Well, I'm SO sorry for this to take FOREVER! Like please forgive me. I've been having a lot of problems lately.
Well, Angelina is 20 and was abducted when she was about 14.
So two chapters in one day. My way of saying sorry.
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Tortugan Beginnings
The Transformation from a Rag Doll
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The meal before them was enchanting. Angelina's wide blue eyes rounded like saucers in shock at the large trays of found before them. Never, never in her life had she had more then a plateful of food which usually consisted of a piece of bread, an apple and a few scraps of meat or fish. But now, now the meal before her looked fitting for a king. She allowed the gasp to choke in her throat and her stomach rumbled ominously. Biting her lip, she sat there and gazed at the food while Audrina, Jack and Lucas helped themselves generously. The bread, the wine, the broiled fish, potatoes and salad was all too much for her. She didn't feel deserving of the generous meal before her. Confusion etched onto their faces, unsure why Angelina seemed to be shaking in fear of the food.
"Are you all right, miss?" Came Lucas' soft voice, caring and concern evident on his bronze face.
Meekly, she nodded slowly. She didn't want to be rude and allowed her gaze to shift from their concern faces and on to the table, to the food. "They wouldn't allow me to eat." She started timidly, her voice almost inaudible and almost broke. "They would sit me there and make them watch them eat." Lifting her blue eyes suddenly, she bit her lip. "You have to forgive me."
"Tis alright, luv." Jack cooed from his seat. "Eat, eat all you want, darlin'."
Angelina absentmindedly nodded and looked around breathlessly on where to start. "I'll help you, Miss Lewis." Lucas said softly to her, in her ear as he was sitting right next to her.
Audrina and Jack's eyebrows shot up at his display at subtle affection. She looked at him and bit her lip, slightly ashamed that she needed helping. Lucas rose from his seat and lapped potatoes onto a plate while pouring gravy on top. He placed a small amount of fish and salad and turned back to her. "Would you like a piece of bread and some wine, Miss Lewis?" She nodded and he further added to her plate and glass.
Satisfied, he placed the generous plate in front of her. She unconsciously licked her lips. "Thank you." She said softly to Lucas and he smiled at her.
Jack smirked and turned to the pair. "Alright, you kids control yerselves now." He grinned at them but scowled as Audrina playfully hit his shoulder.
"Shut up, you bloody git!" Audrina frowned at him playfully. Jack wagged a finger in front of her eyes teasingly.
"Cap'n Bloody Git ter you, missy." The table roared with laughter and Angelina felt herself giggling through her smile. Laughter, it seemed so foreign to her.
As the laughter died down, Angelina turned to the amused Jack, the grin still teasing at his lips. "Thank you for everything, Captain Sparrow." She said a little louder then her normal tone, the gratitude evident on her face. Never in her six years of bondage had she talked so much in a single evening.
"Call me Jack, darlin'."
"And me Lucas, miss."
"Audrina to you, love."
Angelina turned to the kind trio and let the smile tug at her lips. Although faint, she never remembered smiling this much either. "Angelina. Call me that."
"Angel." The words left Lucas' mouth before he could stop them. The blush crept onto his cheeks and Jack roared with laughter. A laughter that soon ceased as Audrina gave him a sideways glance.
"Let's call yer Angel." Jack said out of the blue, grinning at Lucas and rising and dropping his eyebrows suggestively. "Apparently Lucas thinks yer look like a bloody angel. So that's yer name, darlin'."
Lucas was now a shade of bright red. He narrowed his turquoise eyes onto Jack. Angelina looked confused, the breath caught in her throat. "Ah….er….um….oh will you please shut it?" He spluttered, growing increasingly hot and averting his gaze from the amused expression on Jack's face and onto his half eaten food.
Jack chuckled and began to eat some more of the food and eyed Angelina, her face flushing a deep red and she moved the food around with her fork. For some reason, he knew that the Pearl was about to get very, very interesting.
