Title: The right decision?
Disclaimer: Sadly enough I don't own Bones.
A/N: Thanks to Uscfbfan for the help and changes she made!!! Also a lot of thanks to all the sweet people who left a review! Thanks guys! I really hope you guys like this chapter. I'll post the next chapter soon. The next chapter will be longer.
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Chapter 4.
Brennan sank to the ground and pulled her knees to her chest, "Breathe" she told herself. She was in shock about the news . . . there was a chance that Booth could be gone permanently. She could think like that, she was jumping to conclusions and she knew that. Brennan grabbed the phone and called the FBI headquarters but they didn't know anything more than she did.
The frustration was overwhelming. She walked down the hall and watched Booth's son sleeping quietly in his bed. He had kicked off the covers again. Brennan smiled and threw the blanket back over him. Calming down, she went back down the hall and tired calling the FBI again. It proved to be futile, they couldn't release any information just yet.
With no new information she let the anger get to her, and the phone ended up smashed in a million pieces when it connected with the wall. Sighing, she walked over mentally noting to by another house phone, and started picking up the shattered pieces. Thoughts of Booth flooded her mind, his smile, his laugh, his voice . . . what she wouldn't give to hear his voice right now, to hear him call her Bones.
Realizing she would have to use her cell phone now to harass the FBI for information, she walked down the hall to retrieve it. She had been so lost in thought and grief that she hadn't heard her cell phone ring. Angela had tried to call her several times, and not wanting her friend to worry, she quickly called her best friend back.
"Thank god...Sweetie, why weren't you answering your phone, did you see the news?" Brennan sniffed and Angela could hear her friend was upset. Angela was in the midst of pulling on her Uggs and throwing her hair back. She wasn't going to let her best friend go through this alone.
"I saw the news, and those agents, and the FBI wouldn't tell me... what if Booth is one of them? I don't know what to do Ange…" Brennan tried to calm her voice, lowering it so Parker would not be disturbed. Brennan cried even harder now, she was desperate, she needed news about Booth.
"Sweetie, calm down, it will be alright, Hodgins, Zack and I are leaving now, we will be at your apartment within 20 minutes." She motioned to the boys, throwing a set of keys at Jack. Angela tried to sound as comforting as she could be, though it wasn't really working.
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Twenty minutes later, and breaking several speeding laws, Zack, Hodgins and Angela stood in front of Brennan's door, armed with Starbucks coffee and pastries. They were in this for the long haul. Brennan ran into Angela's arms. "They won't tell me anything." She said. "If they don't tell me something soon, I am going to go crazy."
"I'll call the FBI for you Dr. Brennan." Hodgins offered. "You know what they say, the squeakiest oil gets the oil." Hodgins called the FBI trying to get new information and Angela and Zach tried to calm Brennan down.
Hodgins got a little more news than Brennan got earlier but they didn't told anything about the identities of the agents yet. They supplied that it was indeed Booth's operation, it turned out that 6 agents in the same operation as Booth was, were killed after the terrorists had taken them hostage after they found out the real identity.
It wasn't certain yet if Booth was one of the killed agents. Zach tried to give Brennan some hope, though telling her there was only a 30 chance that Booth was one of the killed agents, didn't really make her feel better. Angela reminded Brennan to think rational like she always did.
The hour passed quickly and it was after midnight already
Hodgins kept calling the FBI until he was satisfied with the information he got, he already called 6 times to check if there was any news. The seventh time the FBI got so annoyed that they told him they would call him if they would find out anything else about the agents.
Angela told Brennan to take a nap, rest a little, but she refused... She was tired but wanted to be awake when they got news...If they would get news. The Breaking news on the television didn't stop, but they didn't had a lot of important information about the murdered agents either.
2 victims were identified. The first victim was Shawn Daniels, a 22 year old FBI agent from Louisville, he died in a gunfire. The second victim was the 38 year old Leo McGregor, he died after he was killed by a terrorist, he had a wife and 2 children.
Brennan relaxed a bit and checked if Parker was still sleeping, she opened the door and saw Parker lying in bed, sleeping peacefully, he looked so adorable, he held his stuffed teddybear tightly. She sat down on the side of his bed, brushing his hair out of his eyes. She watched him for a while. He already looked so much like his father, the way he acted, his smile...it was all Booth's.
