Disclaimer: To my own disbelief and pure greediness, I sadly don't own Twilight/New Moon characters, Miss Stephenie Meyer does.


I got home late, I constantly had to stop and use the restroom, and I kept feeling faint, so I was pulling over, remembering to breath.

Finally, I was driving into the sunset; obviously I wouldn't reach my kids in time that I had said.

As I arrived off the little highway and turned onto the Cullen's little hidden dirt road. I drove slowly, but I knew they were all awake. I looked at the dashboard, it read 10pm. I kept driving and then looked to see the house; it was glistening with light, except for on the top floor.

I parked and started walking, the door was already open by the time I got to the top steps, my feet burned as I clenched my way through the doorway in my black high, high heels.

I smiled as walked through the open door, every head of the Cullen household turned to face me, they smiled. I noticed one face was missing.

I sighed and probably looked and sounded terrible from driving for so long, "Hey," I sighed, as if I had just gone running. I swallowed, "I am so sorry I'm late, I… it went longer than expected." I smiled, remembering Ian Van Dell; I fumbled my keys in my hand.

Carlisle came over to me, "Bella you shouldn't be wearing high heels when you're 7 months pregnant." He laughed, looking down at my shoes.

I laughed, but Alice peeped in, "Carlisle, she looks great, I say let her." She smiled as she hugged me.

"So where are my kids?" I finally asked, looking around.

"Uh," Alice chipped in, "They're already asleep, up in the bedroom."

I stopped smiling, and then asked patiently, "Where are they Alice?"

She looked down, "In uh… Edward's room. This way…" she started walking. I smiled at Esme as I walked past, giving her a slight hug.

We walked up the stairs, following many closed doors, till we found one that was cracked.

Alice opened it gracefully then I went in, she closed it back again to a crack. But before she did she frowned, but I ignored it. I looked around the room, recognizing the thousands of CDs on the wall, and the white walls. I saw the updated black leather couch, and in the middle of the room was the bed.

"Damn bed." I muttered to myself.

Two little heads were sound asleep; I sighed and smiled when I saw them. I started walking towards them, but as I walked I leaned over and took off one high heel, then the other. I threw them on the rug and sighed again, I was exhausted.

I went and sat on the bed, leaning back. I kissed Madeline then Mason, thankfully they didn't wake up. I rubbed their hair and kissed them again, pulling up the blankets that Mason had kicked back.

I sighed as I stared at them, eyes closed, breathing silently and evenly.

I then smiled as Mason moved a little, his eyes flickered open.

He smiled, "Hey Mommy."

I smiled and put my mouth to his lips, "Shhhh, you'll wake your sister. Go back to sleep." I whispered quietly.

He smiled, "I love you Mommy."

"I love you too," I whispered.

His head turned and his eyes went back to being closed, he fell back to sleep easily.

I heard a slight noise coming from my left; I looked over quickly and saw Edward, standing like a Greek god, just like in school.

I quickly went back to staring at Mason and Madeline, they were still sound asleep, I tried to ignore him, but I had a feeling he was still here, ignorant as ever.

I whispered at him, "Do you enjoy watching my kids sleep?" I hissed at him.

"Oddly enough, yes, they sleep just like you, except they don't talk." He said musically.

I was still looking away, daring myself not to look at him, I rubbed Mason's hair.

I smiled, "Yup, just like their dad… good thing they don't talk, apparently too many things are revealed." I switched to Madeline, flipping her hair behind her ear.

He didn't answer, or not as quickly as I thought he would.

I smiled again, still not looking at him. "How long have you been here?" I looked over at him, and stopped smiling, he still stood.

His lips were tight, he looked liked he was thinking.

"Enough to know you don't like wearing high heels." He said."Or the 'damn bed'." He added.

My eyes were fixed on his face, but my mind was wondering… thinking about what he had witnessed.

I heard Madeline roll over; I looked down at her and smiled. She didn't wake up.

