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CRASH!
I hit the ground. I could smell the damp grass under my face. Disoriented, I righted myself, taking in my surroundings. I was outside; in our backyard…..
How did I get here? Where was Bella?
Glass crunched under my shoe. My eyes flew to my now shattered window. I fell out.
How did that happen? What was the matter with me? Where was Bella?
A growing sense of fear rose in my chest.
Why couldn't I remember falling out of my own window? Where was Bella? Did something happen to her?
The fear morphed into unadulterated panic as raced inside. I flew immediately to my room.
Bella…
I tore my door off it's hinges in my haste. Before I bothered searching the room, I inhaled deeply. Not a trace of her. Something was wrong. Very wrong….
I ran, not quite as fast as before, into our living room. Every one was there. Except Bella. I looked at them. Only looked at them. They stared at me, each face holding a different message. I still couldn't hear their thoughts….why not? Bella was back now…. That troubled me, would I never get my ability back? But worry wasn't worth the thought; I had bigger problems.
"What happened? Where's Bella?" I asked. I watched as each face changed, from whatever they were communicating before, to this. Sympathy, sadness, guilt, but most of all shock and concern. Why the change? I obviously was missing something.
"Carlisle," Esme was the first to speak. "What's going on?" She was confused too? What happened? Where was Bella? Why wasn't any one answering me? I clenched my fists in an attempt to keep my frustration off my face.
Carlisle didn't acknowledge her.
"Edward?" Carlisle spoke so softly. Did he think I would shatter if he spoke to loud? Maybe, I felt so fragile after losing Bella. But she was back now, and if some one would tell me where she was, he wouldn't need to speak so softly.
"Yes, Carlisle?" I asked in a forced patient voice. My efforts were in vain; my family saw right through my feeble attempt.
"Come here Edward." And he walked out of our front door, I could hear him progress to the edge of the trees.
Eccentric Carlisle…. I didn't have the patience for this nonsense…. Where was Bella?
The panic in my chest never left. I suppressed it with all my control and denial as I followed Carlisle out the door.
I ran to meet him at the trees.
"What is it?" I asked quickly.
"Edward…what do you remember?" The softness of his voice… it was the way he spoke to his patients when the tests bore formidable news….
My control cracked and a sliver of the panic leaked into my head.
"What do you mean?" I asked him warily, searching his face. No hint of any emotion but compassion, sadness, and concern, all hidden behind his professional mask. Something was very wrong…
Another puncture in the wall of my control, the fear spread. Something was very, very wrong…..
My conscious shrank away from it like I child would flinch from a blow. Still I stood…waiting…..
"Just what I said. What's the last thing you remember?"
"You, coming into my room and yelling. Telling me I wasn't too late… Bella would transform, just...slower…" why was he asking me to say this? He knew…. But then…why did I fall out my window?
"Edward, that never happened…."
I heard the words but not the meaning. What?
My wall was hit with a wrecking ball. The fear, anxiety, panic, flowed through my like a flood. It was overwhelming.
"Edward….she is gone. I can't tell you how sorry I am."
I looked at him and knew he wasn't lying. Still anger and resentment built toward him.
"Edward?" How dare he speak my name? one part of me growled, while the other felt reassured by his voice. I stood there, rigid. I began to tremble.
"Edward?" he repeated. At that point all rationality fled from me like a criminal fleas the crime.
"Shut up!" I screamed at him. I sank to my knees clutching my head as reality crushed me a second time. It was back; with a vengeance.
I started laughing. Carlisle rested his hand on my shoulder. I flung myself out from under it, disgusted. Then I saw his face…
"Good bye….I'll be back…" was all I could tell those eyes. I turned and ran away from those penetrating, seeing eyes…thinking…
I never thought I would be aware of insanity, and I never thought it would happen to me…
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