Sitting in the cafeteria in the Forks High School was all too familiar. My family was obviously trying hard not to think about the last time we were here, but they all failed miserably. I pretended not to hear their thoughts. The kids were absolutely mesmerized by us, especially all the boys with Rosalie, although they avoided staring at her when Emmett was around. No one approached us though, no one dared. As I said, all too familiar, humans, predictable creatures. I heard our names in most of their thoughts, not only in there, but in all their soft whispers. I tuned it all out. I sighed deeply.
Moving back wasn't the hardest part, the hardest part was being careful of not reminding anyone of who we were. The first few days were crucial, we did scout the town for people that might remember us but they were all gone, just like Bella. Apparently, Charlie died a several years ago of a heart attack. Carlisle found that out in the medical records of the hospital. That must've killed her, so she moved back with Renee to Jacksonville. It crossed my mind a few times, the idea of spying on her for a while, no, that would kill me. If only.
The school bell pulled me out of my thoughts. The overcrowded cafeteria soon was left empty, my family all left and I was still sitting in the same place, just remembering what was and reminding myself of what never will be. I stood up not really paying attention to where I was going I wandered aimlessly around the school campus. Every time I passed a classroom girls stared back at me, with curiosity in their eyes and lust on their minds.
I tuned it all out again. I finally found a place where I felt comfortable enough to relax for a moment. I stared up at the dark, glooming clouds, the smell in the air signaled that it was going to rain soon. I sighed again. I let my thoughts wander back to that what if place. I started thinking of my kisses with Bella, dangerous, short but amazing. I thought of her beautiful hair. She looked like an angel in the meadow, an angel that was dangerously dazzled by a demon. Her soft skin, her smell, I imagined my fingertips tracing the skin on her neck. Soft kisses tracing along her jaw, until they reached her lips. I heard the loud thumps of her heartbeat as it got faster from my touch. I felt a raindrop fall on my head, thus ending everything I had concocted.
I headed to my last class, History, Great, I thought dryly. I could recount history better than that book could ever describe it. I felt time pass incredibly slow. I was sitting very still at my desk, I was barely breathing. I must've looked like a statue. I could hear Jasper's thoughts from a few classrooms away. I half-smiled when I realized how bored he was, until I heard a little too much when he thought about Alice. I quickly tuned everything out and stared at the chalkboard. I took my first deep breath in a while.
What the hell?, I thought. I quickly turned my head to the source where that delicious scent was drifting from. I was amazed, my topaz eyes narrowed in on that small figure. Her auburn hair and light skin seemed to shine from the other girls surrounding her. What is that smell?, the monster in my head asked again. Stop it Edward, I warned myself. The smell drowned all other thoughts from my head. I looked down at my desk and tuned everything out. I needed to find my reason again, the smell took over my mind for a second time. I gave into my desire and stared at her again. The girls around her whispered my name to her, apparently they noticed my death stare. The fire in my throat burned, but not as it did for Bella, never as strong as it did for her. Edward control yourself, I thought.
Too late, I kept on staring, I heard her thoughts, Why is he looking at me?. I tried to smile but it must've looked deranged because she quickly turned her attention back to the teacher.
No, I thought, Look at me, No Edward, don't. It had been a long while since I wanted something, no, someone that much, not since Bella. I stopped breathing completely. You can kill them all, it would only take a few seconds, ten at the most, No Edward, don't. I was mess, I was completely out of control. They are weak and defenseless, the monster in me pointed out, Who can stop you? I thought about the only thing that could stop me, my father, Carlisle.
As human-like as possible I asked to be excused, stood up and left. For the first time ever I went inside a Forks High School bathroom. I sat in the farthest stall. I took out my cell phone and dialed the sacred number. The number of reason and understanding. He didn't answer. All was lost if I returned to that classroom I was going to kill her and possibly everyone else there. No Edward, I thought, You can do this. The monster in my head growled at my reason, She is just another meal Edward you can do it, you want it, you can have it. My thoughts were drowned out by a sudden noise, someone was in here. I opened the bathroom stall slowly and was face to face with Jasper.
"Are you okay? Alice saw something." He said quickly, with a worried tone. I felt serene all of the sudden.
"What did she see?", I answered lazily.
"You killing a girl.", he answered. I snapped out of the serene atmosphere he had created.
"Well, it was avoided.", I replied indignant.
"She didn't she you killing her in the classroom, but in her house.", He explained.
