A/N-I know it has been beyond forever but hopefully there are still some fans of this story out there. It was out of my control, my computer was screwed up then I didn't have one, and I haven't written in a while so hopefully this is okay.

Rory woke up to the sun in her eyes. She rolled over, closing them and thinking of what a beautiful mess she was in. She had a boyfriend, Dean. And then there was Jess. All she knew is she had to choose, and she wasn't leaving this bed until she did. She opened her eyes, Lorelai staring at her.

"Oh my God mom, what are you doing?" she cried.

"Oh, well, I think I actually went over the limit last night with the junk. Couldn't sleep. So I've been watching you!"

"Is the cable out?" Rory asked.

"No,"

"Did the paper not come today?"

"No,"

"Then what are you thinking? This is my private space."

"Gee, someones touchy this morning. What's on your mind kid? And what did Jess want last night, you just avoided the subject and stuffed marshmallows in your mouth. Don't think I didn't know what your doing, you learned that from me."

Rory sighed. "I think I have 2 boyfriends."

"Lorelai Gilmore. What are you talking about?"

"Jess, we kissed again."

"Was it a quarter kiss, or what?"

"No it was a full one. It was the 3rd or 4th time."

"Rory what are you thinking? This isn't you."

"I can't help it mom. I never asked for this. It just happened."

"Baby cakes, I have to go. But I have some grown up advice for you."

"Oh great."

"Pick whoever is the best kisser."

"Mom!"

"And by the way we have dinner with your grandparents tonight have to go!" Lorelai said, running out of the room.

Rory got up, stumbling into the kitchen. She picked up a pen and wrote, 'pros and cons'

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"I don't know what to do Lane, I'm so, I don't even know," Rory said, picking at her eggs.

"Wow your not even eating, this must be bad," Lane said, "Well did your pro con list help?"

"Not really. I mean it came out in Dean's favor, but…."

"Rory."

"Yeah?"

"Dean's coming."

Rory looked up, seeing Dean come in the door of Luke's. Her eyes went as wide as a dear's caught in headlights.

Rory squirmed as Dean approached their table, a look on his face she didn't recognize.

"Hey," Rory said, turning around to face him.

"Hey," he said, not making eye contact.

"Dean is something wron…" she started before Dean interrupted her.

"Look I know about you and Jess. I saw you last night."

Rory looked to Lane for help. Now she looked like the dear caught in headlights.

"Dean I…"

"No Rory. It's not about you anymore. I can't do this anymore. We're done," he said, leaving as fast as possible.

"Oh Rory, I'm so sorry. I'll order you extra eggs with bacon," Lane said, putting her arm on Rory's shoulder.

Tears welled up in Rory's eyes. What had she become?

Rory shook her head, hanging it low when she felt a hand on her other shoulder. She jumped up and looked back at Jess.

"Rory, did something happen? You want a ride to school?"

Rory stood, looking him straight in the eye. "Stay away from me," she said, running out of the diner.

He looked at Lane for an exclamation. "Dean knows," Lane said, following Rory out of the diner. Jess put his hands on the chair in front of him and sighed.

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"Okay class, time for our next project. You will be working in partners of two again, and you will be doing a debate on a topic of your choice. So pick your partners, find where you stand, and write 5,000 words to present to the class a week from today."

Rory had been sniffling all morning, not looking Jess's direction no matter what. She looked up as everyone paired off again. If only it was that simple. Just finding one person.

She looked around, Tristan and Jess the only people left. She walked over to Tristan. "Partners?"

He smiled. "Anything for you baby."

"Let's just do this," Rory said, taking a seat.

"Hey, no objection here."

after class

Rory went to her locker, it wouldn't open. She slammed her fist against it.

She sat down, dropping her stuff, the crowd of people swelling around her. She officially didn't know who she was anymore, she was losing everything, and it was all his fault.

Jess slid down next to her. "Hey."

"Hey? That's all you have to say for yourself?" Rory yelled as the bell rang and the halls cleared.

"I never pictured you the type of girl to skip class."

"I don't know what type of girl I am. I've completely lost myself, everything I thought I knew. When I met you, it all flew out the window Jess. This is all your fault!"

"How is this my fault? I'm sorry about Dean…"

"I don't smoke, I don't skip class, I don't cheat on my boyfriend. None of this would have happened if you hadn't come here."

Jess shook his head. "I knew I never should have come here."

Rory sniffled. "Your right, you shouldn't have. Your ruining my life."

"Alright," Jess said, standing. "Then I'll allow myself to bow out," he said, walking down the hall.

Rory watched him, sniffling. He turned, and she saw the bitterness in his eyes.

"Consider this Rory. The heart blinds one's eyes, and leads it down a path of uncertainty. But when the destination is reached, nothing is more bittersweet than knowing you've lost yourself in this maze called love, and that nothing can explain it. Thought that might sound familiar."

Rory couldn't look him in the eye. She turned her head, closing her eyes.

"I'll see you around," she heard him say, as she listened to his footsteps down the hall.

Through everything, all the confusion, there was no doubt in her mind she wanted to get up and run after him. But stayed, opening her eyes, wishing this was all a dream and she was back in her bed. She picked up her books, looked down the empty hallway, and headed for class. She needed to find the pieces of herself before she could find love.

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"Sorry you got to end a crappy week like this kid," Lorelai said as they pulled up into the Gilmore's driveway.

"I think I've had more drama in this week than my entire childhood."

"Guess it's fate catching up with you."

"Guess so."

"But hey, at least it's all out in the open. Right?"

"Sure."

"And at least we are going to go shoe shopping tomorrow and spend way more than we can afford."

Rory grinned.

"Would that help, at all? Even just a little?"

"Maybe."

"Let's get this over with kid. Who knows what mom's putting in front of us tonight. Last week's dinner made me gag."

They got out, ringing the doorbell.

"Hello," the maid said, opening the door. "how may I help you?"

"Well, if you could lend me some cash, I'm out of beer," Lorelai said.

Rory sighed. "We're here for Richard and Emily."

"They're at the hospital."

"Another function thing? Huh, too bad. Let's go hun," Lorelai said.

"No, Richard had a heart attack," the maid said as they turned away.

"Oh my God," Lorelai said, her and Rory running to the car and speeding away.

"You shouldn't be driving drunk!" the maid said, running after them.