Author's Note: below...
Disclaimer:To my own disbelief and pure greediness, I sadly don't own Twilight/New Moon characters, Miss Stephenie Meyer does.
I awoke to my alarm clock, half expecting it to say 6:45am, but instead it rang 8:30am.
I quickly turned over, about to furiously awake Jake when I discovered him to not be there. Terrible thoughts rushed to my head, worried that old threats might have crossed me again, but then I realized it was a Tuesday, a school day. I peeked inside Madeline's room and Mason's discovering their backpacks gone, and beds unmade.
I walked down the stairs, and into the kitchen, where a note was posted on the refrigerator.
Bella, I called work and told them I'd be late, so I took the kids and reset your alarm. I do have to work, so routine is back on. Please call me at work. Love, Jake.
I took the note down and put it on the counter; I decided to call him during the afternoon.
I rushed upstairs, showered, and got changed, classic jeans and dark red blouse. I realized my day would be filled with laundry and chores, so I tied my hair up into a ponytail.
I filed into the kids' rooms, picking up their laundry then heading into our room to pick up our laundry. I sorted it and started the wash. I headed downstairs and vacuumed the living room, dusting along the way. Being a modern housewife, this was the job.
I married Jake, when I was 22, and he was 20. Although he didn't look 20, he looked 30, and I still look like that little teenager who just graduated from high school, yearning for college.
I did attend 3 years of college, and got a major in English, also a teaching degree, it helped that after my relationship, I started to study harder, graduated with more credits to skip a year of college and graduate early, I routinely visited home, and Jacob was always there waiting for my like Charlie. Finally after talking myself into it, I finally said yes to him for a simple date. The dating continued, and finally things began to get serious, even just for out little long-distance, high-school/college relationship. For my gift, which I was only 21, the little 19 year old (who still looked 30), asked me to marry him. It was a huge step, but Charlie was thrilled, and so was I, somehow.
With a teaching degree, I still didn't teach, and never have. I married Jake, and he started to work at an insurance company which was coincidentally owned by Sam and the others, so Jake went to a year of college before marrying me, and somehow managed to minor in sales.
We got married in a little ceremony, with Jake's family, his two sisters and father, and Quileute members. I invited some high school friends (including the Cullen family, in which Jake addressed the whole family, even though we knew many wouldn't show), some college friends, and of course my father, Renee and Phil. It was small, but close. We said 'I do' and it was truly the happiest and saddest day of my life.
Jake and I discussed where we should live, on the Quileute tribal land or here in Forks. Jake's work was on the reservation, and so were his other duties (as werewolf). It was a hard decision, but Jake saw how difficult it was for us. While we decided, we rented a house on the reservation, but then a year later, which was not as planned, I found out that I was expecting Madeline. Before Jake and I got married, we had decided to have children, but only when I was ready and we decided to only have two, and we would wait at least 3 years. So with the news of this pregnancy, Jake felt guilty, and he and his reservation friends built a house in Forks, about a mile from Charlie's.
It was my dream house that I'd never dreamed about. Complete with shutters, and he even managed to get a loan (which is now payed off) for a newer used car, a Ford Expedition '03. We quickly moved in, and months later, with just Jake in the delivery room, I delivered Madeline. The day I delivered Madeline, was I believe the only day that I never thought about my decision about choosing Jake over… well, the other man. Everyday, and still to this day I think about him, If only for a portion of a minute, I still think about him, but the day Madeline was born, his face never even occurred to me. I was over all just stunned at the miracle that I was holding, how beautiful something could be that you made, and held for so long. I really truly did believe that Madeline was a miracle, my miracle.
A year later, a surprise was given to me, in the shape of another pregnancy. This one was unexpected, much more than Madeline's. It had been little less than a year since I had just had Madeline, but things went for the wrong turn, apparently one night, and well 9 months later, Mason was born. The name, for me was a tribute almost, for Jacob, it came from a baby book. I never had the intention to name my child after a memory of my first love, or his beloved family, but Jacob came home when I was about 7 months, and suggested Mason for a boy. I accepted the name quickly, probably even too quickly that I believe Jake had become suspicious. So I went to the delivery room, with just Jake again, except this time Charlie and Renee were in the waiting room, entertaining the little Madeline, and that's when Mason arrived. As I was holding him, with his curly black hair against the inside of my arm as I cradled him, I just thought of Rosalie, and of the whole Cullen family. Carlisle and his 'family' had apparently moved down to Oregon, now that all the children were in 'college'. But apparently, without my knowledge, they had moved back, and from what I did hear, most of the children were back, for 'summer break'.
I did, just last year, found out that I was pregnant again, but with one little trip during the first month, it did me in, and I had a miscarriage. It broke my heart, and made me decide to never have another child, but as of now, that isn't exactly going to happen.
