Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Jude woke up the next morning feeling contempt. It was the first in so long that she actually felt love. This is what she wanted and needed. Tommy and Chris was the life she was destined for. Jude loved having Tommy's arm protectively wrapped around her waist. She turned to look at Tommy who was staring at her with love in his eyes. Love she missed and always wanted.

Jude: Hi.
Tommy: Hi. How did you sleep?
Jude: Peaceful. I felt like I was finally home.
Tommy: I am glad. So I hope you won't mind if I kiss you right now.
Jude: I think I would love that right now.

Tommy leaned into Jude and gave her a deep passionate kiss. It made her heart start to beat faster and it made her want more. His hands started to wander up her body. She loved the feeling of his hands on her body. She felt a little nervous because to her it would feel like it was her first time with him. Of course it was not be but to her it would be.

Jude: Tommy has much as I want to do this I am not sure if I want to do this now.
Tommy: I understand we will get to know each other again.
Jude: Thank you and I really am sorry.
Tommy: There is nothing to be sorry about. You have been away from me and don't remember me so I understand your hesitation.
Jude: Why are you like the perfect man? I can see why I fell in love with you.
Tommy: Thank you I feel honored.

He kissed Jude lightly on the lips. Then got up to get ready for the day but was held back. Jude pushed him back towards her. She kissed him again with everything she had in her. This felt right and this is what she wanted. She wanted him but was not sure if she could fully give herself to him. She felt like she owed everything to Mike because that is all she remembers for the past three years is Mike but she didn't want to remember him she wanted to remember Tommy.

Jude enjoyed the feeling but knew she had to stop before things went too far. She got up and went to get dressed for the day. Today she was going to try and get reacquainted with her son. While in the shower another memory popped up in her mind one she has yet to tell Tommy about.

Flashback

Jude: Mike I am pregnant so you can't do this to me.
Mike: I can do whatever I want to you.
Jude: Mike please think about the baby.
Mike: I will do what I want.
Jude: Please Mike. I know you don't want to do this.
Mike: Tell me you love me. Tell me.
Jude: I love you Mike.
Mike: You lying bitch.
Jude: Mike no.

When she woke up she was lying in a hospital bed. Mike ended up pushing her down a flight of stairs. He got angry at her because she went to her doctors appointment instead of out on the street selling my daily portion. But I never thought he would do this to me. I was caring his child. A doctor entered the room.

Doctor: Mrs. Harrison how do you feel?
Jude: I am ok. The baby?
Doctor: I am sorry. Your baby did not make it.
Jude started to cry. Mike was just determined to ruin everything nice in her life.

End of Flashback

Jude didn't notice the water turned cold because the memory took over here. She was crying uncontrollably now. She gathered her self together and got dress for the day. This was still hard for her to put behind herself. She walked out of her room and into the living room.

Tommy: Jude are you ok.
Jude: Yeah I am ok.
Tommy: Are you sure? You look like you have been crying.
Jude: Just thinking about some stuff.
Tommy: Ok so are you sure you are ready for this. We can wait a little longer.
Jude: Actually please don't hate me but I think I want to wait.
Tommy: Then we will wait.

Tommy got up and made a phone call. He called Sadie to see if she would watch Chris a little longer for them. It was a little too soon.
Tommy: Ok well Sadie will keep Chris a little while longer for us.
Jude: Ok thank you. I am sorry.
Tommy: No you need more time and I respect that.
Jude: I am trying really I am.
Tommy: I know. How about I get us something to eat?
Jude: Ok sounds good.

Tommy left Jude to get something to eat. She was lost in thoughts. Being here was bringing out the memories in full force.

Flashback

Tommy and she were sitting in a bed just relaxing after having sex. She was snuggled up to his chest while he held her in his arms.
Jude: Tommy why have you stuck with me for so long.
Tommy: Because I have faith in you and I know you will make a better life for yourself and our unborn child.
Jude: But Tommy what if it is not yours.
Tommy: It is mine Jude because I will raise it. I don't care if it's not mine by blood. I will be here for you both.
Jude: You are like the perfect man.
Tommy: You are perfect for me.
Jude: Please I am a mess.
Tommy: Your flaws are what make you a real person. You show people that even though you are famous you are still a real person who has problems. And I admire you because you are trying to fight this and get better. You are a strong talented woman and I love you for being you.
Jude: You know all this praising is getting you brownie points.
Tommy: Really.
Jude: Yeah really.
She turned her head and kissed him until he could not breathe again.

