Chapter –

The plan was simple… it was so simple it was stupid. Alice dressed me up in a black mini skirt and a blue halter top. Everyone throught I was going on a date with Collin because I liked him. Everyone except Rosalie, Alice, Victoria, and Liz.

"YOU'RE PULLING MY HAIR DAMNIT STOP PULLING." I screamed. Rose shot me a look of Death and I shut up. Right the plan… the plan was for me to go with Collin to the meadow. Yea… I know that was harsh, and I don't know how many times I objected to it, but then Victoria had to be all 'if you hate Edward why do you care?' but only Alice knew the truth about that. The truth that I wouldn't even admit to myself. I mean I knew Bella still loved Edward, but did Iz? I mean okay so maybe Bella did die when Edward left, but she only died on the outside… I mean I was still Bella inside.

"Iz your ready, you can look now." I got up and looked into the mirror…and my heart fell… I was wearing blue…Edward's favoirite color on me. I quickly pushed those thoughts away and thanked them.

"Thanks guys you did a really good job." They laughed and pushed me out the door. I met Collin in the living room.

"Hey Collin… so where are we going?" he admired what I was wearing and then put a kiss on my cheek.

"Where ever you want babe." I grimaced at the nickname.

"Come on lets go." I dragged him out the door into the car. His eyes were clouded over and his mind blocked. Whatever he was up to wasn't good. At least that's what my gut told me… my gut was normally right. I brought Collin to the meadow and we sat down. There was silence…but not an awkward silence. I could easily be friends with someone like Collin. I closed my eyes and remembered all the times me and Edward came to the meadow. I felt Collin move closer to me, and his had go up my thigh. I snapped open my eyes.

"Collin what do you think you are doing?" His eyes had a kind of fire in it.

"You used me, now I'm using you." I tried to get up out of his grasp but he just pinned my wrists together above my head. "You see Bella, I'm strong and I have more than one power. Alice won't be able to see this." He whispered into my ear. "You are all mine." Then I screamed.

stoplight lock the door
don't look back
undress in the dark
and hide from you
all of you

Why me? All I wanted to do was make Edward jealous.

You'll never know the way

your words have haunted me
I can't believe you'd

ask these things of me
you don't know me

I felt Collin's hands all over me, touching me. Before I knew it my skirt was at my ankles and my shirt over my head.

You belong to me
my snow white queen
there's nowhere to run,

so lets just get it over
soon I know you'll see
you're just like me
don't scream anymore my love,

cause all I want is you

He thought this was payback? This was worse than what I did to him. What had I ever done in life to deserve this? Any of this?

Wake up in a dream
frozen fear
all your hands on me
I can't scream

He took his shirt and trousers off. This time there would be no saving Bella.

I can't describe

the twisted way you think of me
I feel you in my dreams

and I don't sleep

I screamed but he just covered my mouth.

You belong to me
my snow white queen
there's nowhere to run,

so lets just get it over
soon I know you'll see
you're just like me
don't scream anymore my love,

cause all I want is you

I was crying and it was raining. For some reason my anger wasn't working so I couldn't even blow him up.

I can't save your life
though nothing I bleed

for is more tormenting
I'm losing my mind and

you just stand there and stare

as my world divides

He put himself on top of me and I felt pain. Immense pain.

You belong to me
my snow white queen
there's nowhere to run,

so lets just get it over
soon I know you'll see
you're just like me
don't scream anymore my love,

cause all I want is you

He then grinned, got off me and let me go. "If you tell anyone they all die" he whispered into my ear." I picked up my clothes and put them on. Then I ran.

And ran

And ran

And ran.

I made myself stop crying. I felt so dirty and violated. I wasn't clean anymore, he took the only thing that was mine. I walked into the house and was automatically bombarded with questions.

"Bella how was the date?" asked Victoria.

"Where's Collin?" asked Alice. I ignored them all and went up the stairs. Emmett grabbed my arm but I flinched away. Why would he touch me? Stop touching me, were the only thoughts that went through my head.

"Come on Iz tell us what happened on the date give us juicy details." Said Liz. I continued making my way up the stairs refusing to look at them. I knew if I did then I would tell them and then they would all get hurt.

"Iz come on if you don't tell us we're going to think that he raped you or something." I turned around in shock. Apprehension flashed though me. Realization hit all their faces.

"He raped you?" anger flared in Eric's eyes I ran. I ran past Emmett, past Jasper, past Brian, past everyone. I heard foot falls behind me knowing that they were following me. Then I collapsed onto the wet grass, curled up into a little ball and began to cry. My depression must have been really bad because it began to hail. I felt two cold arms pick me up and smelled a familiar sweet scent.

Edward. I clutched on to his tee shirt and he hung on to me tighter.

"I am so sorry Bella for leaving you and doing this. I am sorry Collin raped you and that this happened." He whispered into my hair. "I love you Bella I do with all my heart.

"I forgive you Edward." And then I passed out.

Authors note-

I felt so bad doing that to Bella. Okay so like I am going to be gone for a few days so I won't be able to update until Saturday. Give me 15 reviews by then and you shall know why this happens-

"Bella will you marry me?" Edward asked…

"No." It broke my heart to say that, and I am pretty sure I heard several gasps but I had to do this… I had to do this so he wouldn't get hurt. So none of them would get hurt.

adios- Edwardbella4everr