Before I knew it, I was done with all the chores, earlier than expected, and I settled with folding the laundry, the clock tolled in the background, signaling 2pm, so I called Jake.
The phone rang for quite sometimes before the receptionist answered.
"Hello, Quileute Insurance, who would you like to speak to?"
I cleared my throat, "Uh, Jacob Black please."
"Yes, one moment." I heard a beep, which was a clear sign of her directing me.
"Hello, this is Jacob Black speaking." I heard him say in his deep, clear voice.
I was in the mood to play a joke on him so I answered smart-alec(y), "Yes, I'd like to ask you a few questions about insurance, and find out the rates on some necessities I have."
He paused for a moment, debating whether or not that it was me… "Yes, well seeing as you do have 2 children and a third on the way, I believe your insurance might go up, seeing as you are accident prone, and your medical and hospital rates and bills are sky high." Damn it. I thought.
"Oh I see." Was all I could reply.
He laughed. "Hey Bells, I'm glad you called."
I smiled into the phone. "Yes, I read your note, and decided I should."
"Yea, well I just wanted you to call to see how you were doing, and to ask you when your next appointment was."
I thought clearly to the back of my mind… "Uh, I believe its 2 weeks from this Thursday."
I heard ruffling of papers; he must have been checking a calendar of some sort.
"Ah man, Bells, I have an appointment with someone to discuss their insurance rates, and I can't cancel."
"It's ok Jake; I was fine with going alone."
"Ah, I'm so sorry Bells, maybe I could reschedule, and I'll call right now…"
"No, Jake, it's fine, it will be boring anyway, just a check-up, questions, and things like that."
"Alright, you sure? If you do need me to come, I'll be there, Sam would have no problem, you know he'd be thrilled that we're having another baby, so he wouldn't mind, and…."
I cut him off, "Jake, its fine really, just work, that's why you're payed."
"Alright Bells, so what have you been doing?"
"Well I did the laundry and cleaned the house, and am about to go pick up the kids…"
"That's great, hey Hun, I have to go, my client just got in, I'll see you at dinner."
It was quick how he said goodbye, so I made my goodbye simple, "Bye."
"I love you, Bella."
I paused, "I love you too."
I hung up the phone and started crying. For a moment there, I couldn't say "I love you too" back to him. It felt like speaking a foreign language, or felt like saying it to a stranger. I cried as I sunk into the kitchen chair, wiping my tears. Finally, minutes later, it started to rain outside; the tears were in sync to the rain. I finally looked up, and saw it was 2:30, time to go to Forks Elementary School.
I grabbed my trench coat, and headed outdoors, to see the rain had stopped, and now it was just overcast. I quickly got into the car and headed to the school.
I parked in the parking lot, which was filled with already waiting parents, all mothers, and some fathers. They were all standing outside, chatting and waiting. I really hated chatting with other mothers, just because they always questioned me about upcoming fundraisers, get-togethers, etc. I attended a few, but then again, I was new to this school, I only had a first grader and kindergartner. The bell rang, and I got out of my car, waiting underneath a tree, and a short distance away from other parents.
Madeline came out, spotted me and ran over, almost tripping, but I caught her.
"Mommy!" she cried and hugged me.
"Hey Madeline, how was school?" I bent down to her level and helped straighten her black coat. Before she could answer though, Mason was rushing towards us, and came straight down to my level and hugged me.
"Hey bud." I squeezed him tight. "I missed you two."
Mason handed me an art project and Madeline started talking about how she finally finished her chapter book, and was the first to do it in class.
"Oh Madeline, that is great." I responded.
I grabbed both of their hands with my two hands and I started directing them towards the car.
Unfortunately, I was stopped by the PTA president and her group of 'gal pals'.
I kept holding on to Madeline's and Mason's hands.
"Oh Bella, I didn't see you here yesterday." She said, in a sweet voice.
I smiled a completely fake smile, "Oh yes, I wasn't quite feeling well, so Jake came and picked them up."
She smiled, "Oh I see, and wow, you look great, as always. "
"Oh well thank you Cheryl, so do you." It was true, as much as I didn't like to admit it. Alice's fashion trips, finally started paying off, as I went shopping I listened to her advice, now. I usually looked more put together than the other mothers, and so did my children. We looked like a business-political family.
"Oh thank you Bella, so I was wondering if you would come to our PTA meeting in a few weeks, it's on Thursday."
I prayed in my head that it was in 2 weeks, so I could use the excuse of an appointment.
"Oh Cheryl, don't tell me it's in 2 weeks."
She smiled, "Actually, yes it is, so would you join us?"
Thank god I thought. "Oh, I wish I could, but I have a doctor's appointment, and usually I'm so tired after them, I'm just worn out all day. I'm sorry, but I don't believe I can make it."I added a frown.
