Chapter Four

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A little over a week passed, and although it hurt just as much as it had the first time, I was able to put on a better show because I knew Edward wanted me and I would see him again. Charlie, didn't even know the Cullens where gone. He thought Edward wasn't around because he and I were fighting. In a way, I suppose we were. I got through every day knowing I would see him again. But I didn't make it through one night without a tear. I wondered what I was saying in my sleep.

Finally, I became too much. I can't just wait. Nothing will change. After about

two days of debating, I decided I could risk a trip up to La Push. I didn't know what I would do when I got there, but I couldn't just stay here. Tomorrow, it's a Sunday, perfect day to go, I convinced myself.

I got ready for bed, early as usual. With Edward gone, I wanted the days to end sooner. I was about to crawl into bed, when I realized I had forgotten to brush my teeth. I stalked into the bathroom and scrubbed half heartedly; it's amazing how many things where pointless without Edward.

I almost had a heart attack when I walked back to my room to find Jacob Black sitting on my bed. Hate filled my being; it felt like burning ice. I glared at him, still to shocked to speak.

"Hey Bella." He said in a friendly tone. His voice only intensified my rage. I wanted to scream at him to get out of my room, until I remembered I had a visit to see him set for tomorrow. It looked like that would be unnecessary.

"What do you want?" I asked quietly and deadly. He got up and stepped toward me.

"I came to see how you were doing and… if you needed my help." Understanding washed through me.

"Trust me I don't need your help." I said bitterly "Last time, I thought Edward didn't want me, this time, I know he does. And, I have some one to hate for it." I glared at him. He shuddered, fighting back a phase.

"Bella, I did that to protect you."

"From what?!" I very near shouted. He looked at me, angry; though, no where near as angry as I was. I sighed.

"Why did you do this? You have no motive to kill them. They have kept their end of the deal. They aren't as dangerous as you think. When will you let me see him again?" I struggled to control my voice.

"Bella, no matter what you think, they are dangerous. And you should get over this crush, because you will never see them again." His voice was controlled. And tight.

Just to hear that tore me apart, I began to cry, trying to convince myself he was lying. "And what will you d—do if I go after them, and run away. How will you stop me?"

"We've been through this, you know what we'll do." He stared harshly at me while I sobbed.

"What about your promise? Why aren't you being a friend to me?" I asked desperate. His expression softened, a little bit.

"I am being your friend. Bella, this situation is like… trying to get a friend to give up drugs. You really want them, but they aren't good for you, they are dangerous. So I take them away, and you are mad at me, but as a friend I did what I had to, to keep you safe."

"Damn it Jacob! This is nothing like that." I hissed. He turned and left without another word.

E. POV

I couldn't take this anymore. It had only been eight days, and it seemed like eight long painful years she had been gone. I couldn't end my existence, for fear of ending hers, and I couldn't be with her. It was maddening. I was going utterly insane. I couldn't even bring myself to hunt, despite the scorching burn in my throat. I had no reason to live, and kept on living. I was nothing. And I was empty.

I stood a half a mile from her house looking at her talk with Jacob. She was asking him why he was there. Her voice sounded amazing, and livid. What did he do to her? I growled in my head, eager to hear more.

"I came to see how you were doing and… if you needed my help." Jacob said to her. He wondered if she would go out with him now that I was gone. Probably… I thought. That hurt. My life didn't want me. Was that supposed to be painless?

"Trust me I don't need your help. Last time, I thought Edward didn't want me, this time, I know he does. And, I have some one to hate for it." That utterly confused me. Last time what? What was "it"?

"Bella, I did that to protect you." He said.

"From what?!" she said loudly. Wow. She sounded furious… and offended.

"Why did you do this? You have no motive to kill them. They have kept their end of the deal. They aren't as dangerous as you think. When will you let me see him again?" Wait, was she talking about us? Jake's mind answered all of my questions. Yes, she was talking about us. I was shocked at what I heard. Thirty-one werewolves in his pack. That was huge. I didn't want to admit it, but my family and I couldn't take them. Bella did this to keep us safe. Joy intoxicated me. Permeated every particle of my being. She did love me… I was too relieved for words. Then the implications dawned on me. I had to speak with Carlisle. I would be back. Soon Bella…

Okay, I was very nervous about doing E. POV, so tell me what you think! REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Chapter 5 will be up sooner if you do!