AN: Bit of a long chapter we have here and it is filled with many time frames so listen up. Riza is basically reflecting on a memory, obviously before her engagement (long before her engagment to be honest), and may I just go ahead and ask for no flames -okay thanks- anyway it's a memory she recalls when walking back to her apartment after her conversation with Roy back in office (in the previous chapter) and she wonders about him and why he didn't say a certain thing back to her...
read and review/ and like I said before, if you don't like where it ended up, then please, don't FLAME ME!
No matter what she did, much less said, he managed to make her feel completely inferior without trail or error –and he even did it efficiently. What had she done now? She'd only given herself a glimmer of hope in moving on and finding someone who could actually repay her the love she deserved. She was sick of waiting for Roy Mustang. So she did the unthinkable –she had found another.
His named was Jesse Lacey; a sniper and it was funny, she had known him for a long time and it never once occured to her that she had developed a light hearted crush on the man after she given up all hope on Roy. It isn't hard to believe, since the Colonel had plenty of other woman at his hand, that Riza was pining for Jesse.
They first met in Ishbal when they were stationed together in the same routes, shooting the same people. He was a handsome man who was only twenty-nine and had plenty of charisma and charm –but, Riza frowned now- he was certainly no Roy Mustang. Yet, she felt as if she had fallen in love in with the man because he taught her things she didn't know were possible in men.
Jesse set knew standards for her to follow because men could be sensitive people too, compassionate but why wasn't Roy! He's just another dog of the Military, only interested in sex and the amount of bars and stripes on his uniform –she knew she was just lashing out because she knew the Colonel all to well to know that his ambition was much, much more than that –but because of that ambition he was too blind to see that she had been waiting on him- now, she sighed, it was too late…
Riza was walking now in the rain with it running down her face because she didn't bother to bring an umbrella but it didn't seem to bother her. It was mixed with tears anyway because it was always nights like this that brought back memories…
Clutching her soaked coat tighter around her, she wished, silently of course, that the rain would wash away her memories in a single strife. She really needed to stop relying on such stupid dreams…
Riza had always loved him –for God sakes, she'd been waiting for him for almost fifteen years but he never once, until now, showed even a shred of consideration well…that too was lie.
Rain. It all seemed to fall in the same place and hit the ground with the same intensity…Again, she was caught wishing those memories would wash away!
"Thanks." She said walking into the dimly lit hallway of her apartment. Roy loomed behind, happy to get out from the rain.
"It's no problem, glad I brought an umbrella…"
Riza smiled warmly setting her things on the table and then turning her attention to Black Hayate who was scrambling down the hall with dry paws. He ran first to Roy who closed the door behind him.
"Hey scamp." He teased the dog bending down and then scratched him behind his ears. The pup lapped his hands and tugged impatiently on his uniform sleeve.
"Sit." Riza commanded and saw that Black Hayate immediately let go, sat in attention when panting as he looked up at Roy.
"So you taught the thing some tricks?" He asked.
"I guess you could say that." She said wiping her face with even wetter hands. She looked out the window as she stood in the dining area and saw the rain growing worse.
"Maybe you should stay, at least until the rain calms down. I know how much you hate it." She suggested when walking into the living room area, across from the dining room. She looked at the fireplace, ignoring the flames and turning on her lamp. She approached Roy to help him take off his wet trench. She set it upon the coat rack to dry and then smiled, before decending down the dark corridor that connected further in her house.
The apartment smelled vaguely of jasmine and cornflower, something he had always tasted when he was around Riza at work. He smiled, faintly…
"I don't suppose you're hungry," She called from the other end of the house, "Are you?"
"I could go for some food." He said walking down the hallway. Sometimes, he thought, he was a little too curious for his own good because when he peaked into the bathroom, the one that connected into Riza's bedroom, he saw her bare back with the transmutation array appearing in the mirror- he quickly withdrew his gaze back onto the walls of her corridor.
Yea, he was turning bright pink but it wasn't because of such stupid things like, she was so hot, but because he was embarrassed. He still could hear her screaming from that time in Ishbal –the time he burned it for her…
He hated himself for ever putting her through so much pain –he'd rather let it burn a hole through him instead of her and he wished it could've been his burden instead of hers…
"Something wrong?" She asked suddenly appearing before him. She was barefooted and her hair was let down, curling over her shoulders. He thought, to himself of course, that she could never be anymore beautiful.
Roy then noticed she had changed into a light blue, cotton oair of pajamas. They looked familiar.
"You can still fit in those?" He gaped. She laughed when walking past him.
"Yea," She nodded, "I guess I can."
"But-but you've had them ever since your father taught me." Roy was astonished when following her into the kitchen.
"It's not been long, has it?" She grabbed some noodles from the pantry and Roy helped by getting a pot from the cabinet.
"Well it's just…" He trailed off when watching her fill the pot with warm, running water from the sink.
"It's funny that you say that, actually," She paused when fetching a can of tomato sauce.
"Because if I do recall, Mr. Mustang," She teased, "You had pink ones."
"I did not." Roy retaliated.
"You did because I remember father calling you a pretty boy."
"Did he really call me that?"
Riza began to laugh when setting the pot full of water onto the stove and she leaned against the counter, smiling at Roy.
"Yes, he did."
