Chapter 28: Regression

When I came to I was in the hotel room in bed, I felt like crap and threw up in a trash can that was by the bed.

Adam was sitting on the bed, "What the hell were you thinking?" he asked me.

"I didn't know..." I mumbled back.

"Where is Jeremy? He isn't answering his cell phone."

"He left..."

Adam looked shocked and I answered him before he asked why.

"We got into a fight…he knows about the drugs...what I did to Brennan…and…" I opened my eyes more and sat up, "Adam did I kill my parents?"

He frowned and looked away, "you were out of control…and didn't even have memory of doing it. I had a guy working on the case and I went to him and he threw out the evidence you left…fingerprints. I knew that going to jail wasn't going to help your mutation, but make it worse. I also knew that the real Valerie Prescott would not kill her parents."

I started to cry, "I talked to Lisa…didn't believe her...that's when I started having the dreams. I remember now. Jeremy hates me…I hate me, how could I kill someone Adam?"

In a strange gesture that wasn't Adam…he held me against his chest in a hug, "you made a mistake, no one blames you for it. But I apologize…I've kept so many things from you these past years, but I did it because I care about you Valerie and I didn't want it to stand in the way of you getting better."

I looked up at him, "lying to me made it worse. I can't trust you anymore or myself…I've got no one. Adam you've made my life worse. Get out..." I pushed him away and closer to my pillow. He didn't move. "GET OUT!" I yelled.

Slowly he got up; "call if you need anything..." then he left my room.

I woke up in the afternoon to the phone ringing. I didn't care who it was, I didn't feel like talking to anyone. More importantly I didn't feel like myself. I put on my bikini and grabbed my purse before heading out of the room. Sitting down in the sand I watched the waves through my sunglasses, staring at them in a deep trance. I got up and started walking into town, passing by the silver and leather shops to one on the corner, it read "firearms". I went inside and told the guy what I wanted and paid for it before walking out with the gun in my pocket with ammunition. My eyes were focused on my path, in the hotel lobby I went to the front desk and asked for the room number of Jeremy Danvers.

The woman seemed hesitant to give it, so she called him first before giving it. "He said not to give you the number."

I walked away and decided I could find him myself. Using my sensitive nose I smelled him out around the small hotel grounds. I smiled as I found his room, first I decided to be nice and knock…holding the loaded gun behind my back. "Open up Jer…" When he didn't answer I kicked in the door to find him standing there.

"What the hell are you doing Valerie?"

I really had no clue what I was doing but I knew that this had to be done. "You thought you could just get mad at me and I'd forgive you again?" I held up the gun and pointed it at him. "So you're going to shoot me? Just like you did to your parents?"

I growled at him and flashed my eyes, "Just who do you think you are! And yea I'm going to shoot you." Looking at him he walked closer, "Don't move!" I ordered.

Jeremy didn't look afraid, but passive, "Valerie put the gun down and let's talk about this, alright?"

"NO!" I yelled and my hand started shaking as I pointed it at him. Closing my eyes I pulled the trigger, but when I opened them Jeremy wasn't there.

"Jer?" There was a hole in the wall of the bullet from my gun. Leaning against the wall I was starting to become more aware of what was going on. "Why am I doing this…?" I whined and held the gun tighter. Then he came out from the other room cautiously, his eyes didn't leave mine, "Don't you dare use your abilities." I waved the gun showing him I still had it as I sat on the ground. "I'm evil Jeremy…Adam says I killed them. I'm starting to remember it now, I didn't mean to kill them," I whispered looking at my feet. "I almost killed you too" I looked up with my eyes sore from crying, "I don't deserve to live, I can't live with all this…" I put the gun to my chest, against my heart with the intent to fire. At the last second Jeremy sent me a blast to try and change my mind. The blast only made me miss the target and I shot the other side of my chest. I gasped feeling the strong pain and dropped the gun.

"Why….?" I said knowing what he had done.

Jeremy pulled off his shirt and held it against my chest as he put me in his lap. "I love you Valerie, that's why."

Reaching into his pocket he took out his phone and called the local police to get an ambulance there. "Don't call…I'll miss the wedding. Please.." I begged him knowing that if I went into a hospital they'd keep me for a couple days at least. I was so oblivious to how severely I was hurt.

He cursed and started dialing another number before I passed out.

When I woke up I immediately sat up and fell back down in pain.

"Shhh you have to stay still."

"Jeremy? You're back….What happened?" Looking down my chest was bandaged and my eyes hurt…Adam was in a chair on the other side of the bed. "I thought I told you to get out?"

Adam and Jeremy looked at each other, and then at me.

"What? What happened to me? I feel worse than when Adam left."

Jeremy sat down on the bed and took my hand, "we should tell her Adam, I can't lie to her."

"Tell me what?" I could feel my head aching.

"Valerie…you tried to kill me," He could see the shock on my face and finished describing what happened, "Everything's okay though alright? You just shot yourself, that's why you need to stay still and you're lucky that it didn't do any damage."

My jaw dropped open and I looked around noticing this was not my hotel room, "are you sure? How come I don't remember all this?" I squeezed his hand as tight as I could, which wasn't much, "are you mad at me still? Now do you believe me?"

Jeremy looked away but replied yes.

Adam cleared his throat, "probably from all the stress and returning memories of your parents after years of being repressed has caused some kind of trigger. With some work we'll make sure it doesn't happen again."

It was hard for me not to address that it was Adam's fault this happened, but it seemed like he already knew that.

"Lay with me?"

Jeremy nodded and said goodbye to Adam before lying down next to me.

"I'm sorry...For what I did and for not telling you what happened. I was just scared you'd leave again. Jeremy, I've never been happier than when I am with you."