Tommy: I need to give compliments more often.
Jude: Yeah if you do that we might never leave this bed.
Tommy: I am not complaining.
Jude laughed at Tommy as he moved kisses down her body. Jude was happy because she had everything she wanted.

End of Flashback

Tommy: Jude are you here?
Jude: Huh oh yeah sorry.
Tommy: What were you thinking about?
Jude: Oh just another memory about us.
Tommy: A good one.
Jude: A great one.
She told him about it.

Tommy: That was when we first found out you was pregnant. Before we went and told everyone.
Jude: I felt happy.
Tommy: We were. You was getting your life together and we were on our way to becoming a family.
Jude: Ugh why did Mike have to ruin everything? I was finally happy and he had to take it all away. Jude had tears coming down her eyes. Tommy pulled her into a hug.
Tommy: Jude what Mike did was awful. I hated that he took you away from Chris and I. But now I am glad because you found your way back to us.
Jude: I am glad I found my way back to you too.

They ate their Chinese food that Tommy picked up. She thought about how nice it was to actually eat dinner with someone who loved you. Dinners with Mike were just awful.

Flashback

Jude: Mike why can't we just have a normal dinner together.
Mike: Normal you want normal well how is this for normal.
He threw his plate across the room. Jude ducked just in time as the plate was aiming for her head.
Mike: Now clean that shit up and fix me another plate now.
Jude did as she was told. She never could understand why he hated her so much. She felt like she was living in hell.

End of Flashback

Tommy: Deep thought going on over there.
Jude: Sorry I just was thinking how nice this is. To have dinner without a plate being thrown at my head or him yelling at me.
Tommy: What? Was Mike abusive?
Jude: Mentally and physically. I thought he loved me but how wrong I was. But I had no family so I was stuck with him.
Tommy: Jude I am so sorry.
Jude: Don't be. You didn't know. I know if you did you would have swooped in and saved me.
Tommy: I would have because no one messes with my girl.

Flashback

She was just getting up to go on stage to talk.

Jude: Thank you D for your wonderful speech. Like Darius said I was a girl going down a path that would have eventually killed me. I was never proud of what I was doing but I did it to hide my pain and loneliness that I felt. Drugs and alcohol was my escape. I never knew what love was. My family disowned me when I was younger and my sister tried to be there but did it in a way that made me feel alone. My record label tried to push me to be someone I just wasn't. Like I said I never knew what love was until I meet Tommy. He opened my eyes to all the possibilities that are out there. Of course at first I did not want to work with a goody goody so I tried everything in my power to seduce him so he would get fired. But he shot me down. The more he shot me down the more I started to fall for him until I finally fell in love with him. We have had good times, our bad times, and our horrible times. But with all that I love him more than ever and nothing will change that. I love you Tommy with my heart and soul. You are my savoir and nothing will ever change that.

Jude walked over to Tommy and gave him a sweet kiss. He wiped the stray tears that had managed to fall from her face. Now it was his turn to get up there and say what was in his heart. Darius introduced him.

Tommy: Wow I don't know how to follow that speech but I am going to say what is in my heart. I saw Jude on the television saying how she had fallen and would anyone be able to save her. When I got the call from Darius I was a little skeptical but someone had to save her. She had so much potential to be great and I was willing to bring the greatness out. I knew I had a tough battle ahead of me and it was tough. I had to show so much will power against her. She is an amazing woman who just needed a push in the right direction and I am glad I was that person to do it. When I look back at how much my life has changed because of her I would not change it for the world. I have an amazing talented beautiful wife and an amazing son. It is every guys dream. I love you baby so much and I can't wait to grow old with you.

Jude had tears in her eyes. She knew this was it. The person she has been waiting for, for her whole entire life. He showed her what love is and he helped her battle her demons. HE was the man that was sent to save her from herself. And she would not change any of it. Going through what she went through has made her who she is now.

End of Flashback

Tommy: Jude you spaced out again.
Jude: Oh yeah I was remembering our speeches we gave at our wedding.
Tommy: You remember that.
Jude: Yes. I loved you speech you gave. It was sweet.
Tommy: I spoke from the heart.
Jude: And I loved it.
Tommy: Do you remember anything else?
Jude: No.
Tommy: Well you are making progress.
Jude: I am.
Tommy: How about we go watch a movie?
Jude: I would like that.