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Six Days Later
Angelina's hand quivered at the knob of the cabin. She could do this. She knew she could. Why did she hesitate? Why did her whole body shake with fear when she remembered what was outside that door? What was outside that door? Pirates. It was simple. Men were outside that door and those men happened to be pirates. They saved her but it didn't change who they were and who she was. It didn't change how pirates had once treated her and how traumatized she really was.
I can't do this, Her mind told her.
Yes you bloody can, The other side argued.
No! Men are not to be trusted. Ever again.
Don't be stupid, they aren't like Master.
He's not Master anymore!
He will be if you let him control your life.
No.
Yes!
Please. I can't.
Yes you can, Angelina. Audrina and Ana are fine. Ask for help. Face your fears. Walk out of this cabin.
She argued with herself in her head. For a moment, she thought she was mental. The two sides of her brain fought like the angel and demon that was perched on her shoulders. She closed her eyes and swallowed the lump in her throat. Turning the knob, she breathed heavily and opened the door. Squinting, the sunlight attacked her blue eyes and she whimpered. The salty air rushed towards her and she inhaled in greedily. Becoming used to the sunlight, she stepped forward and sighed contentedly as the breeze caressed her pale cheek. Still, she was far from anyone's view and the thought of facing the pirates, even though they were friendly, scared her.
"Angel?" Came a soft voice to her right, turning she faced him and shied away, back into the shadowy confines of the cabin. "I'm not going to hurt you. Please believe me." Lucas urged.
"I can't. I want to. I can't." She squeaked and averted her eyes from his gaze and onto her bare feet.
Lucas frowned and stood where he was. "Please try to trust me or even Jack. Neither of us would hurt you. Ana and Audrina, they wouldn't hurt you either, Angel." He continued, sighing, he tilted his head. "Not everyone is a cold hearted bastard like Addison, Angel."
As she nodded, he sighed and left her in the threshold of the Captain's Quarters. She felt so alone again. Shivering, she stepped out further, the hot September sun on her face. Beads of sweat dripped down her face and she bit her lip. Dare to go further? She wasn't entirely sure if she had the will power to do so. Desperately, she hoped for someone to appear. Anyone; Audrina, Ana, Jack, Lucas. Anyone. Thankfully, her prayers were answered. Light, nimble footsteps made her heart beat hard against her chest. Looking curiously into the distance, she could find no source.
Turning her head to the side, she noticed the nearing figure of Audrina. She let the faintest smile tug at her lips, she was glad to see her. As she neared, she realized she was dressed as a man as usual. However, her black hair cascaded down her back and her bright turquoise eyes were large and feminine. Audrina Hart wasn't trying to be Jimmy Hart but a pirate. There was something feminine about her at the moment, something remarkably motherly. It confused Angel for a moment; she never met anyone motherly before. Even though Audrina really was old enough to be only an older sister to Angel, she regarded her as a mother.
"Audrina." She said quietly, as if to reassure herself of her presence.
Audrina grinned and embraced the girl, feeling her stiffen in her arms. Looking onto her face, she realized that the bruises were fading slightly. The purpling no longer as obvious as it was before but her prior abuse was still evident in her blue eyes and cold stare. It was even evident in the way her skin clung to her bones as if she was skeletal, her unhealthy slenderness causing hallows beneath her eyes. The sun or lack there of made her skin an unnatural shade of porcelain. Audrina hated Captain Marcus Addison and she hadn't even met him.
"You're out." She said, as if she was trying to convince herself. "Lucas and Jack will be very glad! Would you like a tour of the Pearl?"
Angel stiffened, a tour of the Pearl? But that would mean that she would have to face them. Nervous thoughts fluttered in her head, they probably already hated her. They probably scorned her behind her back, saying she was weak for buckling underneath Master. They probably despised her thinking she thought she was too good to lay her eyes on them. They'll hurt her the first chance they got. These thoughts ran through her mind and she shook her head feverishly.
"They hate me." She said quietly. "They crew. They'll despise me. They'll think I'm weak. Maybe they think I won't come out on deck because I'm too good to associate with pirates. No, I can't do this. I can't. I can't do this." Suddenly her body started shaking and she shut her eyes all the while shouting, "I can't do this. I can't. I can't do this."