"Heh," He mused, "You're old man had a wicked sense of humor."
"Yea…" She frowned when remembering the day of his burial, "He did, didn't he?"
Roy saw her sudden mood swing when she solemnly turned back to the sullen pot of water.
"I'm sorry I"—
"Why don't you make yourself comfortable while I fix us something to eat?" She suggested quietly, when tilting her head at a peculiar angle. She smiled, faintly…
"Yes, of course."
He left her there and made a cozy spot on her couch and burying his cold feet into the crevice of pillows. Black Hayate then joined him minutes later.
"He really likes you, you know?" Riza smirked when bringing out spaghetti and then she almost slipped on the rug. Roy's eyes widened when he scrambled to her side and caught her.
"Shit." She cursed under her breath, almost inaudibly and at this Roy started to snicker.
"Hahaha very funny sir." She composed herself, setting the food onto the dining table.
"You do realize we're not in office, don't you?" He asked. She felt her mouth drop a little and her cheeks purse a sense of warmness; she was blushing when chuckling to herself.
"Yes, of course, Roy."
He sat down and reached to serve himself some food when suddenly Black Hayate jumped onto the counter, directly onto the spoon…
A wad of noodles crashed into Roy's face! The sauce fell over his nose and dribbled over his lips and chin…
Riza burst into laughter as she held her stomach when seeing Roy sneeze out noodles from his nose. He growled in disdain when seeing the black pup dash away down the safe refuge of Riza's bedroom.
"Come back here, you!" He stood, running after him and Riza blinked curiously.
"And just what do you think you're gunna do to him!" She raced after Roy with a damp rag in hand.
"That little monster got sauce in my eye –it burns!"
"Then hold still and let me clean it up, will you!" She called back when reaching her room.
"Just wait till I find him I'll"—
Riza reached out, cupping Roy's cheek in her palm and lathering a cold cloth on his nose, and then over his eyes. She started to giggle again.
"And just what do you find so funny?" Roy growled.
"Nothing." She smirked, wiping the last bit of tomato sauce from his nostrils. For some moments they stared at each other with warm laughter until Roy noticed the rain still falling harder than ever outside of her window.
"I hate rain." He said, walking toward the open blinded window and with his fingers he wiped some perspiration off the windows.
"I love it."
"Why? It's cold and…and wet." He complained but saw Riza pay him a duh sort of look.
"It's…peaceful. It reminds me of that time when we walked out in"—
"In the pastures, ahh," Roy smiled, warmly.
"I remember that and you complained because your shoes were dirty."
"I did not." Riza said.
"You did because you almost fell into the ditch."
"Oh…" She recalled, quietly.
When she peered to her left, she saw her clock read 6:56 and when she looked at Roy, their faces were abnormally close. She was growing nervous as he leaned in and their lips met!
Without any hesitation, Riza let her hands cup his neck as he allowed his forearm to wrap around her waist with his other, free hand, clutching her hips and pushing his body stiffly against her own.
His lips were soft; potent but very thin. She could smell a soft, subtle scent of cologne and one that was most enticing.
Her tiny body was pushed to the right and soon Roy was leaning again the bedpost of her divan and he found her body looming, awkwardly over his. He traced his fingertips from her hips to her thigh, gently lifting it so she made her position into more of a straddle. Roy was even growing anxious as he felt her pelvis grind into his groin…
Something triggered, something intangible, to be more exact, uncontrollable actions ensued and Roy was soon finding himself pinning her wrist down and trailing his wet mouth over the crevices of her neck and jaw cavities. She was breathing, edgy of course, but heavily…
"This is dangerous." He managed to grunt when pulling his belt off and buttoning his standardized trousers.
"We shouldn't." She answered but ignoring her morality when feeling his hands unravel the seam of her sleepwear. Her naked legs were becoming visible.
"But"—They said in unison when looking at each other's flustered faces, trickling with early stages of perspiration and they kissed again.
"This can be kept a secret." He whispered, continuing his maneuver of buttons and loops on his attire.
"Our secret." She whispered now, as Roy pushed it inside her.
She sighed and dug her nails into the blades of his shoulders and whispered into his ear.
"Roy," She moaned, quietly. He drove harder.
"I-I love you"—She was cut off by his lips again and this time when she felt sweat, drip off of his body, onto her bare chest she pushed pressing her hips into his –he groaned when trying to support his and hers weight.
It was raining harder now…She was crying again when turned the key of her apartment. Riza tumbled wistfully though her front door and into the dimly lit hallway of her apartment.
After she was through settling down and putting things away, she was in front of her fireplace and stared hopelessly at the flames…
Black Hayate whimpered from behind her and she turned to smile with eyes full of hurt; yet, she walked over to plot herself on the sofa.
"He never said it back…" She whispered before falling asleep by herself into the quiet void of her apartment; Roy managed to make her feel completely inferior without trail or error –and he even did it efficiently- but why did he do is so elusively?
The clock read 6:56….
so how was it? I hope I didn't move too fast but I wanted to develop some cold tension between them to make it seem harder for Roy to win her back, after all, why didn't he say it back if he knew he loved her too? Hmm...you'll find out soon enough but for now, it's time you review and give me honest opinions (and compliments) !!
Thanks for reading, I hope you liked it
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