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Speechless
Spencers POV
Oh God please make the pounding stop. PLEASE!
I slowly opened my eyes and I noticed that I was laying in Ashleys bed without a shirt on.
What the hell happened last night?
Maybe we should of stayed home like Ashley had said. She must really hate me right now. Damn it Aiden with all of your shots you wanted me to take last night.
"Ash." I called out her name wondering if she was even in the room or not.
No responce.
I got up grabbed some clothes and went to go take a shower. This hangover needs to go away fast because I know I wasn't going to have any kind of argument with Ashley with it. Trust me im sure that im going to be hearing alot from her when I go downstairs.
Hmmm maybe I can just stay in the room all day and just ignore the fact that my girlfriend is going to kill me when she sees me coming down those stairs. Nah it wont work she'll just hunt me down.
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As soon as I was dressed after a forever long shower I decided that it was time to go downstairs and face what I had coming to me.
Please don't hate me. I kept on repeating in the back of my head.
I made it to the bottom of the stairs and I walked over to the kitchen in search of pills. Losts of them so this headache would just leave me alone. I noticed a bottle of asprin and a water bottle on the counter as soon as I walked in there. Ashley always knew how to take care of me.
Gosh I really screwed up last night. Even though I don't really remember most of the night. But im sure that Ash is going to replay the whole night for me.
I downed the pills and then I walked into the living room to see her curld up into a blanket on the couch watching TV. I took the spot at the other end of the couch and didn't know what to say. She was mad.
"Goodmorning Ash." I tried to start up a conversation so something was said so it woudln't feel so awkward with us sitting there.
She glanced at me and then glanced back at the TV.
Yep she hates me.
"I'm really sorry about last night. I really didn't mean to go overboard like that."
"But you did Spencer." She finally spoke.
"You promised me back home that we would never get that crazy drunk again. You promised!" Her words were cutting into me so deep and I knew that she was right. I promised back in Ohio and here I was in LA breaking it.
"I know, I know and I'm truely sorry." I could feel tears wanting to let out but I didn't want to cry anymore. I'm getting tired of always crying. Thats all I've been doing lately and its getting so old already.
"Why couldn't we just stay home last night?"
"This isn't my home! My home is back in Ohio where you left me." I don't know where the words came from but they came out nonetheless.
Ashley sat up on the couch and she seemed shocked to hear that from me as well but I wasn't going to take them back now. It was the truth and she knew it.
"This is your home Ashley, not mine." I got off the couch and walked to the door. Ashley was right on my heels.
"Spencer where are you going?" She had a hold of my arm and I just needed to get out for awhile and think.
"I need to breathe Ashley." She looked at me with a hurt expression and I hated myself all over again.
"What does that mean Spencer?" She was on the verge of crying.
"I'm just going to go for a walk. I'll be back." Ashleys hand dropped from mine and I walked out the door.
Don't ask me but after hearing her say home it made me think of why I was drinking last night. This is Ashleys home where I can tell that shes going to fit in just right. Where as I am the person who lives thousands of miles away in no mans land. Well compared to here its no mans land. I love it though. It's my home and it will forever be my home. Ashley doesn't even seem like she misses her house over there.
I saw her face expression when we were driving through Hollywood she loved it here and all I am is a memory of her old life. Don't get me wrong I know she loves me and I would never think otherwise but it just hurts to know that shes getting on with her life here without me. Almost like she doesn't need her old life anymore.
I walked and walked shivering because for some reason today decided to be overcast. Yep thats right LA is cold today. Gees I wish I had brought a sweater or something.
Just as I was passing some clothing stores a rain drop hit me. Oh you have got to be kidding me. Now its raining. It's not suppose to rain here. Well thats what people always say on commercials. 'Sunny California.' What a joke.
Well I guess thats what I get for leaving the house and getting into an arguement with Ashley.
Hours went by and I was drenched. Soaked to the bones and Ashley had called about 10 times wondering where I was and when I was going back to the house. So I decided that I would grab a cab back to the house, because I doubt I can find my way back now.
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I got out of the cab and looked at Ashleys house. My hair dripping down my face and my arms plastered around myself freezing. Only I would get caught in a rain storm in LA.
I walked up to the house and rang the doorbell. I swear within seconds the door goes flying open with a tear stained face looking directly at me. Gawd I hated when she cried.
Ashley pulled me inside and wrapped her arms around me and there I stood in the door way crying into her shoulder. I wanted things to be good with us. I didn't want to argue anymore.
"I love you." I hear Ashley whisper into me and my sobs got louder. I did not deserve this beautiful girl holding me.
"I love you too." I finally let out.
(A/N: Sry you guys its short...but I have to go meet someone right now. Dont worry I'll be sure to tell him its his fault for making me leave the story like this lol!!! I have some cute things coming up. lol hahaha...i can be cute! LOL...anyways I kinda didnt like this chpt but sad to say...writers block is starting to kick in lol...yep i kno bad huh lol...anyways tell me what u think. Thx again for reading!!! Ur awesome!!!)
