Title: Harm Leaves JAG
Author: rooster dawn
Classification: Harm/Mac
Spoiler: fifth season
Summary: How does Harm deals with the impending marriage of Mac and Brumby.
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part 3
7 July 00
JAG Headquarters
Harm was due back yesterday on Wednesday. Mac hadn't seen him yesterday or today. She checked around the bullpen to see if anyone had seen or heard from him. He hadn't been seen by anyone including Bud.
She was getting very worry and upset. She went in to see the Admiral.
"Sir, Where's Commander Rabb? Do you know where he is?" asked Mac.
"He resigned his commission effective 5 July, Colonel. He's gone." replied a solemn Admiral.
"What do you mean he's gone Sir? He didn't say anything to me about resigning. He didn't say goodbye or where he was going. Why did he resign Sir?" asked a very confused Mac.
"I think you know the answer to the why he resigned, Colonel. As to where he went, I don't know. Why he didn't say goodbye to you, I can only assume he didn't want to disrupt you wedding plans." replied the Admiral.
"But Sir, I need to see him. I need to talk to him. It's very important." wailed Mac. Why is he doing this to me Mac asked to herself?
"I don't know what to say or what I can do for you Colonel. He didn't say where he was going." replied the Admiral.
"Permission to take leave to find him Sir." pleaded Mac hopefully.
"Permission granted and good luck Sarah." replied the Admiral. Maybe there was hope for them after all.
Mac went back to her office to make a few telephone calls. She was very upset that Harm had resigned his commission without telling her anything about it. Harm was her best friend.
He had helped her deal with so many things that she was ashamed of from her past. He told her he would always be there for her. Where was he now?
She decided to call his mother Trish first. Mac asked her if he had seen him or talked to him in the last two weeks.
"Hello Mrs. Burnett, this is Sarah MacKenzie, Harm's partner." started Mac.
"Hello Sarah, please call me Trish. How are you doing Sarah?" replied Trish wondering why Mac was calling.
"I'm okay Trish, have you seen or talked to Harm recently? He's been on leave the last couple of weeks. I really need to talk to him." continued Mac. 'Please Harm, I hope you talked to your mother about this.'
"No Sarah, I haven't seen or heard from him since he told me you were getting married to someone else. He was totally devastated when you told him. I always thought that the two of you would eventually get married and have kids.
We talked half the night. He didn't know what he was going to do. You were his life Sarah. He was always talking about you and how you made his life better. I think he thought you were always going to be there with him.
He probably went to talk with his grandmother. He usually goes to see her when he's unhappy." replied Trish. She was hurting because her boy was in so much pain.
"It was never my intention to hurt him Trish. I love him so much. Sometimes it seems like I've loved him my whole life, but I can't wait for him forever. I want to be loved and have children." wailed Mac as tears came to her eyes.
"I know that Sarah. We all need to be loved. I've been telling him that since the day he met you. You are all he ever talks about. He should have express his love for you when he knew for sure.
I told him if he waited too long to express his love he could lose you. But sometimes people have to learn the hard way." replied a solemn Trish.
"That's why I wanted to talk to him. I want to give him one more chance to tell me he loves me and wants me." cried Mac.
"Thank you Sarah. I know if you push him hard enough he will respond. I don't think he really wants to live his life without you in it." replied a hopeful Trish.
"Thank you Trish. I'll call his grandmother and see if she's heard anything from him." replied Mac hopefully.
"Good luck Sarah. I hope you find him before it's too late." prayed Trish.
An hour later she was on the phone with Harm's grandmother Sarah. She was nervous. This could be her last chance to find Harm. To get him to tell her how much he loved her and wanted her.
"Hello Mrs. Rabb, This is Sarah MacKenzie, Harm's partner." started Mac.
"Good afternoon Sarah. It's so nice to hear from you. Please call me Sarah." replied Grandma Sarah.
"Have you seen or heard from Harm? I need to talk to him about something very important." wailed Mac in desperation.
"Does this have something to do with you marrying Brumby?" asked Grandma Sarah.
"Did he tell you about that? It sort of does, but not really. I love Harm, but he has been very distant to me the last few months. I was hoping he would talk to me about how he really feels about me.
But he hasn't been very forth coming. Though from what I've heard from others, he doesn't seem to have trouble speaking his mind to them about how he feels about me. I seem to be the only one he has difficulty telling his true feelings to." continued Mac.
"He's not alone dear. That's true for most people. It's usually the hardest thing for most people to do, to tell the person they love that they love them." replied Grandma Sarah.
"I didn't think he really loved me. That was why I decided to marry Mic. Then a mutual friend of ours told me about this code of honor that Harm lives by. I wasn't even aware of this. I need to talk to him about it." pleaded Mac.
"Well he was here for a few days last week, but I haven't seen him since then. I don't know when he will be coming back again." replied Grandma Sarah.
"Do you mind if I come up and visit with you and check around the local area?" begged Mac hopefully. This was the first lead she had in finding Harm.
"I would be very happy to have you come up and visit. He has told me so much about you. I feel as if I already know you. I know he loves you very much." replied Grandma Sarah.
"Why does everyone keep telling me that. All I know is Harm has never told me anything about how much he loves me. I tried to initiate something with him six months ago, but all he said was that he couldn't let go." wailed Mac as tears started to flow down her face.
"When would you like to come up Sarah?" asked Grandma Sarah.
"Would tonight be too soon?" asked Mac hopefully.
"Not at all Sarah, I'll keep a light on. I'll see you when you get here. We can talk some more then." replied Grandma Sarah.
"Thank you Sarah." cried Mac.
After the phone call Mac went out into bullpen to let Bud know that she would be away for a few days. He wasn't to say anything to anyone about it.
Mac went home and packed a bag for her trip. She knew Grandma Sarah was her best bet to finding Harm. She needed to talk to her about him. To see if he really loved her like everyone was telling her.
"Bud, I'm going away for the next few days." stated Mac.
"Are you going to look for the Commander, Ma'am?" asked Bud.
"Yes I am, I'm going to see his grandmother. Whatever he's doing it's going to be in the area where she lives. He's going to want to be near her." replied Mac.
"What do you want me to say if someone asks me where you are?" asked Bud.
"You mean Mic don't you?" responded Mac to a question she didn't want to think about.
"Yes Ma'am." replied Bud.
"Tell him I'm on a case and you can't reach me." responded Mac.
Mac drove up to Harm's grandmother's farm. It was a long six hour trip. She stop along the way for gas and bite to eat. She was quite tired when she finally got there.
Grandma Sarah fixed her a late dinner to eat. She had heard from Harm about his marine's appetite. They sat down on the swing on the porch and enjoyed the rest of the evening talking.
