I spent the rest of the lunch period thinking about what I was going to do. I avoided my family and especially I avoided completely Alice's thoughts. I didn't want to hear them. I didn't want to see what was coming. Carlisle would be disappointed, but right about now the monster within me couldn't give a damn.
Why shouldn't I do it? I hadn't felt this way since Bella, my Bella. I avoided everyone's thoughts except hers, she was completely mesmerized by me. The face I saw in her thoughts didn't look like mine it looked like the face of the perfect predator, a vampire.
I spent the whole class looking over at her. Her friends jealous of her for having my attention, if they only knew her fate.
After the last class I went over to my car and quickly left the school. I wasn't going home though. I couldn't face any of them right now. Especially not Carlisle. I'm so sorry father, I thought over and over. I left my car on the road that led to the meadow, hidden by the trees.
I started thinking of her scent and how it called me, it sang for me. Not as strong though, never as strong as my only love. I ran back to town, no one saw me. I was practically invisible in the soft evening light. Fast, silent and deadly. I went directly to the school and picked up her scent, I quickly followed it around town.
It got immensely strong when I went into a pretty neighborhood. I found her house, it looked well taken care of. I checked out the outside of the house, it seemed all too easy to sneak in, but not yet. I waited around the neighborhood hiding in the forest near it.
At midnight I would attack. Guilt, didn't cross my mind, pity didn't either. As a vampire, humans were just a meal. Especially this human, she was going to be a great one. How dare I think of her like that?, I thought, So my reason showed up. Too late though, this hunt had already started and it was about to be finished.
Midnight, arrived faster than on any other night, like the world wanted me to end this. Maybe it was kismet. I slipped inside her home, if her parents were home they wouldn't notice, I was blinded by her smell.
Stronger than ever, it was so strong it stunned me for a second. The venom started flowing in my mouth. I quickly stopped breathing, to make this a bit easier for me. I walked up the stairs. Her door was locked, as if locks could ever stop me. I entered the room easily and saw her sleeping, she looked like an angel. My type of angel, I smiled at her presence. Her heartbeat was slow and steady, soon there was going to be none. Soon, she would be mine. She would turn into a memory. I was going to draw this out. I took a small breath, her scent blinded me again.
I walked up to her bed and touched her soft skin. I could feel her pulse, as the blood flowed from her heart to the rest of her body. I traced her jaw line with my cold fingers. What a sound sleeper, I thought. Now that smell was on my fingertips. I brought my fingertips to my mouth. The venom was flowing in larger quantities now.
She is just a girl, I thought. No, Edward she is what you want, the monster countered. No, what I want is gone, and I can't have it back, I thought.
But she can replace what you want Edward, the monster said. No, NEVER!, I replied. I staggered backwards in my fury and almost knocked over a lamp.
She stirred in her sleep and I held my breath, even if she woke up, I wouldn't let her see me. If she woke up now, this was over. She turned on her bed kept on sleeping. This new position let me see more of her neck, the forbidden fruit.
I stayed were I was though, I couldn't hear anything but her slow heartbeat and my sense of smell was completely focused on her strong scent. I was utterly into this hunt, that I didn't hear what approached from behind. I didn't hear when someone softly opened the door.
I walked towards her, I was going to end this now, the smell was too strong now, it was tearing me apart, completely. I bared my teeth.
"Don't do it, Edward.", that voice completely broke the spell of the scent. It utterly drowned out everything else I ever felt before this second. I turned my head to the source of that voice and found a pair of familiar eyes staring back at my blackened ones, full of judgment. Brown eyes, the brown eyes that could never escape my memories, Bella's. These weren't the same eyes though, these eyes were older.
