Oh no! He wanted to know why I was crying. Should I tell him the truth? Or should I lie? I decided to go with neither. I wiped my wet cheeks and walked out of the classroom. I started walking at a fast pace toward my house trying to pull my thoughts together. I can't believe I acted like that. Well could you blame me? He came out of NOWHERE!

I heard somebody walking behind me. I whirled around quickly surprised at how close Seth was. My eyes widened. My heartbeat quickened.

I cleared my throat, "Are you following me?"

He gave a sheepish grin obviously embarassed that I came to that conclusion, "No, I just wanted to apologize, and was wondering why you started crying?"

Ugh. I wish he would stop asking that, "I'd really rather not talk about it right now."

"Why not right now?" he asked curiously.

I pretended to think about it for a second, "Well for one I barely know you, and two it's kind of private."

His face got a quizzical look. I knew he wasn't going to let it go right away. Maybe if I just tell him he'll leave me alone. No, I couldn't tell him. I would break down worse than before, and I don't know what he would think of me. I didn't want anybodys pity. So, I came to a conclusion I wouldn't tell him unless it was absolutely necessary.

"Will you eventually tell me?" he asked.

Yup. He wasn't going to leave it alone, "Are you going to let it go anytime soon?"

He smiled an evil grin, "Probably not. Be prepared I will most likely bug it out of you."

I sighed and looked into his eyes before I knew what I was doing I blurted it out, "I was raped!"

He jumped obviously surprised by the response he got out of me. I started to sob. What was wrong with me? I never just go saying stuff I don't want people to hear. Why was Seth different? Why was I so comfortable with him?

The next thing I knew Seth had his arms wrapped around me. I put my head on his chest. He was whispering words of comfort into my ear.

"Im sorry. I didn't know." He kept apologizing over and over again.

I was getting annoyed, "Why are you apologizing?" I asked anger in my tone.

He looked surprised and hurt. good.

"Because, It's something that hurts you." He said in a hurt voice.

I got a pain in my chest. I felt like crying. But not for the same reason as before. I didn't want to see this perfect..god hurt. It hurt me inside. It felt like someone was trying to rip my heart from my chest. Before I realized what I was doing my arms were around his waist. He stiffened obviously surprised by my reaction. He eventually relaxed and slid his arms around my shoulders. He probably was waiting for me to start crying or something. I don't know how long we stood there like that but all too soon he pulled away and said, "I should probably get you home."

I nodded and started walking in the direction of my house. When we got to the door he hugged me tightly to his chest and started walking away.

I went to my room not wanting to see my parents. They would notice I was crying and would think I was depressed over David, and then they would most likely make us move again. Thats what they did. Every time they thought I was going to get depressed again they would move me. Like being in a different location was going to make me happy. Yea right. What they didn't know is I cut. They don't know because, I always wear long sleeved shirts or jackets. When I wasn't wearing either of those I wore a wristband. Cutting made me happier a little bit. But not enough to make me totally forget.

It was my own little escape from the world. It's not like I wanted to commit suicide. I just wanted to know that I could actually feel. I never went too deep. Just enough that I bled a little.

I was laying on my bed, I rolled over and took the blade from my nightstand. I rolled my sleeve up to my elbow. I placed the blade to my wrist and drug it across. Little beeds of blood starting forming. I smiled to myself. The beeds starting connecting and the blood dripped from my wrist onto the carpet. Shit. My parents would wonder about that. I was too busy worrying about the blood on the carpet that I didn't notice the blood started to flow faster. This had never happened before. My arm started to go numb. I fell making a loud thud seeing as my head hit my nightstand.

Everything went black.