The words she spoke made Audrina's blood turn cold. Her eyes widened like saucers and she was frozen for a moment. Finally, for the first time in days since she knew Angel, she saw big, wet tears fall from her closed eyes. Her voice still reverberating through the open deck. She heard heavy footfalls and she whirled around and saw the concerned looks given by Jack and Lucas.
"I can't do this. Don't make me. No, I can't. I can't. I can't. I can't." Over and over, she screamed it. Every moment of her bondage flashing before her eyes. Every time her blood was shed, every time Master made her scream for mercy without giving her any. It was traumatizing her. She was going mad with the pain of her past. "Please Master, no. Please. Please. Mother, please. Take me back. I can't. I can't. Don't make me, I can't." She further cried, her small, petite body shaking with sobs.
The whole ship watched her in silence, not knowing what to do. It was Audrina who reached out and touched her shoulder, guilty that she had triggered the episode. Even Jack, for once, was speechless. But as she touched her shoulder, her body became limp and everything went black for her. Jack jumped forward as her body began to collapse to the ground, the tears still fresh on her cheeks. He caught her limp body and cradled her in her arms. Motioning with his head, he ordered the doors to be open. Audrina ran forward and quickly let him in.
Jack placed Angel's limp body on the bed and gazed at her sadly. Turning, he was surprised to see tears on Audrina's face. She bit her lip and collapsed into a chair, burying her head into her dirty hands. Jack bit his lip and watched the tears drip down her face and off her chin. Tears. How he hated the combination of tears and women. It was a deadly combination and made even the strongest men go weak in the knees. Maybe it was something about a woman's vulnerability that made Jack despise tears. Or perhaps it was the way women could bend a man to her will with a few tear drops. Either way, Jack felt awkward when a woman cried and now there was two, in the same room and he didn't know what to do.
For a moment, he contemplated on just leaving them both to cry themselves dry. Angel's tears were drying on her cheeks but Audrina was still whimpering softly. He sighed sharply and walked towards her. With his forefinger, he lifted her head and smiled. "It's not yer fault, luv."
"Oh yes it is. Yes it is and you know it!" She replied sharply and quickly wiped the tears from her face. No, she mustn't cry now. "Did you hear her? Did you hear those words she was saying?"
Jack wiped the remaining tears with his thumb and it struck him how intimate the position was. He was holding her chin up and wiping the tears from her face. He realized how attractive she looked when she was vulnerable. Pushing the thoughts out of his head, he shook his head slightly. "It's not yer fault, darlin'. Yer only tryin' ter help her. I heard every word, Rina. It's not yer fault what happened but theirs. Yer keep telling yerself its yer fault and I'll keelhaul ya, savvy?"
Audrina nodded. "It's funny," she smirked and averted her gaze from his liquid black eyes. "it's funny how I've become a mother at only twenty seven. I was a mother to Lucas and now to Angel. I can't help but blame myself Jack."
"Yer finally called me Jack, luv." Jack grinned and turned her head to look at him. "All right, if yer feel that way. We're makin' port at Nassau in a few days time. I'll take yer around. Me and you, savvy? No 'children'."
Audrina nodded and for some reason couldn't control the thumping of her heart against her chest.
"I'll tell yer a story, luv. About the time I sacked all of Nassau without a single shot…"
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"Cap'n!" The boy yelled from the crow's nest. "Cap'n, the Black Pearl!"
Captain Marcus Addison's eyes shot up and he clenched his jaw. He quickly took out his spyglass and when he looked at the ship's deck, he felt his breath catch in his throat. Angelina, their dolly was there. Shaking and crying, the tears falling down her cheeks like waterfalls. Averting the spyglass a bit, he caught a glimpse of another woman. Black bandana and even blacker hair that cascaded in loose curls. She looked familiar, too familiar. Moving the spyglass back to his Dolly, he grinned when he saw her collapse into the Captain Jack Sparrow. Marcus Addison grinned; he would get his Dolly back. Yes, he would. And he would kill Jack Sparrow for once and for all.
