AN -Third chapter!! Sorry it took a little longer then I thought, anyway you know the deal I don't own twilight blah blah blah. Other then that I hope you like and enjoy...but don't forget to R&R!!

3.The Secret

All I saw was darkness was the only thing surrounded me. Then bright light came into my view. Everything was just so overwhelming the pain, remorse, but also happiness and love.

When the light finally faded away I opened my eyes, what I saw was not the Cullen house; no I saw a man, a pastor standing and talking to the people in a church. The pastor spoke in an English accent; how did I get to England? Suddenly my head turned to look out the window, that's when the reflection caught my eye; the reflection did not belong to me but to Carlisle. His face, hair, nothing had changed with time, the only thing I could see that had changed was the attire that everyone wore. Everything looked so old like it was from the 1600's.

Flashes started taking over. This time Carlisle was hunting something along with some other people. I saw what looked to be a human, but then it shed its skin and turned into an over grown wolf – the man wolf or werewolf looked to be just like any other wolf out there except for the fact that it was the size of a horse– the wolf was brought down and soon set ablaze. The werewolf was hollering in pain and misery.

That memory came and went, and a new one took it's place. This one had pain of a man; it was a pain at the jugular vein, a pain that made you wish for your death. A man was causing this pain for the other, he was biting into his neck. He then pulled away, looking at his victim – Carlisle – with a smile on his face that was so evil it sent chills down my entire body. The man was a vampire...and now so was Carlisle.

More flashes came in a blur. I saw Carlisle try and kill himself and then feed off a group of deer, then finally becoming a doctor, loving father and a caring husband.

The flashes soon came to a halt, my headache was slowly getting worse. I knew when this was over I was going to need a bottle of aspirin...a big bottle of aspirin. Here we go again.

Light, there was light again, my eyes were closed firmly; it soon faded out. Then my eyes opened again but this time I could tell I was seeing though someone else's eyes. Here, the person was standing in a line with a paper in hand; what looked like to be a solider – the attire was something you would find in the1860's. Looking at the paper it read Jasper Whitlock. Jasper joined the Confederate States Army in the Civil War.

The memory soon left being followed with another one. I saw Jasper making his way through the ranks quickly. That's when I saw a woman, a vampire. With his high rank and training she used him to work to claim a territory. Jasper would train young vampires, then killed them when they where know longer needed.

The memory soon faded out. Flash's started coming and going. I saw him meeting Alice, falling in love with her, meeting the Cullen's for the first time, and soon becoming part of the family. They looked so happy to be together.

His memories soon came to a halt, and for that I was thankful for. More light soon surrounded me; the only thing was the light never left. The eyes I was looking though opened. Pain. That's all that was felt all though the light. Looking around I saw nothing but white walls.

The flashes started; Jasper – so this must be Alice – she was looking at Jaspers ass as he came to diner; it's like she know he was going to be there. Soon the flashes showed me them meeting the Cullen's.

It then stopped, everything was just so over whelming. Light was starting to take over my sight, but I didn't, couldn't close my eyes. The first thing I saw was Carlisle and he was treating what looked to be a broken leg. The way Carlisle was moving his lips looked like he was saying…Esme.

A new memory came and took its place. Here she was getting married not to Carlisle but to another man. The man started abusing her; she became pregnant and had a son. The son died what looked to be just days later.

Next thing I know Esme was standing at a cliff ready to jump and that's just what she did. So much pain. My heart went out to this woman; then Carlisle was standing over her. Last thing I saw was Esme and Carlisle getting married.

Darkness, took over the light that I have become so a custom to. I would never wish to see these things and I just hope they don't any worse. Light. Someones memory's were coming to me; brightness then nothing.

There once more, was Carlisle treating patients for something; there was a woman begging him to do something. The eyes I was looking through were looking at the eyes of Carlisle; the look in Carlisle's eyes was the look of loneliness. This person, whose eyes were holding myself, loved there mother and did not wish to leave her. Not too long after that, like the other before them there was pain. The pain I wished I would never have to feel. Then it came to me, this was Edward.

Another memory came. This one was a happy memory; there stood Carlisle, Edwards vampire father and his wife, Edward's vampire mother, Esme.

Memories flashed as the family started to become a whole. There was no time before the bright light came back and took other.

People no men were all around the body that I was now in. These so called menwere beating and raping this women; Rosalie. She was the last one that I had not seen and I wish I had not. I would never wish this on anyone. They soon stopped and then just left her in the street to die.

A flash came and I saw the men that had beaten and raped Rosalie, being killed. She killed them but did not by drinking their blood.

Darkness clouded my vision for the last time I hoped. Light came and went. This person,the last person was Emmett. He looked to be hunting maybe, out of the corner of his eye was a bear and it was charging right for him. The bear was on him in no time mauling him, the pain was excruciating. Time past slowly buy. Blond hair was seen and wind was felt. Soon he too was a vampire.

The whole family was happy, happy to have one and other. Flashes of them smiling made me feel like I belonged somewhere and maybe, just maybe that place is here with the Cullen's.

My eyes shot open and I gasped for air, I looked around; the whole family was looking at me with wonder.

"Your heart stopped." My eyes shot to were Jasper was lingering near a wall. I blinked, now Jasper was right next to me, "Now why is that?"

Okay that's all folks...be nice R&R!!