"You might want to let them sleep, they had a big day." He suggested harshly.

I started to get off the bed, "Thank you for telling me how to raise my kids." I sarcastically added.

His jaw went tight again, as I got off the bed, kissing them on their heads again.

I started walking away, looking to get my shoes. They were still on the floor; they looked more and more uncomfortable every step I took towards them.

I tried to reach down and get them; my stomach was blocking my way.

I blinked my eyes then realized they were gone, Edward stood in front of me holding them out for me.

He smiled as he handed them to me; I leaned down and put them on my feet.

I whispered and hissed at him, "Oh brilliant Mr. Cullen, making fun of the pregnant woman."

He winced, "I didn't mean it that way, Mrs. Black, if that's what you mean…"

I tightened my jaw at him and looked down, "You know perfectly well Mr. Cullen that I'm not Mrs. Black, I'm Miss Swan." I paused, "I'm fairly certain Carlisle told you what happened." I looked up.

Mason turned over and made a noise, I turned behind me. He was still asleep. I started walking towards the door, Edward followed. I was walking into the hallway, not facing him as he closed the door with a polished movement.

I turned around, "So you haven't heard?" I looked up into his bright golden eyes.

We were face to face, in the Cullen hallway.

"Depends on if you want to use the word 'heard' or not…" He looked down, jaw locked.

"Hm, I see. Well…" I breathed deeply. He looked up and then into my eyes.

"I'm sorry Bella, that he hurt you, Bella, and your kids." He lessened up.

I shook my head and looked down.

"Do you… regret it?" I asked him. I looked up to see him staring at me.

"Regret leaving you? In some ways, yes. You don't understand Bella…" He paused, "I made my decision twice, the second time you knew who to turn to, he helped you. You loved him, he loved you. But I do regret it… losing you… losing you was like losing air, a way of life."

I sighed, "You know that you might have been doing something that you thought was right, but all you did was break my heart." I whispered, "And I did turn to Jacob, because you said you didn't love me. I'm not stupid Edward, I knew you were just protecting me, I mean God, don't you understand?"

His brows were raised, fury was almost in his eyes, "Bella, I did protect you, and you turned to him, just fine. Look, you got married, and look in that room, two kids, and have you looked at your own stomach Bella? Is that just some miracle or did Jacob help with that too, which I'm almost positive he did. If I hadn't had left you, you'd be frozen solid in time and they," he pointed to the door, "wouldn't exsist, so do tell me Bella, do you really understand?"

My anger grew, but I still whispered, "I do Edward, because when two people love each other, they usually don't break it off because one is not living, although clearly you are." I paused, "And I love my children, so I'll give you that, they would not be here if it wasn't for Jacob. But look Edward, now I'm pregnant and have no husband. Is that what you wanted for me?" I pinned the question on him; I knew it would probably hurt him.

He let out a cool breath, "Bella, I know you know I've always wanted the best for you."

"Really? Because right now, it sure doesn't look that way to me…" I raised my voice.

"You seem content enough…" it seemed as he shot it at me, although he didn't mean it in that term.

"Really, Edward? I'm pregnant, my daughter won't have a father, and she will never know him. Madeline and Mason will never see their father again, never. He is off with some other girl, and me, well just to throw it in; I lost my husband, my husband, Edward. So do you really think that I'm content…?"

He breathed in, not releasing it.

We stood looking at each other, our eyes locked. I finally looked down, defeated by his looks.

I sighed and shook, "Please just say something…" I whispered in a hush tone.

"Bella, you have no idea how guilty I feel. Everyday since I let you go again, I've watched you, I saw how you suffered again, I saw the way you kissed Jacob, your wedding day. I stopped after that, I knew there was no way of getting you back after that…"

I sighed and laughed, unknowingly, "My wedding day?" I giggled.

He looked taken back, "What's so funny about that, a commitment between man and wife…?"

