Wow

Wow! Long time no see, guys! I've been off doing a bunch of uneventful, boring things, like, for example, going to DC and New York. It's a long trip from California, but it's worth it. I had fun, and I was in DC on the day The Final Warning came out, and I bought it at Union Station. It was cool except for the fact that I was surrounded by preps and I hated the book and don't believe in global warming. But anyway, I'm back now and I'm /finally/ ready to update!

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Diary Drabbles

Chapter 5

Chapter 5, Part 1: Ari

Dear Diary,

Isn't this just great? I can't believe I joined the flock! And would you believe who let me? That's right! MAX! I honestly can not believe I'm here right now. Just wow, you know? I'm going to faint, I know it. She, Max, the girl of my dreams, let me join the flock, like I've always dreamed of.

But it's not all that great. The flock hates me. They didn't accept me very much. Only Max and Angel, and even they are uneasy. I'm in a cabin right now, with Angel, Nudge, The Gasman (they call him Gazzy, poor kid. It's surprising he hasn't committed suicide yet), Iggy (the freaky blind kid), and Total (their freaky dog). Max and Fang are outside talking. I really hope, if they're together, that they're breaking up because they realized that Max and I were destined to be together and there's no denying that. Angel is sending me reassuring thoughts, but she sounds a little… dry. Like she doesn't really expect me to believe them, and like she doesn't want me to, either. I'm going to go pop an anti-depressant before Max and Fang get back.

-Ari

Chapter 5, Part 2: Max

Dear Diary,

I can't believe Fang and I just broke up! Well, technically, we were never together, but now we're officially never going to happen. He hates me now. I know he does. He's splitting up the whole flock. Gazzy and Iggy are going with him, while Angel, Nudge, Total, and of course Ari are coming with me. I can't stand the thought of seeing him go. I'm going to keep that in my memory forever, I'm sure of it. It doesn't matter how good he looks, how awesome his backside is, he's still going to be turned away from me. Forever. I can't bare the thought. I might never see him again. We're all staying in the cabin tonight, but we're all leaving, in different directions, tomorrow.

Angel is picking up on my thoughts. She's begging me in my head to stop feeling so bad. I wish I could listen to her. But the truth is, I can't live without Fang. And I need Iggy and Gazzy too. I don't care how much Gazzy sings Constipated (I kind of like the song) (A/N: It's a good song. If you haven't heard it, hear it now. It's freaking hilarious) and gets on everyone's nerves. I don't care about Iggy's annoying blind jokes or the constant need for destruction they both possess. I'll still miss them. And I'll get them back, once I'm done with the whole, 'Save the world' thing.

Fang needs the laptop. He didn't confront me himself, he sent Gazzy to do it. But I guess I'll give it to him anyway.

-Max

Chapter 5, Part 3: Fang

Dear Diary,

As I look over at Max, I can't believe what I've done. I can't believe I split the flock up. I'm going to miss her. I'll miss her tan face, and her blonde/brown hair, and the way her eyes sparkle milk chocolate in the sunlight. I'll miss her sarcasm and they way she looks after the flock like a mother. I'll miss they way my throat closes up and I can't breathe when she gets too close. I regret how I acted like I don't care. No emotions! Ha!

I'm such a loser. I've loved Max since… forever. Since before the erasers attacked us that day when Angel was taken all those months ago. Since before Jeb betrayed us two years ago, give or take. Since before he taught us how to fly, or even before he took us from our cages. I've always been for Max. Do you think I'd still hang around with the flock if it wasn't for Max? Okay, I would, and I will, considering the fact that we broke up. I'm struggling so hard not to cry right now.

And now Gazzy is giving me weird looks. Iggy would too, but thank God he's blind. Okay, that's mean, but I don't feel anything, not even happiness or sadness, if I remember correctly, so how am I supposed to feel anything like guilt… or love. This is stupid. I don't want to type anything I'll regret, so I guess I'll stop now. Nudge wants a turn, anyway.

-Fang, or The F--er-Upper of all great almost-relationships

Chapter 5, Part 4: Nudge

Dear Diary,

How could this happen? Why is the flock splitting up? I wish I could have done something to stop it, but Angel says (through her mind, of course) that I can't repeat anything Max and Fang think about each other (those thoughts Angel has kindly passed on to me) because they need to figure it out for themselves. I feel strangely compelled to listen to her, which is so… non-cliché that a six-year-old could tell an eleven-year-old what to do. And there's that little line again. Who can feel depressed when there's those little symbols above words? Like, cliché, touché, naïveté (that one has two), and some other words I can't think of right now.

But I think I can feel depressed, even when I look at symbols. It's just a non-ADD, non-symbol-ey moment for me right now. If you've read everyone else's entries so far, I bet they'd tell you that the flock split up, and they're depressed. Well, me too. THIS FREAKING SUCKS! I went with Max because I trust her and I need her, and I think that Fang can't possibly do well on his own. Plus, girls are smarter, and we can carry on 27 different conversations at once while sending messages through the air to each other, even without a telepath, and when you throw that in too, we've got a load of fun.

But not right now, because Angel's passing on Max and Fang's thoughts and I just want to blurt them out so we can be a family again. We might not be a normal family, or perfect, but we're still a family, and I'm going to lose my head without the funny ones (no offence, but Max and Angel can get kind of boring, Total's weird, and Ari wavers too much between ages 7 and 20). It's not like Fang is funny, but I'll die without Gazzy and Iggy to keep me company. I'm too depressed to type any more, and everyone's asleep. I guess I won't be writing for a while, considering the fact that Fang's taking the computer with his half. I don't know if I'll ever see you again, but I hope so.

-Nudge

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-Golden Ice