THANKS! I really am happy you all are still putting up with me. And for still reading my fic. To the few of you who thought that was the ending last chappie, you were wrong. For those of you who originally thought this was a one-shot, you were wrong. News Flash! When this is over I shall tell you. I hope you all don't mind that this hasn't really even occurred over 24 hours yet! Please tell me if you want more time to pass sooner. Ok? Any comments or questions please put in your reviews. I will personally respond to you and explain! Well, I shall get on with this.
Kisa and Akari walked out of school together laughing and smiling. They were talking and giggling. Actually, they were being average girls. That's something that Kisa really enjoyed. Unfortunately, they soon had to part ways.
"I'll see you later K-chan," Akari shouted, running and waving on her way home.
"Bye for now A-chan," Kisa said smiling and shaking her head.
Normally Hiro would still be with Kisa at this point, but not today. Today he was in detention. So, he wasn't there at all. Though, things were different this year. Hiro as in her class, but they didn't talk much. They often walked home together and had conversations. But those conversations generally only involved small talk. Things have changed. She wasn't sure how or why. Something was out of the ordinary. No. This WAS the ordinary now.
What did I do to upset Hiro? Why does he hate me now? Things are so different. I'm sad that things are...awkward now. We walk home in silenceWe don't spend time with each other anymore. Does he love me anymore? Sigh Who could love me anyway? No one. I am just miserable. I don't make others happy. Why? Why do things like this happen? What did I do now? Is it my presence? My very existence? It must be. I don't even know anymore.
Kisa began crying silently, knowing that no one was there to see her tears or hear her cries. That's the way she wanted it. At least if I cry now I can't bother anyone with it. And I can dry my tears before I reach the compound. This way no one will know. Although, I shouldn't be crying at all. It's a sign of weakness. Akito taught me that.
Kisa was reminded of a time when she was little. It was a first for her. Actually, it was several firsts for her and several lasts. The first time she heard her father say THAT. It was the first time she had felt truly abandoned by absolutely everyone. The first time she ran into Akito on her own. The last time she was brave. It was the first time Akito saw her cry and the first time Akito slipped. That told her something she didn't know before. Although, she didn't understand until a few hours later how he felt. The last time she spoke for a whole month. All of this was a bit much for her, especially considering she ended up THERE again!
Flashback
Kisa's father was supposed to come visit according to his latest letter. He had even given a phone number this time. Kisa has actually gotten her hopes up that time. That is, until the date came and went with no visit. Then Kisa got a crazy idea in her head. Why not call him! And she did.
"Hello," mumbled a heavy masculine voice.
"Daddy," Kisa squeaked hopefully.
"Who is this," the man questioned confused and angry about why he was disturbed.
"Kisa Sohma, your daughter," she stated. What is wrong with daddy? Why doesn't he know who I am?
Daughter, daughter. Since when do I have a daughter? He continued thinking for a minute. O ya. I screwed that Sohma woman about 15 years ago. Now I remember. Why did this little brat call me anyway? What does she want? "What do you want and how did you get my number," he snapped annoyed with her.
"I just wanted to talk to you and ask you something," Kisa said shyly. "And you gave me your number daddy."
"Talk about what? What could you possible need to talk to me about? You shouldn't be asking me anything," he yelled. "I gave you my number on accident! I meant to give you a fake number!"
"W-wh-wha-what," Kisa questioned stuttering. "I just wanted to know who you didn't come like you said you would. I'm sorry if I did anything wrong.
: Sigh: She's not getting the picture AND she interrupted me from pleasant thoughts. I have to get rid of her. "Look kid. You want to know why I didn't show up," he asked Kisa angrily.
"Y-y-yes s-s-s-sir," Kisa said nervously.
"It's because I don't give a damn about you. You are stupid and worthless. You are weak and feeble. I don't love you. Get that through your thick skull. I only write you letters so that you and your damn mother will leave me alone. So bug off!" After that he hung up.
Kisa stood there in shock. This was the first time anyone had ever said that to her. She already knew that she was supposed to be a big girl and that big girls don't cry. And by the age of 5 she didn't think that she could cry anymore, but she did. She began to cry.
Kisa ran outside crying and feeling unloved. Hiro was busy. Haru was training. Kagura was chasing Kyo. Kyo was hiding from Kagura Yuki was sick. Hatori was taking care of Yuki. Shigure was out with Ayame. The others were busy as well and her mother wasn't even home.
A few moments after a sad Kisa had started running, she abruptly fell over. She had run into something. Kisa looked up to find out that that something was Akito.
"S-s-su-sumimasen Akito-sama. I-I-I-It-t-t was a-an a-a-accident-t," Kisa managed to get out quickly. Akito is only a little older than Yuki and they even looked alike. But Akito is much more intimidating.
Akito looked angry and he was. "You're sorry? You damn well better be sorry," Akito screamed. Wait. Something seems different. Akito studied her for a moment. She's crying. That little brat is crying. Why the hell should she be allowed to cry? I'm not. If I am considered weak when I cry, so is she!
