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Apov
As I walked away from Bella's house I couldn't help but feel sorry for her. I saw what she was going to have to go through, but I couldn't see how it was going to end. This scared me. Bella was my best friend, she is like family. Edward loves her; he was going to be devastated when he finds out what is wrong. I promised her though I wouldn't say anything, and I do not plane on breaking that promise.
I walked home slower than usual, as I needed time to gather my thoughts so I could hide them from Edward. Even though I was walking slowly I arrived home a lot sooner than I would have liked. When I entered the house I heard Rosalie yelling at Emmet because he wouldn't accompany her while she went shopping. I didn't really wish to take part in any conversations so I quickly ran up to my room. Jasper glanced up from the bed where he was reading a book when he heard me enter the room.
"Alice, what is bothering you?" Jasper asked when I sat down next to him.
"Nothing Jazz…just something me and Bella talked about." I said not wanting to go into details.
"Oh, well I am sure it will be fine." He put an arm around me pulling me into a loving embrace. If only he knew how bad it could and probably would get. Soon after, I heard Edwards Volvo pull out of the driveway and I knew for the night at least I would be able to avoid his questions. Hopefully Bella will tell him soon.
Bpov
I woke up on a Saturday morning to find that Edward was not by my side. After a couple of moments I remembered that he had left the previous morning to go hunting. In a way I was relieved that I could have alone time to think some things over. I walked down stairs to find Charlie sitting at the kitchen table. He glanced up as I walked in.
"Good morning Bella." Charlie said eyeing me carefully.
"Good morning dad." I replied
I could tell that he wanted to talk about something, probably about the cancer treatments I had been receiving now for almost a month and a half. I got my cereal and sat down across from him waiting for him to talk to me.
"I thought you would be gone finishing with Billy today?" I asked trying to find out what he wanted.
"Yes well I thought that I would stay home with you today. I have something I have been meaning to talk to you about." he said before glancing away nervously.
I knew what this had to be about, the only time he gets nervous like this is when he wants to bring up Edward. I know he doesn't care for Edward that much anymore after he left me last year, but I loved him and I didn't care what Charlie had to say about the matter.
"Well dad, what's on your mind." I asked not wanting to hear his response.
"Well Bella, I wanted to talk to you about…Edward actually." he looked at me nervously.
"Dad how many times do I need to tell you, I love him and I don't care what you say, he loves me too. He had his reasons for leaving last year and I realize that you can't understand it, but I love him and he makes me happy, and I am going to stay with him no matter what you say." I replied heatedly.
"No Bella…it's not like that…yes it is still about Edward but not because of last year." I could tell he was getting more nervous. I eyed him suspiciously not knowing where this conversation was going anymore.
"Well, I was wondering if you had told him about you having cancer yet?" he looked straight at me waiting for my reply.
"Oh…umm…no I haven't yet I was going to tell him soon though, why? I asked
"Bella, I just think he has a right to know. What if you tell him and he decides this could become too complicated for the two of you. You have to give him the choice of whether or not he wants to stick by you rather than keeping him in the dark. What happens if you keep it from him and then you finally tell him and he decides he doesn't want to deal with this?" Charlie asked this without looking at me once.
I sat there for a while appalled by what my father had just asked me. Edward not want to be by my side when I got sick…when I was battling for my life? How ridiculous was that. Of course he would stick by me, Edward loved me. He would stay by me until the very end.
"Dad…that is the most outrageous thing I have ever heard…Edward loves me and he will not leave me to deal with this alone. How dare you even think such a thing…Edward loves me." I screamed at him. He didn't seem surprised by my reaction at all.
"Bella, I just meant that it isn't fare to him if you don't tell him what's actually going on. If he decides he doesn't want to stay, you should face it before you are too weak and it hinders your treatment and recovery. I just want to make sure you have a friend that will be there for you when you need them the most." Charlie looked almost apologetic when he made this statement.
"Yea dad, and who exactly do you think that friend should be?"
"Jacob was there for you when Edward left, and I know he would stick by you through this if you just gave him the chance to…." I cut him off not wanting to hear the rest of whatever it was he was going to say.
"Dad...Jacob doesn't even talk to me anymore; he hates me for loving Edward. Do you honestly think I would want to sit by someone while I was dying who doesn't even except the person I love. No dad…I do not want Jacob by my side…I want and I will have Edward." I got up to leave the kitchen only to be held back by Charlie.
"Bella…you are not going to die!!" he sounded like he was trying to convince himself of this statement more than he actually believed it.
"Dad, unless there is a miracle…we both know the treatment is only helping to slow things down, the cancer has spread to much, we caught it to late…like the doctors said, it's only a matter of time." After this I ran from the kitchen and went upstairs to get ready.
I could not stand to be in this house anymore today. First my dad won't accept the person I love and is actually brave enough to suggest that Edward would leave me, then to want me to push Edward aside because he thought Jacob would be a better person to have by my side…no…no way; Edward was the one and the only. I went into the bathroom to shower and get ready…maybe I would go visit the Cullen's today. I think only Jasper, Emmet, and Edward were hunting so Alice at least should still be there.
When I was in the shower I grabbed my bottle of shampoo. I was washing my hair when I felt something get tangled up in my fingers. As I pulled my hand away I was horrified at what I saw. There in my hand I held a huge handful of hair that had once been attached to my head. I stared blankly at the hair in my hand for a few seconds before I started to panic. I knew that with chemo my hair would possibly fall out, but I still wasn't prepared for it…not now at least. I let the hair fall from my hand and hit the bottom of the shower.
A single thought escaped me as I stood there in shock…what if Edward didn't want to deal with this, what if I was wrong and this was going to be too hard for him to accept, it's almost to hard for me to accept .
I started to hyperventilate at the idea, and before I knew it I was on the floor sobbing hysterically. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't stop…I guess that's what happens when you hold in your emotions and lie to the people you love for a month. Now however I had no choice. The time had come where I had to tell the Cullen's, and give Edward the chance to decide if he wanted to stick by me.
I pulled into their driveway and got out of my truck. I slowly walked up the stairs and reached out my arm to knock on the door. I happened to look at my arm and saw all the bruises that wouldn't heal anymore. Bruises had covered my body and although some had disappeared most just stayed for long periods of time…making it seem as though they would never go away. I knocked on the door pushing all other thoughts away. There in the doorway stood my angel, with his huge crooked smile plastered across his face. I was the only one (besides maybe Alice) who knew in a few minutes I would crush his heart.
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