The next few days were a haze I stayed home for the rest of the week. Carlisle calmed me down and told me that I was going to have to feed before and after school everyday. That weekend I went hunting for my favorite meal, cougar. The hunt was exciting and I fed enough. I felt stronger than ever apparently from my over feeding, I even had a little more color.

Now it was five am on a Monday morning before school, I was in the forest, an easy meal was bound to fall right into my lap soon. My liquid topaz eyes narrowed in on a deer. It looked like it was going to be an easy meal after all. I switched to hunter mode I crouched down low on the ground and stalked closer and closer to my prey. The foolish animal stepped closer and closer towards me and sank deeper and deeper into despair. I finally was close enough, well close enough to not really have to do much work. The last thing the animal heard was a growl, he never even saw me coming. I snapped his neck like a twig. I drank as much as I could and I took my time, there was no need to hurry. The ultimate predator, my kind. It was not human blood but it satisfied as much as it could.

I dare not even to think about human blood, especially that girl's or Bella's. Bella's tempted me so, it caused me physical pain. It was torture, but I love her too much to even consider her death. No, never, I thought. It was about six in the morning when I finished feeding, I returned to the house and got in my car. The others were in a separate car in case I had to leave school in a hurry. I drove to school slower than usual, I don't really know why, I guess so I didn't have to confront my weakness sooner. I was the first one in the parking lot. I sat down in the picnic tables on campus and stared up at the sky, that beautiful cloud covered sky. I wondered where she was, and who she was with. She must have somebody else by now. Would she?, I thought. Regret crashed into me again. I hoped she was happy wherever and with whomever she was, she deserved all the happiness in the world.

Human memories fade... I wonder if hers did. Several groups of students started arriving, none of them came to close to me. They just stared from a distance. Their thoughts didn't matter. A group of girls was bold enough to seat in a picnic table near mine and that's when it hit me. The fire burned in my throat, it was strong but I was too full. Our strategy worked. I saw my family arrive a while later, but I was too hypnotize by the smell to go over and greet them.

The reason started escaping though. I stared at the girl again. Her friends thoughts started running wild. She smiled at me. Bold move. I tried to smile back, but I just stared. She was my new deer, I thought, No, no, no, no, she is a human. I scowled in her direction and she saw it. I stood up and left to join my family. I could feel her stare drill into the back of my head. I read her thoughts. She was wondering what the hell was wrong with me. If she only knew, she'd probably have a stroke. I started talking to Emmett about the hunt of this morning, just so I had something to do, but I could still feel her stare.

"There's a girl staring at you Edward." he said after a while.

"I know I am trying to avoid her." I said angrily.

"Oh, so that's her, the one you want." he said.

"I do not want her." My voice shook at that moment when her scent enveloped my thoughts again. Alice was staring blankly at the wall and then she shook her head.

"What?", I asked, I couldn't read her thoughts, I was only thinking about the smell. I was getting annoyed.

"It's not looking good Edward.", she answered. A small growl ripped through my chest. I turned and left. I will not kill her, I thought. I kept walking towards the back bleachers so I could just avoid everyone. I was planning on cutting my last class. I bet Alice saw that, I thought annoyed. I sat on the bleachers for a while. There was no one around. My mind went back to my favorite place, the past. I remembered Bella in the meadow again. The way her kisses concealed a under layer of hunger for more, of passion. I felt her soft skin at my fingertips, all my senses completely focused on this woman. My hearing on her heartbeat, my sight on her beauty, my touch on her translucent skin, my smell on her special aroma and my taste on her lips.

Everything else in that moment was forgotten. It was only Bella and...-"What's your problem?", a voice interrupted.

I was so focused on my daydreaming that I completely ignored my instinct of always being aware. I was caught in a vulnerable moment, I was actually surprised, never I'm my vampire years was I unaware of someone or something approaching. Bella the power you have over me. The smell hit me, You are alone with her Edward, do it now, my monster ego proposed. I stared back at her.

"Well, are you going to talk?", she pressed. Never in my vampire lifetime had a human had the boldness of talking to me like that. Maybe she had a death wish, I thought, if only.

"Listen, I want to know why you were staring at me.", she explained," You got something to say?". I was out right speechless, what could I say to her? Oh, hey. I want your blood now, I don't think so.

"Um...hello my name is Edward Cullen." I said quickly.

She stared back, "I know your name. I just want to know if you have a problem with me.", she countered.

"None, whatsoever." I answered coolly.

"Oh, I thought... It's just that you were staring at me like you had a problem, like you... I don't know.", she replied shyly. You have her now, go in for the kill, the monster chuckled in my mind.

"I'll let you know if I have a problem with you, whenever such circumstances arise. Now if you would please excuse me, I am late for class.",I stood up quickly and left for my next class.