Ok ok this one is a little more gruesome so if you have a sensitive stomach skip the part where it says gruesome after the X mark…it's kinda sad too…hee hee don't go all teary eyed on me yet! Anyways well…enjoy .

Chapter Five: Pain

Blood will forever fall no matter how much you scream

Screaming gets you nowhere

Because if no one listens what's the point?

Maybe the screams are for you

Self pity

Attention

Or maybe u just want the one you love to feel your pain too

Only then can you be truly together

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It stung. Sakura rubbed some kind of antibiotic on Sasuke's cut. They were lucky Ino had decided that she and Sakura were enemies again. Damn she was weird. Sasuke was surprised he was actually letting Sakura touch up his wound; it wasn't even that bad…it was hardly a scratch.

I guess it was the way she looked at me…the way she said she wanted to help me…did I really fall victim to something like that?

He suddenly felt her face nearing his, what was she doing? She blew on the cut to dry the antibiotic, she was so close. Her lips so soft and delicate and so close to his own. Just like he had thought when they first met, she was different and made him feel different too. He was going to have to leave for a couple days soon and he wouldn't be able to feel anything like this for a while.

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Sakura suddenly felt Sasuke embrace her, he was so warm. She was so surprised but was happy…she wasn't sure why he was hugging her…but he was. She put her own arms around him and she felt him squeeze tighter. She closed her eyes taking in the feeling. She wanted to kiss him, feel his lips against her own. She wanted him to understand her and for her to understand him.

She decided not to push it though, she just kept her arms around him and rested her head against his chest…his chest was warm too. She closed her eyes; she could feel Sasuke breathing, in long calm and slow breaths. She wanted to stay like that forever and just keep this warm feeling around her.

The bliss was broken when Sasuke began to move away. He pushed a piece of soft pink hair away from her face and moved his mouth close to her ear and whispered, "Thank you."

He began moving towards the door and at first Sakura didn't move for she was still taking in the feeling of what had just happened.

When she heard the door slam she hurried after him, "Sasuke!? Where are you going?"

When she got to the exit he was gone. How? She had driven him here; her car was still there, so how could he have gotten away so quickly? She let the breath out that she had been holding in for such a long time. Even though it was freezing out she still felt warm, his embrace made her feel dizzy and she wanted to touch him again…even if it was just a nudge in the shoulder, a bump in the school hallway, or maybe the touch of his hand again…She touched her cheek where his hand had brushed.

She touched her cheek where his hand had brushed, she could feel herself smiling. She looked up at the sky…she couldn't see the stars…to many florescent lights.

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Sasuke knew that it was coming…he had to meet up with his family. What a dreadful thing to think about. He could feel himself getting sick; he knew one of them saw the fight. He had let himself get punched by Gaara and let all of that blood spill on the ground when it could have been easily avoided.

There were also things they would be angry about…he wasn't exactly loyal to his family; he did hate them after all; especially one in particular.

A figure appeared before him.

Already? I thought I'd have at least a little more time.

"Sasuke Uchiha, it's time."

He fallowed the person who would be taking him to the place where he had always felt alone and tormented…he would forever suffer there…and this time was no exception.

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Sasuke knelt down before his superiors. The Uchiha family's power was only powerful according to the government and the other powerful families like Gaara's. Since they protected the country using their strong blood line the government let them do whatever they wanted…even if it was inhumane and gut turning.

"Sasuke…you actually let someone like Gaara get a solid hit on you? Acting sloppy is unacceptable…that blow could have been easily evaded."

Sasuke looked at his father in the eye, "I am sorry."

"Sorry wont be enough Sasuke. There is also a matter of this girl. She is in the way…distracting you. If you weren't spending time with her you would have had time to prepare yourself for the match Sasuke."

Sasuke hated how his father had to use his name is almost every sentence…like he was interrogating him, "She has nothing to do…"

"Kill her."

"No," he answered rather quickly.

"What?"

"I will not kill her."

"Is that your choice…is it really what you've decided?"

"Yes…I won't kill her."

"Do you know the consequences of defying your family are?"

"I don't care."

