BPOV:
Chapter 3: Don't Get Too Excited
As I drove down the road leading to La Push I remembered two things. One, Jake would probably be in school. Two, most importantly, he couldn't follow me into La Push. I wasn't sure why this made my heart sink further down into my chest.
I wasn't too surprised to see Jake sitting on his front porch and also wasn't surprised to have seen the dark figure stop in one of the trees closest to the boundary line.
I stopped my truck in front of Jake's house and got out.
"Jacob Black!" I yelled.
"Bella Swan!" he yelled, mockingly.
"What are you doing out of school?" I asked him.
"Wolf duty. And yourself?"
"I think you know why." I said.
"Oh yeah. How's Edward?" I cringed at the name. I guess I hadn't told Jacob about my decision. I had made it at the last second. All the pent up anger had influenced most of the decision but I wouldn't admit it was a mistake. It still remained a decision in my mind.
"I don't know." I said.
"What? You guys aren't...you know...'back'" he asked. What were we? The Brad and Angelina of Forks?
"No." I became furious at the way his face lit up at this new information.
"Why?" he asked, as if he cared.
"I don't know. Look I didn't come down here so you could play Dr. Phil. I need some car help." I hadn't lied to Jake. I really didn't know why, because my mind was so confused that I couldn't make sense of anything.
"OK sorry. What do you need? Oh, I can answer that one. A new car!" he laughed for a moment about his not-so-funny joke.
"Ha! No." I said, "I need you to put this radio in my truck." I handed him the radio I had gotten from Emmett and nodded. Jake started walking to my truck so I followed him. "How long will this take?" I asked.
"Oh not long. Maybe five minutes, at the most." he paused for a moment before he spoke again, "You know I probably could have guessed that you and the leech weren't together again. You know why?" What? Was he really asking me this? Was he seriously talking about this?
"Why Jacob?" I asked in a stern voice , trying to show him that it wasn't his business.
"Because you still look dead." he said simply, like we were talking about the weather.
"What?"
"It seemed like he gave you meaning. I try hard to fill those shoes but I just can't. I'm afraid that if you don't get him back soon then I will loose you. One of these days your just going to snap."
He had finished the radio and was leaning on my truck. "Thank you Jacob, but I don't need your advice. I am going to leave now."
With that I stepped into my truck and drove away. The trees sped past me and I knew the shadow was following again. Why did he refuse to leave me? Why was I so special to him? In that moment I wished I could read minds and see the answers first hand. I knew that it was a waist of time hoping for these things and it was getting late. I had been at Jake's longer then I had planned and I needed to get home and make dinner. My breakfast had been more of a lunch. I didn't want to think of why it had taken me so long to get downstairs this morning but the reason was following me through the trees.
I pulled my truck into its spot in front of the house and got out. As I walked up to the house I thought of what to make for dinner. Fish sounded OK but since I had no real apatite it was all for Charlie.
I made it to the kitchen and quickly made dinner. I was finishing the salad when Charlie walked in.
"Hey Bells! Is that you?" again with the obvious questions.
"Yeah I'm in the kitchen. Dinner's on the table. I already ate. I'm going up to my room. Good night Cha- dad!"
"Good night Bells!" he called from where he was hanging his work stuff.
I ran, well walked, up to my room where I collapsed onto my bed as I did every night. But tonight was different. I didn't cry tonight. I didn't have a reason to. He was back. Forks seemed like it used to when I lived in Florida. It was green and uninviting. There was nothing for me here. Nothing but Charlie.
Curling up in my blankets I fell asleep, and for the first time, woke up silently.
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I took a shower quickly and dressed in a frenzy. I was eager to go to school. I hadn't been in so long.
I pulled into the school parking lot and nearly fainted at the sight in front of me. A silver Volvo was parked in a space a few rows down from me. He was still going to school in Forks, but did he still have the same schedule?
I was about to open my car door when a figure appeared outside my window. I jumped and covered my face like an idiot. Slowly I looked to see who it was and saw a pair of golden eyes staring back at me. The little pixie girl looked like she would explode if I didn't get out soon so I opened the door, only to be crushed into a hug.
"Hey.....Alice..." I said, between gasps of air.
"Oh my god Bella I missed you so much!" then she pulled back and looked me sternly in the eyes.
"What? Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked.
"Why?! Why did you 'break up' with Edward? Are you mental child?" she prodded.
"I don't know Alice. Please I don't want to talk about it. He really hurt me."
"Yeah yeah. Cry me a river. You guys are meant to be! Stop it and take him back!" she was raising her voice nearly above normal human volume.
"Alice please stop yelling. People are staring." as I said that I noticed that I was right. People were staring, including him.
"How is this suppose to work Bella? My best friend is in love with my brother but refuses to be with him. Plus said brother is being a creeper by stalking my best friend because he loves her!!!"
"I have to go to class Alice. I really missed you. I will see you at lunch OK?"
"Yeah sure whatever."
With that I left her. She was staring after me with an intense glare. I would have to make it up to her somehow that did not include shopping.
I walked through the halls alone and tried to avoid the curious stares. When I saw my first period I stepped through the door and smiled politely at my teacher before going to find my seat. I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw who was sitting right next to me. He had the same schedule. Everything was the same.
I took my seat next to him and felt his stare on my face. I was sure my cheeks were stained crimson. How could I survive this? How could I endure sitting next to him without the flood gate of all my old feelings breaking. I couldn't help but notice that this was the first time I had shown emotion since he left. Since he left. I had to keep that in mind. He left me. He didn't care about me. Or did he? The confusion within my head caused me to scrunch up in a ball. My knees were tucked under my chin and I began hyperventilating. I was such a pansy. Soon I passed out, but not before I saw Edward stand from his desk and come catch me fall.
