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Back in Forks:
While Sam, Jacob, Paul, Embry, Jared and the Cullens were all discussing different ways to get Bella back, Quil had been sent outside, told to shift, and listen; waiting to hear if Bella shifted too—if he could even hear her. After shifting, Quil began to pace. He did not like being left out of the loop and on watch duty. He was a werewolf for God's sake! Not some medieval sentry! As he continued to pace, he began to get the feeling that he was no longer alone in his own head, the one that was normally accompanied by the greeting of one of his pack brother's shifting. Since obviously the rest of the Pack was inside still, the only explanation was that Bella had shifted, and from what Quil could tell…she was angry.
Quickly, he shifted back into human form, and ran into the Cullen home. When he entered the living area, where everyone else was, he quickly said, "Its Bella. She's shifted again, and from what I could tell, she was not happy."
Sam glanced at Quil and then turned to the Cullens. "We're going to go and see if we can't try and make contact with Bella. We'll come back if we hear anything. This may take a while." And with a nod to Carlisle, Sam swept out of the room with the Pack on his heels. As soon as they were outside they all shifted into wolf form, all of them noticing the faint "voice" that obviously belonged to Bella.
Thirsty. That's all I was. In the back of my mind, it seemed slightly weird that I felt so blood-thirsty while being in wolf form, but I didn't care, and pushed the thought to the back of my mind. I was also recognizing what seemed to be another presence in my head, but again I pushed it away. There were twelve vampires in the room, and I was pretty sure I wanted to rip them all limb from limb. Even if I wouldn't be satiated.
I advanced in on the closest vampire, growling from deep within my throat. I could smell the fear rolling off all of them, and I drank it in, reveling in it. In the back of my mind I recognized that the strange "voice" had left, and had come back, with friends, but all I wanted to do was attack. So I did.
I raced at the vampires, snapping at the nearest one's neck and feeling it snap under the pressure from my jaw. I began to rip the rest of the body to shreds, chomping at the arms and tearing off the legs. But then one of those voices started to badger me, giving me a headache.
Bella! Bella can you hear me? It's Sam!
'Go away Sam. I want to eat them. Tear them to shreds. All of them.' I thought back. I was an animal with primal instinct. And those instincts were saying I was going to attack, and attack now.
Bella, listen to me. You need to phase back, go back to your…other form. You need to stop, and not give them reason to hurt you more.
'Hurt me?' I scoffed. 'As if they could…or dared.'
Perhaps not you, but what about us, your friends? Your family? What about Jacob, or Edward?
Edward. It seemed like so long since I had seen him, or even thought about him. My heart ached, a hole started to grow, and I felt my body shake with tremors. 'Sam, what do I need to do?'
Breathe. Relax. Bring back memories of your other form. See yourself go back. Force the change.
I could feel it coming, my shift back happening. But then I remembered…
'Sam! Sam! Wait!'
What is it Bella?
I know that the Pack and the Cullens are trying to get me, but you have to stop.' It physically hurt to tell him those words, to imagine more time without Edward. An unknown amount of time.
But Bella—
'Just stop. I promise to explain later. And tell everyone I love them. Especially Edward.' And then I shifted back completely before he could say another word.
Sam was upset. No, not upset, annoyed. He craved control, and Bella did not seem to want him to achieve it. At least when it was concerning her. And, to top it all off, she seemed immune to his persuasiveness as alpha. He checked it off to being one of her vampire traits.
But now he had to go and tell the Cullens that Bella had informed him that they were all to stop trying to rescue her. He could only imagine how that conversation would go.
After shifting back to his human form and putting his jeans and shirt back on, Sam stepped back into the Cullen house, and what seemed to be a heated argument. Apparently, Edward had heard the entire conversation, and was unhappy with Bella's orders.
"We can't just leave her there to rot! We need to get her out as soon as we can! And what about Charlie? Don't you think he's going to find it strange when he hasn't seen his daughter in a week? We need to get her back, and we need to get her back now!" Edward looked as if he were ready to explode, or at least break something else. Sam thought it was time he intervened.
"I think we need to at least wait until we hear from Bella again. We wouldn't be able get her anyway without her help. The only thing we can do is wait. She promised to explain, and now we must be patient for her to do so." Sam observed Edward, sensing he was still tense, but he nodded tersely and then turned on his heel and stalked upstairs.
"We need to leave, but I'll have Quil stay nearby, in case Bella shifts back and we need to speak with her. We'll have at least two of us phased at all times, and we'll go in shifts. All we can do now is be patient." The Cullens all nodded, and Sam turned and left, the Pack following him. Quil ran into the woods to shift again. They could all tell it was going to be a long night.
When I finally shifted back, I was exhausted. Miranda had come up to me, holding out a robe, which I gratefully used to cover my now naked body. Then she whispered in my ear. "I hate to do this again Bella, but you've caused quite a stir here. And, if I do say so myself, you look as if you could use a quick rest. We'll talk later." And, for the second time, I felt an approaching darkness envelope me.
PLEASE READ THE FOLLOWING NOTE!!
Okay, I feel really, really bad about not updating in such a long time, but I've been having a major case of writers block. Well that, and I've been having some large computer and familial problems, but despite that, I'm back!
Now, I have some issues I'd lie to discuss. After reading Eclipse, I realized that (of course) my story wasn't following the same grain. Obviously it doesn't but I'm talking more along the line of numbers, among other things. So I just wanted to poll if you all thought I should try and incorporate as much of Eclipse as possible—without ruining the integrity of my own fic—or if I should just keep going as I am. I appreciate any input from anybody, and the more reviews I receive, the sooner I'll update again. Oh yeah, and I'm still accepting any ideas people are willing to forfeit, and I'll give credit where credit is due!
I hope everyone has happy holidays
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