Konichiwa! How are you guys? I hope things are well. Before I start rambling on, a little FYI: italics like this are a character's thoughts. Now, the prologue was no picnic. I had a really hard time writing the last chapter. Things are going to get easier though. I had a hard time at first because I didn't have my laptop. Chapter one I got writers block. This chapter, well you'll have to see…

Disclaimer: I know Akito is really female, but in this story Akito is a male! I do own all the characters but Kisa, Hatori and Momiji along with the rest of the original cast. So the others are mine. Though, certain characters are based on people I know. Also, the poems/songs that Kisa writes are mine. I own them and wrote them! Please do not use them without my consent. O and Tennessee Williams is the one who wrote The Glass Menagerie. So, I don't own it. LOL.


As the day went on, Kisa suffered through her classes. Homeroom was okay, but a bit awkward considering the teacher was her relative by marriage. Mayu-san married Hatori while Kisa was still in middle school. That was when Mayu-san still had Yuki, Kyo, and Tohru as students. But still, at least her teacher liked her.

She gave out some papers. Some were forms for parents to sign and fill out and others were flyers advertising this and that. What really hurt were the forms asking for parent volunteers. Ouch! That was a major blow. You see, Kisa's mother was always busy or she didn't care. Her mother was usually at work. If not there, then out with some of her office friends. She got tired of Kisa pretty easily. Her mother got fed up with Kisa around the end of her first year of middle school. So even asking would be pointless.

Her father was an entirely different story. He wasn't even around after Kisa was born. Actually, he got her mother pregnant and then ran off. He came back once around the time Kisa was born. He took one look at baby Kisa and rejected her on the spot. He was disgusted with her. It didn't matter that she was biologically his. He just didn't care and didn't want to be a part of her life. Though, he occasionally still came by to visit. But, that was never a good omen of things to come.

The bell ending homeroom rang as Kisa completed that thought. This is where her day truly began.


Science was a breeze because it was Biology. She didn't hang around Hatori all those years for nothing. Actually, she did it because he was nice and he understood her. When her mother got fed up with Kisa, she would go hide at Hatori's place. Sometimes she would actually get to learn something about medicine. It was never dull and occasionally she'd get to hang out with Momiji. That is, considering he lived with Hatori from a certain age. You can't spend time with Hatori without learning. Believe it or not, she never got tired of being over there.
Math was a synch like always. Things like that made sense to her. Numbers were numbers and they didn't change. There were rules and exceptions to the rules, but you knew those. You could always count on numbers, unlike people. If only the rest of the world were that simple.

Although, most would think her odd because she was taking Pre-Calculus. Most people wouldn't call that simple by far. But, Kisa was weird. Not the weird, I'm going to murder you weird, but she was the annoying smart kid who always gets the answers right kind of weird. If that even makes any sense, but that's what makes sense in Kisa's world.


History was fun. Kisa was good at memorization, so remembering when and where something happened was easy. Plus she loved history. She viewed it as one adventure after another. Learning about others pasts and things that have already come and gone. The present didn't hold any bright prospects. The future brought hope to most, but fear to her. But that's why Kisa loved history. It was the past. It had already happened.
Now acting, that was no picnic. She loved the theater and she was actually quite good at acting. But, her teacher made her dread the class. Her teacher wasn't a very old woman or a very young one. She was in her late 30s. She was of average height for a woman her age with brown hair and brown eyes. There was nothing out of the ordinary about her. She wasn't that different from Kisa's other teachers. Except for the fact that she seemed to hate Kisa with a vengeance for no reason.

Today they were doing their scenes. Kisa was so nervous. The problem wasn't the script. She knew her lines backwards and forwards. She knew her blocking and her business. Kisa had even managed to do it with feeling. The problem was going up in front of everyone and performing. She got really bad stage fright. Especially considering that she never, and I do mean NEVER got positive feedback from her classmates or her teacher.

The groups were called one by one to come up and perform. Finally, it was Kisa's turn. She walked up to the front of the class slowly and nervously. Several of the other girls actually attempted to trip her. That was really encouraging.

She got to the front and took her place. Laura was on the couch here so Kisa sat down and waited for Amanda to begin. Luckily for her there was one thing that made this scene less awkward. Her partner was her best friend in the entire world that wasn't a member of her family…or Tohru. But she didn't count because she was like family and she would be sooner or later once a certain someone got the nerve to propose. :Cough, Cough: Yuki :Cough, Cough:

Back to the point…Akari finally got up front and in position. She gave Kisa a small friendly smile. Then she began to speak. Akari was a much better stage actress than Kisa. Although, a little known fact was that almost all of Kisa's life was an act. That is, if you know what I mean. Anyhow, after much distraction, Akari and Kisa finally performed their scene.

The fear wasn't over when they were done with it. They still had to wait for any comments their teacher may give. Kisa was bracing herself for whatever laid ahead.

"Well girls," said Griffin-san. "I was impressed. By Akari-san that is. Your acting skills are extraordinary. You projected quite well and your diction was superb. I could understand every word you said. Bravo! I am so pleased and impressed with your skills, that I suggest you audition for the upcoming play and musical. I believe that you would get a large part and I would know. After all I am the director."