I giggled, "I was a total wreck that day, especially that night…" I laughed recalling the memory; I was a nervous wreck with Jacob that night, but being Jake, he took care of everything…

I looked up to see Edward confused, "Do you really think it's funny to laugh at one's wedding night, Bella? Especially your own?"

"No, it was just a funny memory, one that was shared between Jacob and me."

"I see, that must have been so funny to recall with you two and two, no three children."

"Are you trying to pry into my sex life Edward, it's not exactly something I enjoy talking to with another man…" I gave him a serious look.

"No... I" he looked taken back that I was asking him something so open…

Another voice was coming down that hallway, Emmett's booming voice.

He laughed as I took a step back from Edward; I realized I was extremely close to him, closer than when I started talking to him.

"No, he's not prying, he's just jealous because he has no sex life… but apparently you do Bella, three kids, ha!" Emmett boomed.

He went into his bedroom and I could still hear him laughing… I looked down at the floor; I could feel my cheeks become bright red as I blushed.

I heard a hiss come from Edward as I looked up, trying to ignore Emmett's comment.

"Edward, what I mean is, you left me. I went off and married someone else, someone I grew to love… but do you want to know something Edward?" I whispered in a very hushed tone.

He didn't answer, I stared into his eyes.

I paused, catching my breath, "I never loved him as much as I loved you." I didn't cry, but I felt a tear roll down my cheek, then another.

He was looking down now, his eyes wandering as I just breathed.

He finally spoke, moments if not minutes later. "Do you still love me?" He asked, I felt a shock go through my body, the silent tears rolling down my cheek. My feet becoming impatient within the pain.

I shook my head and bit my lip, "I… I don't know, Edward." I finally choked out.

His eyes met mine as he asked, "Love is something that you know in honesty, Bella. It's never an emotion you doubt, if not a love like ours, like we once had."

His gaze held mine for several moments, his words seeping through me in a wave of emotion, the tears still rolling down my face…

"Excuse me, "I whispered to no one, even though Edward was right there in front of me.

I walked down the hallway; the echo of my shoes followed me down the stairs, the silent tears making a path.

I reached the bottom stair and walked towards the door, I had no intention of getting in my car, I just wanted away from the house, a walk and silent stay from this house…

I opened the door and walked down the more steps, reaching the grass area and I kept walking, but I leaned down and took off my shoes, one by one. Holding them as I wiped my tears.

Damn it, I thought to myself, how could I be so stupid? I can't be falling for him, he left me, and now he's judging my opinion on love. Love? I knew what love was, I knew the honesty of it. I felt the passion in all forms, something he hadn't. I had children; I knew what unconditional love was.

I sighed as I looked down, tears were still rolling down my face, but I wasn't sobbing. I stopped walking and looked around, seeing the trees and dirt road, finding my direction and bearing.

Out of the corner of my eye, I see a slowing car, one of the nicest, classiest Mercedes I've ever seen. The windows were of course tinted; hiding the face of whoever was inside. At this moment, whoever was driving, I thought I'd murder… they interrupted my thoughts.

The car stopped right near me, as my eyes squinted into the light, I leaned down and put on my shoes, the killer heels, also known as Jimmy Choo.

The driver side opened and a man got out, dressed in a gray sweater and fitted dark jeans. A jacket hung to his sides in every way.

The door was slammed shut, the car lights turned off, the stranger walking towards me…


Author's Note: Hm, well... good chapter, I see, ha ha :)
Anyways(wow, I use that word alot 'anyways') I'm a now completely
finished with the story, woo hoo, I know, I was screaming when I was done too.
I had to finished it with a good ending, I mean, heck, for me school starts,
Friday( I know, I know, Friday, you ask? I have to go to school mass, so they scheduled
school to start Friday, my uh principal died over the summer, so it's sad times for our school.)
So I finished before school, and will probably be posting two chapters at a time, maybe...
we'll see what happens.

Till Then, Elizabeth.