Reba woke up and couldn't remember exactly where she was. She sat up and then looked around and saw she was in Brock's living room, and when she looked down she saw she had been lying next to him. Then all of last night's events came rushing back to her in vivid detail, Oh God! She thought. She quickly grabbed the blanket and wrapped it around herself. Clothes, she thought, where are they? She looked around the room and then found them on the floor next to the couch. What have I done?
She looked at the clock on the table and it read 8:50. Reba gasped and put a hand over her mouth. The kids are still in the hotel and she never went home last night.
Reba's noises woke Brock. He turned around to see her fully dressed, slipping on one of her shoes. "Where are you going?"
"The, um, kids. They're…," She started to cry. She couldn't believe she let herself do this. She worked so hard the past 5 years to get over him, but last night she threw all of that away. Not only did she let Brock back in, she also cheated on her husband, who loved her.
Brock got up and slipped on his jeans, then walked over to Reba. He put his arm around her shoulder, "Honey, it's alright." He tried to comfort her.
"No, Brock, no it's not! I can't believe I did this. I'm pregnant for God's sake! I'm so sorry. I never should have come back here." She got up and headed for the door.
"If you have to work so hard to keep yourself away from me, then why do you even try? It seems that you have to brainwash yourself into thinking you don't love me."
Reba stopped at the door, but didn't turn around. "I really have to go." She whispered.
"Am I going to see you again? Or are you running away to Tennessee again?!" He pushed. It came out differently then he wanted it to. It sounded mean, and he could tell that his words hurt Reba. "I'm sorry, I-," he was cut off.
"No. No, you're fine. I deserved that." She turned back around to face him, to look him straight in the eyes, "I have to leave. Brock, I'm married. I have a family! I can't just drop everything for you because you may or may not love me, or you might want me to stay. It doesn't happen that way. I'm not going to let you hurt me again, and you will not control my decisions!" She told him.
"Reba, I'm sorry, you know that. You know that I never meant to hurt you, or for it all to turn out like this. I made a mistake. I can't take it back, but if I could turn back time and change everything, I would. You know I would. Please, don't leave again…please. Please, Reba, I do love you." He begged.
Reba was taken aback by that. "I couldn't stay here and not want you. We can't just hurt everyone because of our feelings. It's not fair to anyone. Now, the kids are waiting, I have to get back."
As she turned away, Brock took her hand in his, and pulled her back. He wrapped his arm around her waist and kissed her.
A tear rolled down Reba's face as she pushed Brock off of her. "I'm sorry."
She left. She left Brock standing there in the doorway. He couldn't find it in himself to move. He wanted to chase after her and make her stay, but he didn't want to make things harder.
He didn't want to loose her again, and he didn't know if she was coming back or if she was leaving again…
Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star
