-At Matt's house-

Everyone was having a good time just the core group hanging out, you had music and their favorite band, Pearl Jam blasting through the speakers.

"Thank God Jeff you bought two bottles, man cause we just finished with the first one." Shane said his speech slurring a little.

Jeff just laughed and raised his bottle "Dude throw me another beer."

Shane went to the fridge and throw him one as Matt walked into the livingroom and diving for the couch almost missing it.

As Jeff looked around he surveyed the scene; you had Matt hanging off the couch his head almost touching the floor, Shannon lying on the floor on his back, hands behind his head being used as a self-made pillow, Shane looking around trying to find a space to sit with a bottle of Grey Goose in his hand, and Jeff himself sitting on the floor legs crossed, leaning against the fireplace.

"So Jeff tell us about this chick you meet at the mall" Shane asked after finding himself a place to sit.

Both Matt and Shannon sat up with curiosity and looking over at Jeff.

"Yea man tell us about her" Matt said taking a gulp of his beer.

Jeff looked at everyone and lightly smiled, his mind taking him back to Angel "Well her name is Angel it's ironic because she looks just like one. She has beautiful long curly black hair, light brown eyes, beautiful smile. She's just plain beautiful, she's 26 yrs old, lives here in Cameron but completely untouchable."

"Huh…what you mean untouchable" Shannon asked.

"She's engaged to a jackass that treats her like shit. But then she has an amazing kid named Cody"

"Damn man she's getting married and has a kid, you can't go after her." Matt said

Jeff just placed his head against the fire place and twirled his beer in his hands, his mind still lingering on Angel.

"Bro you here man…?" Matt asked not getting a response from Jeff.

"Man don't pull an Adam"

Jeff's head snapped to Matt "What? Come on man, I'm not gonna do some shit like that no way in hell am I Adam, Matt don't compare me to him"

"Sorry man it's just don't make her cheat"

"Matt I'm getting to know her, there in no way that I'm ready for a relationship. I was screwed up enough I don't need this again" Jeff took a deep breathe which sounded more like defeat. "She was probably right" Jeff sighed. He let his head fall, placed his beer on the floor, he then placed his head in his hands.

Matt, Shane and Shannon all stared at eachother. "Jeff what you mean she was right?" Shannon asked getting closer to Jeff.

Jeff just stayed silent in the same position not wanting to answer anyone. After a few minutes of silence Jeff lifted his head and saw Matt laying on the couch staring at the ceiling, Shane was resting his head on the back of another couch, and Shannon was laying by Jeffs feet going through his cell phone.

As Jeff got up to get him another beer, he felt eyes on him, following him. When he entered the kitchen he knew someone was going to follow him so he grabbed a beer and jumped onto the counter. A few seconds later, Shannon came in and he himself jumped up on the counter across from Jeff, his legs dangling.

Shannon just stared at Jeff and saw Jeff nod his head to him. "She really messed with your head didn't she?"

Jeff stared at his childhood friend, his bestfriend, someone he knew he could trust, debating whether he should tell him. Tell him everything that happened to him "Yea she did completely. She's out of my life and she still has this power over me."

"Jeff can I ask you something?"

"Go ahead Shannon, just go ahead and ask, what more damage can there be done?"

" did you let her…take control?" Shannon asked hesitantly.

Shannon saw Jeff's eyes glaze over and a sad but painful smile was formed on his face, and that itself broke his heart to see his bestfriend in pain. "Because I loved her" Jeff mumbled softly.

But it was loud enough for Shannon to hear "But Jeff…"

"I know Shannon…but I loved her, when she started arguing with you guys and criticizing everything I did and everything I am, I…I got sick of all the arguments so I gave in. She wanted me to be so normal to be the man she wanted, that I just gave up. The arguments got real bad Shan, that was the only way I knew how to stop the arguments. And it did, it did stop because...well…I became her puppet did what she wanted me to do, became who she wanted me to be. Then…when she started to make me distance myself from you guys I realized what she was doing, I tried to get out but I was so brainwashed so sunk in that when I did try I couldn't reach the surface, thats…thats when she started beating on me."

As Jeff was talking, Shannon's eyesight got blurry with tears threatening to fall, but then anger surged through his body from the beatings his friend was put through. From the corner of his eye he saw both Shane and Matt walk in, he noticed that Jeff saw them and instead of Jeff stopping from the fear that Shannon had thought he would, he continued talking.

In seeing the approval of Jeff both Shane and Matt leaned on the counter listening and like Shannon anger was boiling in both of them.

"She realized I was stronger than her because everytime she either slapped, scratch, punched or kicked me it wouldn't really do any damage. Then she decided that beating me with objects was better."

