, fiery flame engulfed his own body as he closed his eyes never minding on the pain he directed on himself


Mikan woke up to find herself lying on Natsume's shoulders. It was still early in the morning as told by the dark sky outside the thin curtained window. She quickly averted her gaze back at the black cat- the one she almost lost.

Flash back

"I love you, this should make up for what I have done." Natsume said in finality as he started to activate his own Alice. The moment he did, fiery flames engulfed his own body as he closed his eyes never minding on the pain he directed on himself.

As Mikan's brain registered what was happening in front of her, she activated her own Alice as quick as her own reflexes could. Natsume would have known that she would right away use her nullifying Alice if he even tried to do what she was seeing right now. But Natsume was never that stupid. She thought that he must have felt her alice weak at the moment. He was right, her alice was currently weak caused by her efforts to fight the controlling device and the pain it has caused. She could almost feel none with he powers at all. She was in total panic seeing Natsume being devoured by his own flames. She did all she could to stop his alice and extinguish the fire. But she had little success.

"No, you can't leave me like this!" She said as the pushed her own alice beyond limitation focusing it on the flames now covering him. At last she did it before it could even consume Natsume's skin. She doesn't even know where that power came from. All it mattered was saving him. She was practically relieved that the fire didn't affect Natsume a bit. It just managed to knock out his senses. He was already weak and using his powers just made him unconscious.

She cursed a million curses she had managed to learn throughout her life. It wasn't even enough. She stared at the unconscious guy that she saved in the nick of time. Slowly, she laid him still on bed and went through taking care of all his bruises and cuts.

"I'll get your head off tomorrow for all the things you did to me a moment ago." At that, she found herself crashing beside Natsume as sleep made it's way to her.

End of flashback

She looked closely at Natsume's handsome face. He was so dear to her. It was never worth losing him just because of his damned darkness. She smiled while caressing his face.

"Guess I'll just take back what I said last night about cutting your head off. It would be a pity for your gorgeous body without this sinfully handsome face."

...To be continued…


Oh that was…….. Kawaii!!!

The story made a new turn in this chapter… haha… Blame it on my other fic, SO SICK INLOVE… My writing and ideas got kinda affected… haha…

But it's really good taking all that sadness, tragedy, and seriousness stuffs for a while… Everybody needs to stretch that smile muscle you know…

Hope this chappie made you happy…

Oh, and before I forgot, I WANT a REVIEW before you could proceed reading SO SICK INLOVE, I updated it with chap III… Trust me, it's a must read…

Love lots,

-aiyensakura02