Blue Moon
Chapter Twelve
HSHS
As Harry followed the Marauders back to their compartment, so many different things were running through his head. His father, who he had knocked out the day before had saved him. Why? It didn't make any sense. Unless his mother had talked to him? And his father had called him his cousin, why? He would have to ask his questions later, when he was sure this wasn't some way for them to get back at him. He could have laughed at that, like his mother would do something as childish as that.
James stopped at a compartment and opened it up letting his girlfriend, Remus, Peter and him in before he also joined them and closed the door. When everyone was seated, Harry was sitting by Peter and the other three on the other side. His father sat across from him and Harry was glad Peter had saved a seat between them, he wasn't sure if he would try and strangle the small pudgy kid or not.
"Harry, this is Remus Lupin, and Peter Pettigrew. Guys this is Harry... Porter?" James introduced everyone, pausing on Harry's last name. Not sure is he had heard right.
"Yeah, Porter," Harry answered uncomfortably. "Hi guys, nice to meet you," Harry added quickly. Peter nodded back when Remus went as far to shake his hand.
"You too, Harry," Remus smiled.
"Why did you help me? Pretend to be my cousin?" Harry blurted out before they could say anything. James looked a tad sullen whether from being cut off from his dramatic speech or from the topic, Harry didn't know. The messy haired boy with hazel eyes sent a glance at the red haired girl beside him. She smiled.
"Well I told James everything that happened after you knocked him out," James scoffed and got ready to protest but Lily didn't let him start, "Sorry knocked him to the ground where the pavement knocked him out. Better James? Good," she went right along in her story not waiting for James to answer.
"I told him he had no right to yell at you or Sirius for kissing, your sexual orientation has nothing to do with the fight they had before they ever met you. None of us have a problem with you being gay," here only Peter shifted in his seat while James looked a tad disgruntled.
"James then realized, after more talking and discussing," the girl said a bit sarcastically, "That he had no reason at all to yell at you two, so he asks to be forgiven, of course the stubborn ass that he is, he doesn't allow himself apologize so protecting you from Malfoy was his way of saying he was sorry," Lily smiled and leaned back in her seat, very happy with what she had said.
"Quit being so bossy, Lily! I- BLOODY HELL!" James yelled after Lily punched him in the arm. "Merlin woman! That hurt!" Lily glared at him and huffed slightly before shifting away from James in her seat.
"You deserved it, you pig," James made a most sorry sort of sound and she sighed.
"I hate dating you, I have seemed to have lost all my will to fight against you," Lily sighed and then grinned mischievously, "Not that I can't still annoy you. Before he starts to protest like a child I will tell you this, he was afraid Sirius had replaced him. That's the real reason he was upset. Pouting like a petulant child, he had lost his best friend and hadn't really figured out he wanted him back until Sirius didn't want to come back anymore," James' eyes widened and he looked horrified.
"I didn't say anything like that!" His voice was a lot more high pitched than before and it made Harry grin.
"You did so! Don't lie! You're only making yourself look stupid!" Lily said with an air of arrogance. Remus looked to Harry and smiled.
"They are both quite childish, that's why they're perfect for each other," James seemed extremely pleased and he smiled at Remus. While Lily looked like she wanted to hit Remus instead of James.
"I don't fancy sitting by either of you anymore," even as she said it she slumped in her seat and pouted like a child. After everyone's laughs had subsided the room was once again quiet so Harry tried to start the conversation over.
"You didn't answer my other question though, why did you pretend to be my cousin?" Harry asked. James' head shot up and he ran a hand through his raven locks.
"Thought you had forgotten about that, you're too smart for your own good. Well, as much of an idiot as this is going to make me sound, it just kind of slipped out. It felt right to say, you looked really uncomfortable and that's how I figured I could help you... maybe? And plus the reaction Malfoy had was priceless, he looked about ready to explode. The overgrown fairy," that had everyone in the room start in a new round of laughs. When they calmed down some more, Remus took a look between both Harry and James.