What was she supposed to do if it turned out Booth was one of the killed agents? Parker needed his father, she needed him too. She couldn't imagine her life with Booth gone forever. There would be so many things that would never happen again: no more thai food in the middle of the night, no more guy hugs, no more jokes about her lack of social skills. She loved him but she'd too afraid to tell him.
She knew he'd loved her back and that he was just waiting for her to be ready, but what if she waited too long? Would she still get the chance to tell him she loved him? She was so lost in her reverie that she didn't notice Angela standing beside her. Brennan's eyes locked with her best friends eyes and Angela knew instantly what Brennan was thinking.
"Booth would never leave you, ever. He'll come back, he's tough and he loves you." The words that came straight from Angela's heart, made the tears stream down her face again.
"What if he doesn't come back, what about Parker? What if I never get the chance to tell him that I love him?" She responded. She knew that Booth would try his damndest to get back to her and to his son. That was the kind of man he was, but the uncertainty was killing her. She hadn't felt this way since she was sixteen and was told that she would be moving foster homes . . . again. Booth had once promised he would never leave her, and she believed in that.
''Sweetie, he loves you, he'll be back soon, I just know it." Angela answered her with conviction. Truth was that she was scared too, but Brennan was strong of her in the desert, it was time to return the favor.
"What if Booth and I have used all of our chances? There were so many missed opportunities. We seemed to have wasted it all away. There may never be another chance again." Brennan told her.
"Remember when Kirk was missing in the dessert and was found dead? You promised me that I would get a second chance...I got mine, and now I'm promising you that you will get another chance with Booth, I promise with all my heart…" Angela helped Brennan off the ground looking at Parker. "He is so much his father." Angela commented as Brennan closed Parker's bedroom door.
Angela held her arms out to her friend sensing that she needed a hug. The women hugged and Hodgins brought them the phone, "There's a phone call from the FBI...'' Hodgins handed Brennan the phone, she hesitated but took it from him.
"We'll be in the next room Sweetie…" Angela said as she Hodgins and Zack left the room, giving Brennan some privacy.
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They sat on the couch in her study room. An uncomfortable silence settled in the group as they waited for news on their friend whom they hadn't seen in such a long time. They only sound that could be heard was the sound of Zack sipping his coffee.
"Do you think he's still alive?" Angela asked breaking the silence in the room.
"I don't know, I really don't know...but I'm sure that he tried everything to get back to Parker and Brennan." Hodgins told her, trying to give her hope.
"Technically speaking there's a bigger chance that Booth is alive than that he's dead'' Zach was Zach, he dealt with probability and statistics. It made him feel better that the numbers were in Booth's favor. He really missed their "male bonding time."
The daggers that Angela and Hodgins were sending his way did not go unnoticed. So he decided that it would be in his best interest to keep his mouth shut until more news was known. He turned his eyes back to the television reading the news that was coming across the news ticker.
The uncomfortable silence settled back down over them, and that is how they chose to remain for the time being.
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Brennan sat down in her chair. After some deep thoughts and hesitations she finally brought the phone to her ear.
"Hello?" Her soft voice spoke into the phone. Her voice was already raw and scratchy from crying for the past couple of hours.
"Dr. Brennan, This is FBI director of the secret services-" The voice over the phone was making introductions that Brennan had no interest in hearing.
"Do you have information about Booth?" She cut in quickly not wanting to prolong this scene any longer.
"Yes I have…" The director replied.
"Is he alright?" She needed to know if he was dead or alive, the anticipation was just too much.
The phone call ended a while later and tears streamed down her face. "Oh...God'' she sobbed.
The sound of their friend's distress broke the uncomfortable silence in the study room. Zack, Angela and Hodgins swiftly left their places and entered the room where their friend was. Walking in they found Brennan sobbing her heart out and they quickly went over to her. They feared the worst when they saw the look on her face and the tears in her eyes.
"Sweetie are you alright?" Angela asked tenatively.
"It's Booth, he's...he's..."
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AN: I hate character deads hint hint hint they make me extremely emotional, And remember...there's still going to be fluff!!! ;)
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