Okay, well I had a little trouble with the splitting the text from the author's note, but you don't mind, right? I'm sorry for the late (and short) chapter! Man, I'm tired of saying that every time I update... I guess I've just been distracted. (Which is a pretty bad excuse) But hey, it's summer. I plan on writing a lot, and finishing this story soon. More about it after the chapter.
I don't own Naruto. Does anyone get tired of saying this?
Chapter 13: Enough is enough
I managed to survive through the day with Sasuke breathing down my neck every single second. And that night, even though I knew Sasuke would never be all the way unconscious, I needed to get rid of the diet pills. For one thing, if he found them, I would be dead. Another thing was, if they were there, the temptation would be, too. I didn't need anything else in my way if I wanted to break free.
I walked quietly out to the kitchen, and got a glass of water, that way, Sasuke wouldn't be too suspicious. Then, I went to the cabinet, reaching to the far back corner. I fidgeted with the cap, trying to take it off as fast and as quiet as possible. I could just throw the thing in the trash, but then if Sasuke saw, and picked it up, it would still be full. I turned on the sink, hoping I was still safe, and just when I was going to pour the pills down, Sasuke stood at the door.
"What are you doing?" he raised his eyebrow.
I stood there, silent. The glass of water was still on the counter; it was still full. The bottle of pills was open, with a few spilled onto the counter by my water. Lastly, the evidence that tied the scene together was my head, leaning over the sink with a worried face on. It was like a crime scene that showed I was guilty.
"Sakura," he walked toward me, reaching for the pills.
I stepped away, the bottle behind my back. "Before you say anything, listen to me," I commanded.
"Give me the pills," he insisted.
"Not until you hear what I have to say," I pressed.
There was nothing left for me to do. He wouldn't believe me even if I told him the truth. He won, and both of us knew it. His eyes were burning at mine until I finally gave up.
"I wasn't trying to do anything, Sasuke," I said, handing the bottle over and hoping he would believe me.
Once he read the label, I saw his entire body tighten. His hand turned the bottle over, dumping the pills down the sink as well as the ones on the counter. The empty container was thrown into the trash, and both of us stood in silence once again.
"Sakura…" he began.
"Don't even go there, Sasuke," I snapped. "I know you're going to say something about how I'm so unhealthy already, and I don't need to be making it any worse, but just listen to me for once." I looked at him before I continued. "I wasn't going to take the pills. I was going to do what you just did: throw them away. And I waited until nighttime so that I could at least try to hide it from you."
Sasuke was staring at me, and I tried to stare back at him with the same intensity. I could feel the tears burning on the sides of my eyes, but I wouldn't let them fall. Not anymore. And when I finally gave up my hopes of Sasuke apologizing, I did the only thing I could. I fell down.
/Shannon I need help with the punctuation here. And I'll fix it if it's a run-on, lol/
I felt a mix of emotions. Anger because Sasuke immediately began thinking the worse, even when I tried to warn him, Sadness because he didn't believe me when I did, guilt because I lied so many times, I was scared I lost all his trust, and in the midst of it all, happiness because the last obstacle in my way was knocked over.
My eyes stayed glued to the ground, even when Sasuke kneeled in front of me. I wondered if he could tell if I was trying to hold back my tears. I felt his finger come up under my chin, pushing my face up to look at his, and then he hugged me.
I kept my face impassive, and my tears subsided. When Sasuke pulled back, his eyes still held my gaze, and for once, I wasn't the first one to speak.
"I'm sorry," he sighed.
I nodded as I stood up and drank my water before making my way back to my bedroom. I whispered a goodnight to him before he closed the door to his room, and I saw his head bow forward a little.
As I laid in bed waiting for unconsciousness to fall over me, I thought about the next day. All the food I ingested would stay down for once, and there would be no way to burn it off. I felt slightly disappointed in myself, considering all I went through already to lose the weight, but something made it seem okay.
It was my mother. When was the last time I thought about her? With the way everyone else was feeling about my eating disorder, she probably felt the same. She wanted me to be happy even though she was gone, and I wanted to be happy too. I thought that losing weight would grant me that wish; it did the opposite.
I imagined her face while she looked at me disapprovingly. It matched Kakashi's and Sasuke's, but had more effect on me.
"For her," I thought, closing my eyes.
Things were now the same as before, and yet it was the opposite. I wasn't losing weight to prove to my mother that I was 'perfect.' She already thought I was before all this. I was now gaining weight (or at least I was going to) so I could show her my happiness.
Sure, I was also doing this for Sasuke (even in the beginning, too). Yeah, it was also for my own health. But it was mostly for my mother.
I'm planning on a timeskip, just because I think that I'm going too slow. (Any objections? It's only going to be two weeks, and I'll do a small summary/synopsis thing to tell what happened) I hope you guys liked the chapter, though I think it ended a lot like the one before it, and it's extremely short. Is anyone getting the feeling that I'm repeating everything, but in different ways? (That's what I'm thinking right now)
Oh, and be sure to thank Isabela Storm for reminding me that it has been 3 months since I last update, if it wasn't for her, this chapter wouldn't be here right now.
Thanks for reading.