"After tonight you will…"

X (gruesome)

He was taken to the basement…he knew what was in there…he had been forced to watch it when he was too young to leave the Uchiha estate. But this time, others would be watching him. Most of them were adults, but there were children too. He recognized a few as kids he used to have to look after when he still lived in the estate.

"Sasuke, you will suffer more than you ever have before," one of the superiors said to him.

"Put your left hand on the table."

Sasuke did as he was told. He saw someone hold up a nail, he jammed it in Sasuke's hand. Sasuke bit his lip as the nail was hammered again. He looked down at his hand which was gushing out blood, he could see almost no skin on his hand…it was all red. They ripped off his shirt next…he was expecting a whip but got something much worse. It looked like some kind of metal shredder, he could see his reflection for a short moment and there was no fear in his eyes. They used it to shave the skin off his back, his eyes widened and his lip was bleeding from biting it so hard.

He wanted to run he could take these guys…but his hand was still nailed to the table. He looked at the ground he could see some chunks of his own skin falling to the floor. The blood running down his back was warm…almost hot…burning. As it ran down his back it was like a waterfall of fire running down. His skin disappearing…his flesh exposed.

This what I get…maybe I should agree to kill her…it's too late now…even if I could change my mind I wouldn't…I can't kill her I can't…

"You want to leave don't you Sasuke?"

Duh.

"Here's your chance," the man said.

He felt some kind of rubber rope being tied around his feet…there were blades on the inside. Someone pulled the nail out of his hand.

"Walk Sasuke…walk out of that door."

Sasuke tried his best to walk…the rubber stretching and the blades cutting his ankles. His vision was blurry…

I've lost too much blood already…

He fell to the hard, dirty floor. He could see people's feet…he could also see his own blood on the floor. He closed his eyes so he could allow himself to lose consciousness to escape the pain and so that he wouldn't have to look at that disgusting blood.

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Sakura looked at herself in the mirror; her hair was pulled up into a neat pony tail, her makeup was perfect and her blue and white uniform was neatly pressed. She looked down at her feet…no pink flip flops…long socks and black shoes today. She just realized she had always worn those flip flops around Sasuke; she smiled and laughed a little.

She got to school early that day and walked around the campus…she spotted Shikamaru, "Hey Shikamaru!"

"Sakura? You seem to be in a happy mood."

"Hee hee is that a bad thing?"

"No, I guess not."

"So Shikamaru anything new happen?"

"Not much really. Although I noticed Naruto this morning; he looked really depressed for some reason. That isn't really like him."

"Really…weird."

Sakura was a little worried, Shikamaru was right, that wasn't like Naruto.

"Oh, sorry Sakura I have to go. There are some new kids and being part of the student council I have to help them and shit, so troublesome."

"Okay…see you later."

When Shikamaru was out of sight she decided to go look for Naruto.

Naruto? Sad? What the fuck? Something must be up.

xxx (gruesome)

Sasuke opened his eyes…a cell…

Dammit…everything hurts…fuck…I can't move. When are they gonna let me out of this hellhole.

His hands were bound above him with ropes…he had no feeling in his left hand. He looked down at his feet…there were many cuts on his ankles…each its own deepness and each delivered its fair share of pain. There was at least a bandage around his torso; although it wasn't doing a lot of good anymore it was drenched in his own sweat and blood. It was going to fall off because it was so heavy with moisture.

A drop of bloody feel on his forehead…which was most likely from his left hand from above him. He was about to fall asleep, but his father opened his cell door.

"Sasuke…disappointing…you fainted rather quickly. You're nowhere near to how Itachi was."

Sasuke anger grew…he tore his bounds creating burn marks on his wrist and ran toward his father; ignoring the pain at his ankles and ran as fast as he could and tackled his father to the ground.

"Nice aggression Sasuke…I want you to show that kind of fierceness more often."

Sasuke regained his composure and got off his father.

His father laughed, "You'll get some medical attention and then you will attend the family gathering as originally planned."

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"Naruto there you are," Sakura yelled as she saw Naruto reading something on a bench near the school entrance.

He looked up, "Oh…hey Sakura."