This was a shock to them all. Griffin-san hated most first year students! For her to say something like that about a first year acting student, let alone a first year high school student! Akari Soho was now golden for the rest of high school. If only everyone else was so lucky. Now came the hard part for Kisa that the rest of the class enjoyed. Griffin-san's opinion on Kisa's acting skills.

"As for you Kisa-san, I was very disappointed." Kisa frowned. She practiced so hard to make sure she'd do a better job! She didn't sleep some nights just so she could rehearse. One time she even skipped her meeting with Akito to work on her blocking and business. Believe me; she got punished even worse for skipping. The punishment isn't worth skipping over a lousy scene, but she did it anyways. That is dedication.

It's not as if Kisa wants to act professionally, but it would be nice is she wasn't criticized just once. Is that really too much to ask? Even though it will never happen it never hurts to hope. O no, she's going to start talking again. I'm screwed. Then she spoke again. "Young lady I am ashamed to be your teacher. You are the worst actor I have ever seen. People like you are a disgrace to the profession and to this class. If people in this class do poorly than I look poor. That's the only reason you're still passing Sohma. Now get out of my sight."

Then the bell rang and Griffin-san left along with and strength Kisa had.


After that, Kisa broke. Lucky for her, Akari knew Kisa well enough to take Kisa to the nurse's office before anyone could tell. She left a note on the desk that was pre-written. Their psychology teacher was used to that. He made a deal with Akari and Kisa the first time this happened. Akari could take Kisa to the nurse's office and they could take as much time as they wanted. Except for the times when Kisa was really sick. Then, he didn't ask for anything. She could skip the condition on those days. The only condition was that Kisa had to keep a daily journal of the events that happened, what she was thinking, feeling, and it had to be honest. She also had to write about her past. What happened and how she felt about it. It was torture and sometimes she thought: Why do I do this? Why must I write this? What possessed me to agree to this? O yea! I didn't want to break down in front of the class. Akari has asked her if it was worth it and she decided it was.

"Why do we go to the nurse office again," asked Akari.
"Because," Kisa said shakily while continuing to cry. "She is nice and she doesn't ask questions anymore. She will just let me sit there and calm myself down. Besides, I have been there several times already because I was sick."

"How do you know you can trust her Kis?"

"Because I talked to Yuki and he said I could."
"Do you believe everything everyone tells you," Akari snapped.

"N-n-n-no-o"

"I'm sorry. I know better. I'm just worried about you. Ok?"

"O-k-ok," Kisa managed.

They finally reached the nurse's office after what seemed like a long walk. She let Kisa lie down and cry it all out. Akari was sitting in a chair a bit of a distance away. There was nothing she could do. She felt helpless. I wish I could help her. I feel useless. O. I'm starting to realize how Kisa feels now. I get why she said she feels sad when I'm sad. What she said when she feels like she can't do anything right. That's how I am starting to feel now. This is starting to click now. I get it now. I think…

That Kisa is such a sweet girl. She doesn't deserve to be this sad. I wish she would tell me why this is happening. I got Yuki to tell me, eventually. Maybe she is going through something similar? I am just glad that I can do something to help. Even I if it is just letting her lie there and cry.

"Sweetheart, do you want me to call Sohma-sensei," the nurse inquired.

"She doesn't, but thanks."

Akari knew Kisa couldn't answer for herself. But she knew that Kisa didn't want Hatori-san to come. That's the problem. If you call, he'll come. Kisa didn't want to bother him.

After a while of crying, Kisa was finally ready to go back to class. So, Akari walked back to class with Kisa. They arrived right before the bell rang ending Psychology. He just smiled, handed them the assignments they missed. He said one thing before he left: "I am looking forward to reading your journal tomorrow Kisa-san." He then nodded and walked away. Akari rolled her eyes and Kisa groaned.


Luckily, Literature wasn't that bad. After all, it meant that she could write. It was a fairly decent way to finish out her day. That day they were writing poetry. They were allowed to write one however long or however short they wanted. It could also be in any style. So, Kisa just wrote what came to her. This is what came:

Wishing for an End

By: Kisa Sohma

Things are getting quite frightening

Almost to the point of terror

Wait,

We passed that a long time ago

"Life is like a dream."

I've heard that before

It could be true

If that dream is a nightmare

"Very, very scary things

black with red angel wings"

That is what most consider something to be feared

But there are some things that scare me more

Day in and day out

My eyes fill with tears

Blood drips down my arms as well

That's normal

Hour by hour

Day by day

I just want it to go away

Why must it go on?

It's hard to endure this daily torture

Not all if which even shows

Leaving you with a feeling

Wishing for an End

Right as Kisa was finishing her last word, the bell rang releasing Kisa from the torment that was high school. Finally. I was starting to think this day would never end.


The Rambling: Welcome back! School started on Monday, August 15. Sorry, school keeps me busy. But, I am hard at work on the next chapter! Senior year, here it is:

Period Semester Class

1st 1 Economics

1st 2 World Lit.

2nd 1 Contemporary Lit

2nd 2 (Unsure)

3rd Yr Physics

4th Yr Advanced Algebra/Trigonometry

5th Yr Advanced Women's Chorus

6th Yr Peer Facilitation (working with special needs kids) in Chorus

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