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Speechless
Ashleys POV
"Spence." I'm so confused right now. What was she doing here?
I mean don't get me wrong im so glad to see her in front of me but im still bewildered as to what was going on.
"I-I should g-go." Spence finally stuttered out her words because she was fighting off tears.
"What! No!" I grabbed her and pulled her into the house. I pulled her into a hug and didn't want to let her go. Spence was hesitant to hug me back but a second later she was holding onto me like she didn't want to lose me.
I missed her so much and now shes finally in front of me and I don't ever want to let her go again.
Damn. Madison and Aiden were still in the car.
I stared at Spencer and I wipped off the tears that were coming down her face.
"Babe I'll be right back ok. Please don't leave." I quickly kissed her cheek and then walked out of the house to tell them that I wasn't going to be able to go tonight.
I walked up to the car and I see another girl in the back of the car. She was really cute, but who was she?
"Damn about time!" Madison said as I stepped up to the car.
"Sorry but I won't be able to go out tonight." Madison looked at me as if she could not believe that they waisted their time on waiting for me or something. If she was going to have an attitude like that then maybe I didn't want to hang out with her anyways.
"Come on Ash. Madison brought her cousin Jen here so we could go out and have some fun." I looked at him and didn't care that they had brought someone but didn't really understand why he was directing her cousin at me for. Its not like i've told them that im gay or anything.
Madison must of noticed what was on my mind or something because she just came out and told me what was on hers.
"Oh don't even think that we didn't know that you were a lesbian." I swear I don't think for a moment that she would just bust out with that.
"I spotted you out right when you walked through Mr. Harrisons class this morning. Girl I got great gaydar." It was official. Madison was getting on my last nerve.
OH! I got it now I looked over at Jen and she almost looked like she had a smile on her face or something. They were trying to set me up with her cousin. Hell No! I'm taken and my beautiful girlfriend is in the house right now waiting for me.
"I'm sorry Jen if they had gave you the impression that I wanted to get hooked up, but I don't. My girlfriend is in the house right now and I need to get back in there. It was nice to have met you but I really need to get going. See you guys at school tomorrow." Aiden said bye to me but as for Madison she looked like she was trying to burn holes into my head. She really needed to chill thats all I got to say.
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Ever since I got back into the house she hasnt said one word to me and its killing me. I tried to go over to her and hold her but she wouldn't let me touch her either.
What was I suppose to do?
Her tears stopped and now she just looked like she was angry at me all over again and it hurt to see her like that.
Memory
"How could you do that to me Ash?" I stood there in her room trying to explain myself and the situation that she had walked in on.
I could feel my head spinning and I could still feel the hurt that I caused Spence to have.
"Babe, please believe me I didn't mean to do it." I was buzzed pretty good but I knew if I needed to have a serious conversation I could do it even if I was intoxicated.
"No what you mean is that you didn't mean for me to walk in on you and Casey making out in the bathroom."
It's not like I wanted her to kiss me but we were both really drunk and it kinda happened. Well actually Casey has liked me for awhile now. Spencer knew about this which is why she is really pissed off right now. Not that she wouldnt be pissed off knowing if the person didn't like me or something.
"Spencer you know me and you know that I wouldn't want to put our relationship in danger like that. I love you." I was standing really close to Spencer at this moment and I just wanted to kiss her so bad. So I did.
Within a second she pulled away from me and then that's where I saw her staring at me with nothing but anger. She really hated me at that moment and I hated myself.
Someone has to break this silence because its killing me seeing her sitting on my bed not looking at me with her legs pulled up to her chest.
I sat on the end of the bed glancing back at her every once in awhile to see if she wanted to talk to me yet.
"Can we please talk." I broke the silence and I was hoping that she would at least respond to me.
"What for Ashley? All we're going to do is argue anyways." Hmm she did have a point there but we needed to talk about this even if it did end up in an arguement. I don't know what I did for her to be so angry at me right now. I mean I should be the one who is mad not her. I should be the one who is crying because she never returned any of my phone calls. Or she never came to say goodbye to me at the airport. How does she think I feel about this whole situation?
"Not that im not greatful, but what are you doing here?" I figured I would start with that and then work up to everything else.
"I don't know anymore." What the hell?
"Damn it Spence whats going on with you? I don't know what to say to you and when I try to even come close to you, you just pull away from me. So how am I suppose to know what to say if you wont even talk to me and tell me whats wrong with you."
Spencer still hadn't said anything to me so I didn't want to be in that room anymore. I got off of the bed and walked out of the room and left her to her thoughts.
"How could you just forget about us Ash?" I stopped at the door way and didn't have a clue what she was talking about.
"After everything that we have gone through and your just going to go on with everything like we didn't even matter to eachother." Just hearing her say that to me it made me mad for once in our relationship.
"How can you say that Spence? Your the one who walked away from me and your the one who didn't even give a damn about me leaving. I called you about a milion times to talk to you but did I hear from you? NO! So don't just sit there and tell me that its my fault. Yes I made a mistake in getting in trouble back home, but if I could take that back then I would. But I can't Spencer, im here and I have to deal with it like everyone else." The tears were streaming down my face as well as Spencer and I knew that this conversation had got taken way overboard.
I walked over to Spencer and sat right next to her while she leaned against my headboard. I took her face into my hands and I wipped the tears away from her face.
"I love you so much Spencer, and you know I do." More tears came down her cheeks and I still didn't get why she had all of those tears for.
"Then who was that girl in the car?" What car? Ohhh. She must of seen Madison and everyone in the car and thought that I was going on a double date or something with Jen.
How could she really think that I would cheat on her like that?
"Babe I didn't even know that Madison was bring her cousin tonight. I barely found out when I stepped out there to tell them that I couldn't come out tonight. I promise you that I would of not went out with them if I had known that they were trying to set me up. Please believe me because im tell you the truth." Spencer reached over and wrapped her arms around my neck. It felt so good to have her in my arms again. I really hope this was all of the arguing because I was really getting tired of hurting like this.
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We were both laying down on my bed and I sat there playing with Spencers hair stairing right into her deep blue eyes enjoying being so close to her. I glanced up at my clock for a second and it said 1:30 in the morning and I knew that I had to get some sleep for school tomorrow. I just didn't want to wake up tomorrow and have Spencer just be another dream of mine. I don't know if I could take that again.
"What are u thinking?" Spencer spoke in a whisper as I laid there with a smile on my face. She always made me smile.
"That I don't want to go to sleep because im afraid you wont be here tomorrow morning when I wake up." It was Spencers turn to smile at me and what a gorgeous smile it was.
Spencer leaned a few inches closer and rested her forehead against mine and then let another whisper come out of her mouth. Which already had me hypnotized as I laid there breathing in her scente.
"Go to sleep Ash. I'll be here when you wake up. I promise." I softly connected our lips loving the taste of her lips and everything that came with it.
Spencer Carlin was really here with me and in my arms.
Now all I had to do was hold onto her forever!
But thats easier said than done.
(A/N: Ok I hope this chpt was ok u guys!!! I've been sick all day and I barely got to finish it tonight...soo if it wasnt all that great then jus blame it on the sickness!! Thx again for reading!!!)
