AN: The beginning of this chapter (up until the smiley face) is chapter one in Remus's POV instead of Sirius's. After the smiley face is Sirius's POV after last chapter. And don't ask about the smiley face. Please.
Disclaimer: Nope. I don't own Harry Potter and never will.
Remus woke up in the morning by the sound of a door opening. He remembered the dream he had last night. A feeling of nostalgia filled him as he pondered about Sirius's behavious a month ago.
Sirius, Remus thought. I miss him so much.
He became aware that he wasn't alone anymore as he heard the sound of steady breathing and footsteps approaching his bed. It's Sirius. What do I do? Remus started panicking but was resolved to act absorbed in his slumber. He heard the footsteps stop and felt Sirius's gray eyes probing him.
Stop, please, Remus thought as he heard Sirius walking away, but not having the courage to voice his pleas. Why did I push him away? It was all because of Sirius not thinking things through. But I can't do it. I can't and won't stop being friends with him. I owe him so much, for being there for me when he found out I'm a werewolf. He was there when I needed a friend. And now, can I just desert him for telling Snape how to get past the willow? Remus reasoned. I can't do this anymore. I-I-I love him. Before we were friends but now...we're nothing. And it's my fault. I pushed him away. I didn't forgive him. And now, everything's over. Not only do I have a chance with him, but we're not even...friends anymore. Remus started blinking fast to stop the tears that were threatening to fall.
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Sirius pulled out his diary after checking to make sure the dormitory was empty. It's not a diary. It is a book that I write my feelings in. Sirius thought. He opened the book and got ink and a quill to write an entry.
The full moon was last night. I don't know what to do. I saw Remus today in the hospital wing and he looked so calm and peaceful. I think he feels better with me gone. I can't believe I was so stupid. From the previous full moon to last night's was the longest in my life. Seeing Remus day after day, not talking to or with him, hurt me so much. I hated seeing his eyes darken everytime he looked at me. In the hospital wing, as I was staring at him, I-
The sound of the quill scratching as it moved on the paper stopped as Sirius heard an anguished yell from the common room.
AN: Just so everyone who reads this knows, the reason my chapters are so short is because if the chapters are long I feel like I've written and accomplished less which makes me less motivated to write. I'm just weird, so this probably doesn't apply to a lot of other people. Sorry if short chapters are annoying, but how many chapters there are isn't going to change the length of this fanfic.
