Ok sorry sorry sorry sorry it's really late I know. And my only excuse is i was lazy. But I started on the 4th chapter and I'm planning on having it uploaded tomorrow. On with the story!

-I Dont't Own-


Chapter 3: Yes or no?

I was excited about squad 7's first ninja mission but it was really nothing at all. We took the hardest mission and that was only cleaning the river of all the trash. I thought that we would we worked harder so that I could try to work off a few more pounds. Turns out I didn't get to work off anything.

After the mission Kakashi-sensei treated us out to dinner. Naruto insisted on Ichiraku ramen, but we picked barbeque instead. When the food came out I just looked down at my plate. I was trying to decide if it was ok to eat or not. I already starved myself a lot and I went down 5 pounds, but was it ok if I ate after losing so much? It was like throwing away what all my hard work. Naruto wouldn't stop pestering me about why I wouldn't eat, Sasuke was silent like always, and I could see Kakashi-sensei glaring at me every now and then. The food looked so good, not to mention the smell. The smell was so nice and appetizing. I finally took my chopstick and broke them apart. I saw everyone looking up at me and watching me as I picked up a piece of meat and put it in my mouth. I tasted all the oils and spices in it. It tasted so good. How could something like this make you fat? Kakashi nodded in acceptance and went on eating. I only ate a few more pieces of meat and a small bowl of rice.

That night, when I got home I showered and got back on the scale. I was somewhat nervous about what the scale would say, but I needed to see how much the food put on me. 93 lbs. Three pounds from dinner. I thought that it would only put on one pound but instead I put on even more. All that hard work, all that starvation, it was all just to loose two pounds. What was I supposed to do? I would need to go another week or so starving just to get down to 80 pounds. And it would take even longer for me to become strong. There was only one thing I could do so I could lose what I just put on. Throwing it all back up.

I leaned over the bowl of the toilet and hit my stomach sharply. A few seconds later I felt the food go back up my throat and out my mouth. I hated the taste of all the food mixed in with stomach acids. They burned my throat to the point where it was almost unbearable. But that was my punishment for eating so much.

Shortly after my little scene I went out into the kitchen and drank a cup of water. I felt so dizzy and lost. When I would walk it would take a few seconds for everything to process. It was like I was going so fast everything else was going in slow motion. How come I felt so lightheaded? I was only starving myself for a little longer then a day…

"Sakura-chan? Is that you? How come you're walking so slowly?" My mom came over to me and felt my forehead.

"Do you feel sick Sakura? You aren't warm, but you're walking so slowly and you look paler then usual." My mother's eyes were filled with worry.

"I'm fine mom. I guess I used too much chakra. I'll be fine tomorrow morning." I hugged my mom just to make sure she didn't worry herself too much.

That night was a total mess. Right when I hit the pillow I went to sleep and began dreaming. I don't know if this was a good thing because I would get a little more sleep in or a bad thing because I had a nightmare all night. When I looked down at the scale it read 100 pounds, and when I looked into the mirror I was nothing like what I wanted to be. My arms had extra skin hanging off of them, I no longer had what people call "pencil legs," and my stomach was hanging out. The whole night I thought of that dream. Only the weight on the scale kept increasing every time I woke up and went back to sleep. When it became morning, I was at a full 500 pounds.

The minute I got out of bed to get ready for the day I ran into the bathroom and stepped on the scale. 89 lbs… The number kept ringing in my ears and seemed to flow through my mind. 89 pounds. I'm not really 500 pounds… I'm just 89. It took a few minutes before it dawned me that I only lost 4 lbs in my sleep.

'Only 4 pounds. After I threw up and went through the burning of my throat. I only lost 4 pounds…I can do better'

When I came out to the kitchen I found a small plate with a doughnut on it. Next to that there was a note from my mom.

"Sakura-Chan, I'm going on a mission for a few days. Take care of yourself and I'll be back later. Love, Mom."

I took the doughnut and added it to my bento box for the day. I couldn't think of what I should pack for lunch. I wouldn't be eating it anyway… so why should it be anything fancy? Or, I could pack my favorite meal so that no one would think that I wasn't going to eat. Kakashi-sensei was probably going to check the bento box afterwards so I thought that I could just leave the food hidden somewhere and take the box back with me. If only, I could be more like Ino and never have to starve myself just to get skinnier. Everything came so easy to everyone else! How come it was so hard for me? I didn't expect losing weight to be easy, but I didn't think that it was this hard either! All you had to do was say no to food right? No big deal. But it was more then that. There was always food lying around everywhere. One look and you would already want to eat it. One taste and you would keep eating and never stop. So why start in the beginning?

In the end I decided to pack something simple. By the time I was finished I looked at the clock. Turns out my clock was an hour behind and now I was an hour late. I came walking out to the bridge thinking that things would be okay because Kakashi is usually a few hours late. When I saw that the Kakashi was standing there with Sasuke and Naruto I began running over to them.

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"Oy, Sasuke!" Naruto pointed his finger at Sasuke's nose. Sasuke looked at Naruto's finger and sighed. "Today I'm going to beat you during training!" Naruto continued rambling on how he was going to defeat Sasuke and become hokage until

Kakashi appeared in a puff of smoke.

"Yo!"

"Kakashi-sensei you're—on time?"

Sasuke smirked at Naruto's behavior.

"Where's Sakura?" Just as Kakashi asked Naruto and Sasuke he heard someone shouting in the distance.

"Hey guys! Sorry I'm so late." I smiled a little and my smile ended when I looked up at Kakashi and he didn't smile or say anything back. There was a moment of silence for a while until Sensei broke it.

"Alright then. Today we will begin training for the chunin exams." At this Naruto, Sasuke, and Sakura's ears perked.

"Before we begin anything, I need you to sign these papers." Kakashi held up three sheets of paper that had pictures of us on them. "These are consent forms saying that you will take the exam. If you don't think that you should take the exam then give me back the form, unsigned, and you won't take the exam. I'll give you overnight to think about if you're going to take the exam or not. Today's training will go as planned, except the other rookie teams will be joining us."

Kakashi-sensei leaded us into the middle of the forest where we met up with the other teams. Ino immediately jumped on Sasuke and wrapped her arms around his neck.

"Sasuke-kun! I haven't seen you in so long!" Ino's voice was all high and she squealed as she talked to him. Sasuke just made a face and shook her off. Ino pouted a little and turned over to me.

"Hey forehead!" I looked over at Ino and merely said her name. "I lost 10 pounds this past week isn't that great?!"

I looked down at Ino's body. No fat hanging off her. None whatsoever. Her dress showed her small form perfectly. Even though she was skinny she had a curve. Everything about her was flawless, and she barely broke a sweat so she could be perfect. It's always harder for me to do everything. If I was pretty, slim, outgoing, or strong, Ino would always be more. She was everything I wanted to be. She was always better then me. But how was she superior to me when I worked harder then her? It just wasn't fair.

"Sure Ino, you look great." I put on a fake smile so that my words would be more believing. I spoke to her flatly, but she seemed satisfied.

I continued thinking about her. I envied her. Everything about her. But I couldn't sit around and stare. I had to work to defeat her. I was determined. No way was I going to lose to her. I would train harder during our sessions, and I would stay after and train more. I wouldn't let myself eat anything. Nothing at all. No matter what anyone says, I won't let myself eat. Even if Kakashi tries to force me. I won't let it happen. I will get skinny, I will be stronger, and I will win Sasuke's heart. He belongs to me and no one else. No matter what anyone says, I'm going to make it happen. This is my promise to myself.


To me, some parts seem kind of random...But I didn't want to make the story go too fast. Thanks for reading!

Sakira