Day 78
Dear Diary,
Still confused as ever. It's time like these that I wish Shannon was still alive -- I could always ask her about "relationship issues." She always gave the best advice. Better than all those books combined I read when there was trouble with Thomas. Sometimes I wonder if I talk to her if she'd still answer. Like in dreams. This is one crazy island to crash land on so anything is possible. I wonder if Sayid still talks to her.
Maybe I should ask Kate. At least she can relate. Shannon always had guys chasing after her, but never really liked any in return. Till Sayid and possibly Boone but, then again, they came to her like all the others.
I do know I need to be nicer to Charlie. He's trying so very hard so I shouldn't push him away. No matter how tempting it is at times.
Desmond keeps trying to push me away and I keep pushing back. I don't give up that easily. He should know that. Even if he couldn't read minds or see stuff or whatever it is he does. I wonder what he sees for our future? If we even have one.
I need to start hiding this journal better just in case Charlie reads it. My feelings are the last thing I want to explain to him right now. Hopefully, I can clear my mind and heart and come to some sort of decision. There's also Aaron to consider. It's not just what I want any more but what's also best for him. I hope I can do what's best for all around.
Till next time diary...
Claire
