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I laid down Jason's body next to Dave's. Although I was a Vampire and I couldn't sleep Dave's eyes would haunt me for the rest of eternity. I looked up to see the Cullen's leaving and pain burst though my body. As if I could ever be good enough for him.

Flashback-

"Because she won't tear you away form your family…she's not like you." Edward said to Jason.

"And what makes you think you are worthy of her?" he asked. A low growl came into my throat.

"He is worthy of her because he keep her whole. He makes her happy." Hissed Dave. Jason narrowed his eyes at Dave.

"And you. Why would you think that they would beat me?" Jason hissed at him. "What makes you think that after this I will let you live?" asked Jason.

"You can't kill me." Snarled Dave. Jason stared hard at Dave and then grinned triumphantly.

"See Dave I may not be able to kill you…But you can kill yourself." Then it hit me.

"NO DAVE SNAP OUT OF IT." I screamed. But it was too late. Jason had put a permanent mind control on Dave. Dave fell to the floor and the light left his eyes. Dave's body was here, but Dave was no longer here.

"Now I can take the pleasure of killing you family one by one. Starting with Edward." He said. Just as He was about to use the mind control on Edward I had enough. I lunged at Jason and I ignited on fire. He slowly lit on fire and had a slow death. His body was there but alas Jason wasn't.

End Flashback

Alice sent me one last sympathetic look. Go AFTER HIM my mind screamed at me. But I couldn't as I remembered the rest of what happened a few hours ago.

Flashback

I turned around and abruptly hugged Edward. He cringed away from me.

"What?" I asked him "What did I do?" He walked a step back from me and began.

"Look at you Bella you are a guardian. Something that is much more special that I can ever be…ever give you. You deserve to be with someone who is up to your standards." He whispered.

"But Edward it is I who don't deserve you. How could you ever think that you are not good enough for me?" I asked.

"Because I know it is true. Goodbye Bella." He came and gave me one last kiss. "I love you never forget that." He said. He looked at his family and none of them looked as if they were going to argue with him they were his family after all.

"Edward don—" but it was too late. Edward was already out the door.

End Flashback

I was angry. Sad but angry. I spoke out.

"So is this the monster you've become?" I asked them all angrily. "I don't know what to say anymore. I am human and you don't want me, I am a vampire and you don't want me. I can bet you 10 bucks that if I was a wolf you wouldn't want me either." Everyone turned to look at me in surprise.

"I mean what do I have to do around here to get a family that loves me?" I asked, hundreds of emotions running through my body. I looked up at Edward.

"You know Edward the first time you left me I was human…so I had a hope of dying so I wouldn't have to live without you." They all gasped in surprise. "The second time I had a family who got me though this. This time I don't know what to do… I can join the Volturi, ask to die or spend eternity alone." I heard a few people say sorry and Vicky came to stand beside me.

"Bella you have to understand…I don't want to be a burden. With us do you think that you would be free as a bird? I am a monster that doesn't deserve you."

"Once Edward…I believed that I wasn't good enough for you. You left 3 times and we still keep returning to each other. If that's not love I don't know what is." I finally broke down.

"Edward before you my life was like a moonless night. Very dark but there were points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor, suddenly everything was on fire, there was brilliance, there was beauty. When you left, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes had been blinded by the light, I couldn't see the stars anymore, and there was no reason for anything." I whispered. "I read it somewhere "There are only so many times you can cut tree's down before the field goes empty."

I got on one knee and everyone looked at me in surprise "Edward I want to spend my life with you…." I began to cry and it began to rain outside. "There is a reason Vampire elemental girls don't do this." He laughed and kneeled down next to me.

"Isabella Marie Swan…will you marry me?" I smiled though my tears.

"Yes." I said and I was engulfed into a kiss.

I love you Edward