"But really, you two do look a lot alike, you can't deny it," there was only good humor and curiosity in his voice, no suspicion like their was in Malfoy's. James squinted at Harry and nodded his head,
"We are both devilishly handsome," a grin covered Harry's face but fell away when he heard James' next words, "But you're waaaaaay shorter than me though," Harry felt a strong urge to smack James for that. He didn't have to worry though his mother had it covered.
"You're so rude, James. Sorry Harry he can't help himself, he tends to have what we normal people call diarrhea of the mouth, where the things he says just can't be stopped. They spill right out no matter what he does," Remus supplied. Lily made a disgusted face but laughed along with everyone else, while James seemed to be sulking. Harry could have sworn he heard a '...do not...' Wanting to make his father less uncomfortable and get the last of his questions answered Harry changed the subject.
"I don't know whether you hate me or not but that's not really what I wanted to talk to you about. Do you forgive Sirius? Truthfully? All of you?" The serious tone in Harry's voice had everyone really paying attention and when he asked in question the room, if it wasn't before, completely sobered.
"I do," Remus didn't even wait for a pause at the end of Harry's sentence. He knew his answer and had for a long time. He was ready to have his best friend back, he had been so angry with himself for not doing something about it a long time ago. Lily nodded her head as well agreeing.
"Me too," hers was chorused by Peter, but Harry was more interested in James' answer, because he would be the most key element to saving Sirius.
"I think I forgave him the moment after it happened, I was just too stubborn to admit it," James said not looking at anyone but out the window. Harry smiled.
"Good, because he needs you guys now, where I can't help him," Harry hid the pain on his face by joining his father in looking out the window. The trees were gorgeous in the summer, he hadn't ever really cared until now when he was trying to avoid the stares of the rest of the people in the compartment. He felt almost stupid so he held his breath and turned back to them all.
"Are you all willing to talk to him?" Everyone in the room nodded showing Harry they were. He opened his mouth to explain everything that had happened after the fight in the cafe. Leaving out the shower details and some of the things Sirius had said to him about not loving him anymore. They didn't need to know that, just the things that were affecting their friendship.
"What do we have to do?" James asked in a solemn voice.
"Be his friends."
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Harry walked the four of them back to the compartment he had been in with Sirius, he nodded to the door signaling for them to go in. But before they could open it up Lily stopped them.
"You aren't going in there?" Harry shook his head.
"He doesn't need me like he needs you guys," the hurt in his voice clear to everyone there.
"You're his friend now too, Harry, you should come with us," Harry turned a sad smile to Remus.
"No, not right now. I can talk to him later, you guys need to work this out," Harry said as sincerely as he could. He wanted nothing more than to join them and find out what was really wrong with Sirius. But he knew Sirius wanted nothing to do with him now and he was going to give the boy his peace.
"Go, please? For Sirius?" Harry urged, with reluctant nods they all agreed and made their was closer to the door. James stayed by Harry's side.
"You're a good friend, Harry, thanks for doing this . For Sirius and for us. We all needed it," Harry felt at least some happiness from hearing words like that from the man he had always longed to meet.
"Yeah, you were the good kick in the arse we all needed," Remus said with a wide spread grin.
"Thanks, now go. Before I really kick you all," they smiled at him and then turned away, ready to make amends with one of their oldest friends.
Harry watched them go with sad and slightly bleary eyes. They were the family he had never had, and now they were leaving him once again. But different this time he had made them go. He turned away from them and when he heard the door close he ran as fast as he could. He ran until he reached the very back of the train where the bathrooms were. He pulled open one of the magically enlarged doors and sat himself on a closed toilet. He felt the fat hot tears leaking out of his tightly closed eyes, and he didn't want to stop them.
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A/N: So the next chapter they talk to Sirius and they get to Hogwarts. Harry gets to talk to Dumbledore and he gets sorted. next chapter is long and hopefully a tad less bit angsty. I don't' know. Maybe not. I just seem to be in a really bad mood these past days, I hope it helped not hurt the story. Tell me what you think. I might update again. but so you know, I also hated this chapter. Sorry for the sucky writing they will get better soon! I promise!
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-Bloody