"Oh that's fine, well there's always next months. See you around Bella. You too Madeline, Mason."
They waved goodbye, and then I practically dragged them to the car, because other mothers were walking towards us, wanting to speak about a fundraiser.
I drove the kids home, and helped them with their homework at the kitchen table, and heard their stories about the day. It was then 5pm, so I started dinner.
I heard Jacob's car pull up, and him enter through the front.
"Hey Jake, you're just on time, I just finished dinner." I added a smile and kissed his cheek.
"Oh yea, it does smell good." He unwrapped his beige scarf, and took off his black coat, revealing a dark blue dress shirt and black pants.
We all sat down to dinner, with Jake eating almost the whole meal, and I barely ate any, I did feel a little sick. Jake noticed, so he did the dishes, as I layed on our bed, and the kids finished their homework together in Madeline's room.
He came upstairs later, after he put the kids to bed and he came and layed down with me, holding my hand as we looked up at ceiling.
"Bells?" he asked softly.
"Yea." I whispered, very quietly.
"Did you want to have another baby, or is it just me?"
I was not prepared for this kind of questioning, I almost started to cry.
"Jake I…" I couldn't answer. He rolled over to his side and stared at me, still holding and squeezing my hand.
"It's ok Bells to just say so, I mean, if you don't… well, there's not much we can do, but I just wish I knew that you really did want this, like I do. I didn't want you to be upset with me, because well it is my fault, entirely if you didn't."
I was so lost in my thoughts I just stared at him, deep into his eyes.
"Jake, I…. I did want this baby. It's just, well, after the last baby, I feel like I didn't, I really didn't, but then we I actually discovered that we were going to be parents again, I was thrilled. You have no idea." I smiled at him, as he smiled back.
"I understand Bella, but don't be afraid to just tell me, I won't get mad."
"I know Jake, I know."
We were interrupted by Jake's cell phone going off.
He flipped it open, "Sam, this better be important…" He stopped.
I could hear the mumbling of Sam's voice on the other end, and Jake started nodding his head.
"Alright Sam, I'll be there in a minute." He hung up the phone, and then stared at me.
"There's some type of visitor on the land, and Sam wasn't going to call, but he decided to, just in case anything happens." He kissed my forehead. "I'm so sorry Bells, but I'll be back, I promise."
He got up, and started to undress, quickly, and grabbed sweats.
He came over to my side and kissed me again, with a high intensity.
He closed his eyes and was still kissing me. I broke away, "Jake," I laughed, "You have to go."
"Oh yea, right, bye Bells, I love you."
"Bye Jake, I love you too." This time the "I love you" came out like running water, no problem.
Jake did return, that night at about 3am, he tried not to wake me, but he needed to open the window, apparently it was hot, after his run with the werewolves.
I shot up, half thinking I was still at Charlie's house, and someone was coming through my window.
He hit his head on the window and used his share of swore words.
"Oh hey Bella, sorry, it's just a little stuffy in here."
I mumbled, "Its ok. So did you get the visitor?"
Jake quickly took off his sweats and was just in his boxers, he quickly jumped into bed.
"Yea, well by the time we meet up with him, Carlisle was at the border, saying he was a friend of his, and he had gotten lost. He also said that he was 'one like them' and he'd be gone by sun up. So we waiting a few hours, and he was gone, just as the old vampire had said."
"That's good" I half said.
"Yea, then he asked about you, as the other guys were turning around to head back, and I transitioned back. I told him you were fine and he told me to tell you about your appointment in a few weeks."
"That's good" I said again.
We were both still leaning up, staring at each other, and then I leaned back down and fell on my pillow, and my eyes closed till 6:45am…
Author's Note: Well, I've made up a new medical term, it's called 'Computer Shoulder'. I've been working so hard to finish
this story that I'm almost on it all day, and right now and whenever I sit my shoulder, well actually my back, well it right below
neck just to the left slighty. Anyways, it's really tense and sore, and I believe it's from sitting. So I took yesterday off and a little
of today to hopefully cure it, although it's starting to come back... anyways, to make up for my wrong shoulder I'll post two chapters!
So... I'm not usually a complainer, but it seems to me that no one really enjoys the story... or it's too long or what... but I don't care,
it was fun to write, and I think about it constantly to make it seem better and better. But I just had to share, just in case some of you
have doubts about this story. I'm in full of confidence for it, but I don't know about 'you all'. But hey, keep tuned, I promise the action,
and 'Cullen suspence' will dawn on the story soon...
Oh shoot! I just had a thought, you are all probably just excited because Breaking Dawn is coming out in a little less than a week...duh,
me, why did I just remember. Anyways, have a great day Twilight fans.
Till Then, Elizabeth