"What kind of objects Jeff?" Shane asked shyly.

"Better question, what kind of objects she didn't hit me with. She used everything from breaking bottles over my head to fucking steel pipes. The majority of the injuries I had wasn't just from wrestling they came from her. I remember…coming home from one of our tours…I came home and the lights were off so I walked to the bedroom opened the door, went to the light to turn it on but before I reached it she hit me across the back…I can't remember with what but…but when I fell to the floor she continued swinging, she broke my ribs busted me wide open, and all I hear her saying is; I have to pay for the time I was out. She, she beat me till I was unconcious, and when I woke up I was in the same spot by my bed, she was no where in sight, so I crawled to the bathroom…it was so hard standing up, I felt like I was hit by a bus. When I looked in the mirror, dry blood was everywhere, it stung to clean it, but I did…I…I had a busted lip, my back was killing me it was extemely sore, I had trouble breathing cause of my broken ribs. I didn't see her all day, the next day she came back from God knows where she acted like nothing was wrong."

Jeff looked up and saw tears and anger in his friends faces. "Why you think that week when you guys kept calling me to come over or do something I made up excuses or she'll tell you that I was busy, she didn't want you to know what she did to me, frankly I didn't want you guys seeing me like that. That was one of the worse beatings I received. She realized it to. All those other times, you guys saw me with bruises or in pain, I just said it was from wrestling, but since that time it was real bad and more visible she didn't want to risk it."

Jeff looked back down at his hands ashamed, not wanting to look into their eyes afraid as to what he will see. "The…the beatings..it got so bad afterwards that I stopped screaming, I got used to it, I would just get numb and black out, I got…I got used to the pain, and when she noticed it that's when she added on the verbal and mental abuse to it. I was already brainwashed as is, so it just made it all the easier to get into my head. Like everything she said screwed me up she knew what to say, how to get to me, how TO MAKE ME SUFFER and every DAMN THING SHE SAID I still have it in my head, it doesn't GO AWAY." Tears started falling from Jeff's face and his voice cracked but started getting louder and angrier. "EVERYTIME I THINK im getting better I GET GET WORSE MAN, SHE…SHE HAS THIS SPELL ON ME. Everytime I get happy back to who I am, to who the real Jeff Hardy is,...HER WORDS, THEY JUST GO THROUGH MY HEAD, I feel…I feel so damn vulnerable, so weak, and like im not trying to be sexist or some shit like that BUT IM A MAN how the HELL…I let SOME CHICK have so much control over me. I gave her…I gave her everything, I loved her like no man would, hell no man will deal with someone like her but I did and I know that was a mistake." Jeff's tears was still streaming down his face, he still looked down at his open hands shaking his head "She took everything I had, everything I offered her and she spit it right in my face."

Jeff raised his head and leaned it against the cabinet door "I can't even look at another women without her popping in my head, I can't close my eyes, I cant go to sleep her face is always there in my head, her words are always there. Its been 5 months since she's been gone and I still can't be happy…she just won't leave me alone." Jeff just stared in the distance his head still leaning on the cabinet door, tears still pouring down his face.

Shannon, Shane and Matt were all crying and staring at Jeff, in shock with everything that Jeff let out. After a few minutes all four stopped crying and all was left was silence between the four friends. Then Matt walked to his baby brother and placed his hand softly on his knee "Bro?"

After a minute Jeff looked down at his brother. "Know this Jeff, whatever the hell she said to you isn't true, you are an amazing guy, you show love to anyone you care about, and that cares about you. You are a fan favorite, a top star and we all are extremely happy to have you back. You will get through this Jeff, with the help of us and now Angel, becase apparently you had a great connection with her, be friends with her, not all chicks are the same, and there are women that will throw themselves at you, hell the fan base itself shows it." Matt smiled when he made Jeff chuckle. "Everything is gonna workout little bro don't worry and throw those thoughts of her out of your head, everything she said get rid of it, she's out of your life."

Jeff smiled and nodded, then he looked at Shannon and Shane and they both nodded their head in approval.

"Thanks guys for being here for me" Jeff said smiling lightly at them.

"Jeff your our bestfriend we will always be here, besides you're the major part of the core group, you know how boring it would be without you?" Shannon said

Jeff laughed along with everyone else, and then he lifted his beer and drank it, ending conversation.

"Now come on, enough of this lets go have fun and get wasted." Shannon said grabbing an armful of beers, and walking in the living room.

Jeff looked at Shane and Matt shrugged his shoulders he grabbed the chips that were on the counter and followed Shannon wanting himself to have a good time.