There was silence and Akito had that look in his eyes. That was never a good sign. None of this was good.
"What the hell are you crying about? Hmmm? Life is upsetting! Deal with it! You should not be crying. Crying is for the weak! The Junnushi are not weak! I AM NOT ALLOWED TO BE WEAK AND THEREFOR NEITHER ARE YOU! DO YOU UNDERSTAND," Akito yelled. He began to beat her. He didn't stop until he nearly fainted from exerting so much energy. But by then Kisa was already unconscious.
Kisa woke up a few hours later in the hospital. She was alone in her room and that gave her time to remember why she was there. O. I remember now. I ran into Akito-sama. He was mad! I cried. He said that bad. He said I bad. He said he not allowed to. So he not want me to. He does what he does so we feel what he feels. He only does it cause he's in pain. End of Flashback
Kisa heard the sound of something snapping. She jumped back and squeaked. She looked down. A twig. She had stepped on one. That's it. Just a twig. Nothing else. She sighed in relief and walked faster.
She soon reached the Sohma estate and quickly walked inside.
As always, she walked to her house and unlocked the door. Now Kisa was a creature of habit. First she took her shoes off in the front hall. Then she walked into her room and put her backpack down. Afterwards, she went into the kitchen to get a glass of water.
Normally, things looked the same, but today she found a note. A note from Hatori. It read something along these lines:
Kisa,
What did I tell you? You have been avoiding me. I told you to come see me any time after you have been to see Akito. You have been to see him several times recently. I'm trying to be patient. Please come to see me and I will check you over. I will see you soon. And yes, you do have to come.
Hatori
Kisa's first thoughts after reading that were simple. Shit. I'm screwed. It's a miracle, but somehow I've managed to hide the whole cutting thing from Hatori so far. If I go see him now, then he'll find out. What do I do?
Kisa hurriedly ran to her room and changed clothes. She threw on a pair of her favorite pants from Hot Topic and a long-sleeve black t-shirt. As if she'd wear any other color in a mood like this. If you actually paid attention to clothes, you would notice something about Kisa.
Her clothing choices reflected her mood. She started doing this when she was 12. Originally it was a partial cry for help. Now, it's just a way to help her sort out who she is. She got the idea from her onee-chan's best friends Hanajima-san and Uotani-san. Hana-san always wore black when not at school. This reflected how she felt. Uo-san wore clothes that were easy to fight in when she was mad. Other times, she wore what was comfy if she was more in a lazy mood. So, Kisa combined the two ideas.
Thus resulted the meaning in her clothes. Kisa couldn't put make-up on because that would make it even more obvious that she cut last night. She decided to surrender and go to Hatori's; all the while praying that he wouldn't look at her arms.
Please forgive me! I know it's been like forever since I last updated! But I've been having computer problems. Damn this evil thing! I don't have much to say. O well, ya! I apologize if any of this sucks or there are stupid mistakes. I just finished this up and I have a fever so blame that if anything is bad. Lol. Anyhow, I shall start thanking now.
Chapter 1:
Mystic Sorceror - First off, let me say I'm so honored that you found time to review my fic! But golden? Really? I've gotten the whole kill those girls thing from several people. Finish away!
Chapter 2:
Merilyn – It's fine. Really. I'm glad I inspired you!
Mystic Sorceror – The best thing? Are you just saying that? Major praise? Are you high? J/k.
Are you serious? Same here. My teacher just hated me and told me I couldn't act. Ha! Life is an act. But my specialty is Improv. I love British accents, particularly on hot guys. Lol. Sorry, Sye is British. Ask sometime and I'll tell. True, some of the best are Brits.
I know. I tried to go into enough detail with classes. I originally wrote it about me, but then figured it would apply to Kisa too! Ya, Yukiru forever, though I do like Kyo too.
Thank you so much! I am not. Really. Love to you too girl!
Chapter 3 Part I:
Merilyn – Love it to the grave, huh? Really! Interesting. You just might need to do that.
Akari is a good friend. Asche came up with that name.
Chapter 3 Part II:
Desi – Hehe. I know. That's the point. It was unexpected. I tried to keep him in character. Yea, he gets jealous. Yep! He would say that. Good. Here it is!
Fran – Thanks. I worked so hard for length. I feel the need to apologize! I really do.
Yea everyone seemed to like that part.
I'm glad you were laughing.
I hope so too. It may not be bearable, but it keeps me busy.
Asche – Really? Understandable. It is funny. Weird is good!
High on chocolate is funny. Never happened to me though. And trust me, I do eat a lot of chocolate.
I wanted the ending of that chappie to be sweet.
CaliCallMePrincess – Sorry to make you wait so long. Yes. I wanted to get on to more of the point of the story. I'm glad. Thanks.
Em – Long is good. They did find out. Maybe. They might be able to help. The fight. Boy s can be your best friend and boyfriend/lover at the same time. I understand. Awesome? Thanks. Haha! I did that on purpose. I like having talking and thoughts. It is more in depth into characters minds. Thanks you. I try.