She sat down next to him, "You seem kinda down. Is there something wrong?"

"I'm just studying."

"Naruto we read that book three week ago in English."

"I'm rereading it."

"No your not."

"Ok ok so I'm not what do you want?"

"Naruto something's bothering you…what is it?"

"Nothing," he said getting up and walking away.

"Where's Sasuke?"

Naruto continued walking away, "He's sick."

Sakura didn't chase after him; she knew he wasn't going to tell her any more.

Sick? He was fine yesterday…What is Naruto hiding from me? Did I do something wrong? I mean…I was looking forward to hanging out with Sasuke today…I want…that feeling again.

The next three days were the same…Naruto said nothing…and Sakura asked nothing.

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Three days of family meetings and three days of the adults staring down at him…assessing him…watching him. Even the children he had looked after were nervous around him, they thought he was a bad person for he had been punished. He didn't want to look at them with the fear that one day they would live out the same fate as he.

Not only was that treacherous…they were forcing him to stand regularly and act like nothing had happen…even though his bandaged had to be changed frequently and he had to have blood injected because he had lost so much. As soon as he was back in his room he would collapse and not wake up…not to eat…not to study…just to sleep; it was the only time he wasn't in unbearable pain.

He could go home tomorrow night and rest in his apartment for a while…because his wounds were far from healed; they had actually worsened since he was being forced to move so often. They were constantly opening up and causing more and more pain.

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Sakura looked at herself in the park fountain…going on day four. She had talked to Naruto a little but only about school and a little small talk, but never about Sasuke. Her reflection was clear…she looked at herself a lot, but it wasn't to check her makeup like other girls, it was sort out her feelings and thoughts that were jumbled inside her.

It was six o'clock, starting to get dark. Her cell phone started ringing, she answered, "Hello?"

"Sakura, its Naruto. Do you want to come over?"

"Sure why?"

"There's something you might want to be here for."

"Okay I'll be there…"

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Sakura stepped into Naruto and Sasuke's apartment. Naruto was sitting on the couch watching TV. This was the first time she had been to the apartment since that night. Naruto told her not to come while Sasuke was sick, that he was contagious or something.

"So what's up Naruto," Sakura said with a casual smile.

Naruto got up, no smile, and approached her, "Sakura…what you're about to see will probably upset you, but please don't do anything rash. Ok?"

Sakura only nodded.

What could it possibly be? He seems almost…scared…and like he's about to cry.

Naruto led her to Sasuke's bedroom door and signaled her to go in. Sakura looked at him with confusion but Naruto just turned away.

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Sasuke saw Sakura at the door; he sat up and leaned against the head board. It hurt his back, but he did it anyway.

Dammit Naruto! I thought I told you not to call her…I don't want to see her right now…I can't let her see me…not like this…she'll cry.

The lights were dimmed because he was sleeping, but that wasn't enough to hide the large bandage around his torso and the blood seeping through the bandage on his left hand…at least his ankles were covered.

She sat down next to him on the bed, "Sasuke what…"

She stopped talking…she was obviously holding back tears.

Sakura…you are still pathetic.

She opened her mouth to say more but then she stopped and moved closer to him. She didn't hug him because he was hurt there so she rested her head on his shoulders and let the silent tears fall.

He grabbed her hand…with his right…she took it gratefully. She touched the place where his cut used to be…it was gone now. Her touch was soothing. He let go of her hand and she stared at him, instead he used it to pull her lips to his.

He kissed her, she kissed him back. The kiss began to intensify…she put her arms around his neck and pulled herself closer. His lips to hers were more beautiful then he thought it would be. The feeling he gave her, that safe feeling he had never had before…he wanted it…wanted it forever.

Sasuke began to kiss her neck and then travel along the side of her cheek and back to her lips. She stroked the side of his cheek…so soft...so safe.

I want to stay like this with her…forever…She makes my pain disappear…I'll do anything for her…to make her feel safe, for that is what she has done for me.

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Yeys…I thought this was the best chapter so far! What do you think? It was kinda fun to right…ta torture scene was a little hard I will admit…but yeh please rate and review and await the next chapter! Which will be out soon I hope…much luv