Man this week has been dragging by so slow and I'm so ready for it to be over with already...Does anyone feel the same way??? Well heres another chpt. Hope you guys enjoy it!!!
Speechless
Ashley POV
When I woke up Spencer was gone. She's alway's gone when I wake up. Sometimes I don't even think that that girl even sleeps.
Let everything that happened yesterday be just a nightmare. I'm having the hardest time dealing with all of this.
I got off of the bed and looked at myself in the mirror. Oh man did I look horrible. Maybe I should at least do something about that. I put half of my hair up and then I put on some make-up. I know that there is no real reason to get all presentable but there was also no need to look like a zombie either.
If I was going to be walking around with pent up anger inside I was going to do it looking good.
As soon as I was finished I walked downstairs and I saw Glen, Clay, and Jaimie sitting in the living room. Hmm I wonder where Spencer is?
Just before I turned to go into the kitchen I stopped myself because I heard HER talking. As I stood there I found out that she was in there talking with Spencer. Great now they are becoming friends.
Couldn't Spencer just stay out of this and leave it alone? Now I was frustrated.
What? I just heard my name. I walked into the kitchen and Spencer heard me and stared right at me. She looks like she just got caught doing something wrong. I know that I can't stop her from talking to Kyla but damn it just bugged me.
"What am I not seeing Spencer?" I stood there with my arms crossed and she was figgeting in her chair.
"Um...we were just talking about your guys dad that's all."
"You mean MY dad." I looked towards Kyla and then back at Spencer. Spencer looked shocked that I could say that with Kyla there, but that was exactly why I had said it.
"Ashley you don't know me." Kyla started to talk and I just left it at that before she went on.
"Good let's keep it that way." I turned around from the kitchen and left them in there.
Ahhhh. This was all bullshit.
I walked into the living room and looked at Jaimie.
"Hey you want to go and get something to eat?" Jaimie looked at me and then looked behind me. I knew Spencer was there.
"Ash don't you think that we should talk?" Spencer said over my shoulder and at that point I really wasn't in the mood to talk with her about Kyla.
"No." I shot back but didn't turn around to look at her face.
"Ash." Spencer had her arm on me and I turned around to her.
"Why don't you go back into the kitchen and talk to her, because right now I think she's the only Davies that wants to talk to you."
Spencers hand dropped from me and then she walked away from me. That was one bad move that I had just made.
I turned back around and looked at Jaimie.
"Are we going?" I know that I shouldn't have attitude with her but I did and I could tell that she wasn't happy with me either.
"I'll go with you but you have to stop this bitchy attitude because it's making me sick." Jaimie grabbed her purse and walked towards the front door. My head dropped and I followed her out the door.
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The whole way in the car it was dead silent and I was glad for that. I know that once we stop Jaimie is just going to let me have it. She does not keep things to herself, she will make sure she speaks her mind when she wants to.
I pulled up into In-N-Out and parked the car.
"What the hell is wrong with you?"
And this is where the fun starts.
"Jaimie-"
"No Ashley this is all bullshit. I know that you are hurt about what your father did to you, but Spencer does not deserve to be treated like that. She is the only person who has stuck through all this for you and your just making her feel like shit with your attitude towards her. How do you think that makes her feel?"
Aww man I hate this.
"I'm not trying to make Spencer feel like shit-"
"But you are. Yesterday after you just bailed on her she was shocked that you had did that to her. Shit I was shocked as hell. You have to know that we are all here for you and that your not in this alone. I'm your bestfriend and Spencers your girlfriend. Your not alone Ashley."
I was looking out of my window and knew everything that Jaimie was talking about was right. I know I'm not alone I just have those moments where I want to be myself when I'm going through things.
"Let's go get something to eat." I told her as I started to get out of the car.
Jaimie and I sat inside eating our food and didn't talk about anything that was going on back at home. I was glad for that because I didn't think that I could take anymore from Jaimie.
Just before we were about to leave In-N-Out Jaimies phone went off and when she looked at it she looked up at me. It was Spencer.
"Hey...Nah we just got finished eating. Do you want to talk to her?" I looked up at Jaimie and I thought she was going to hand me the phone but she must of got her answer and she obviously didn't want to talk to me. She closed her phone and put it back into her purse.
"So I'm guessing that Spencer doesn't want to talk to me?" Jaimie got up from her seat and I followed right after her.
"What do you think?" Well I knew the answer to that.
"Let's go." Jaimie said as we walked out towards the car.
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For the next couple of days things were silent between all of us. After me telling Spencer that Kyla was the only one who wanted to talk to her, Spencer made sure that she was the only one she talked to. Which lead me to sleep by myself these last few nights as well. Yeah talk about lonely.
My dad and I haven't talked about anything that went on christmas day and with the way I still feel I don't want to talk about it either. He keeps to himself and I'll do the same.
Spence, Jaimie, and Kyla have actually been getting along. Of course I don't sit around the house to watch it because it just gets me more upset then what I am. I guess I could apologize to Spencer about what I said, but everytime I come up to her she walks away not letting me apologize. Oh well I deserve it that's for sure.
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Today The Carlins go back home and I'm actually going to miss them. Paula has been a real sweetheart since she's been here. I wonder if it has to do with the fact that I brought the whole family out to California. Hahaha that wouldn't shock me.
Spencer wanted to see them off at the airport so I told her that we would follow them in the car over to the airport. Of course she didn't really say anything to me the whole way over there. I would glance at her every chance I got and she kept her view away from me.
"Are you ever going to talk to me?" I asked her as we were sitting at a stop light waiting for it to turn green.
"What's the point? It's not like you would want to hear what I have to say anyways." I turned my view back to the road and the light switched colors.
"I'm sorry about what I said to you the other day. I didn't mean it, you know that. I was just upset that you were talking with Kyla after everything that had happen. How did you think I was going to feel Spencer?"
"Ashley I've been there for you this whole time and all you've done is pushed me away. Now how do you expect me to act towards you. You say you love me, but you push me away. You say that we are promised to eachother, but you push me away." Hearing her say those thing's to me made the tears start and I hated myself. She was right about everything and all I did was push the one person who has been there for me away.
"I'm sorry Spence. I'm really sorry for all of it. I know you didn't deserve any of it. I know that you shouldn't forgive me but I really hope so, because I can't lose you."
I felt Spencers eyes on me when I finished my last sentence.
"Ashley you're never going to lose me. No matter what type of hell you put me through I will always love you. You just have to realize that what we have is bigger then everything we go through. So if I fall I know I have you there to pick me back up and if you fall I'm always going to be right there to pick you back up as well. I'm in love with you Ash and nothings going to change that feeling."
As soon as we stopped the vehichle I reached over and brought Spencers lips to mine. I totally caught her off guard but I needed her to know that I felt the same way about her.
"Please never give up on me." I whispered to her as soon as we broke apart from our lip lock and our heads were leaning against eachother.
"I promise." She leaned into me for another kiss as the words flowed into my mouth.
(A/N: Hey you guys I stopped it right there because I have alot on my mind right now. Thx a million to all of the peeps who review...u guys are GREAT!!!)
