J O U R N E Y
Chapter 7: Children
Written by: BeneathTheSurface
Summary: Sequel to E X T R A H E L P. Twenty nine year old Gabriella Montez and her girlfriend twenty two year old Sharpay Evans are making a new chapter in their lives. Gabpay; femslash; GabriellaxSharpay
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Recap:
Before they knew it the timer went off, causing them to look at each other. This was it; they were going to find out with they were going to be parents to a living human being. Sharpay hoped she wouldn't screw up at being a parent; she just wanted to be a good mom…or dad, whatever she was going to be to it.
"Sharpay?!" she heard from in the bathroom, causing her eyes to dart to Gabriella; their eyes locked and she already knew…
It was as if time stopped in front of them as they stared down at the test. Gabriella was close to tears as she held it with a trembling hand. Sharpay watched her, not really knowing what to do for the first time in a long time. She never thought that rejection like this would hurt so badly.
Maybe this was a test telling us we're not as strong as we used to be. Maybe we need to settle things first before we have a baby, Sharpay thought, placing her arm around Gabriella's shoulder, who was still holding the test.
"This isn't fair," she whispered in a shaky voice, before throwing the test into the garbage and pulling Sharpay's arm off her shoulder, walking out of the room. Sharpay didn't want to push anything on Gabriella tonight, not with what has happened. She wanted to try again, but she just wasn't sure if telling Gabriella right now was a good idea, so she decided that a good night sleep would do them some good.
She changed into her pajamas, which her simple, then walked out of their bedroom to find Gabriella asleep on the couch. She noticed the puffy redness on around her eyes, which showed she was crying and it sort of made her feel bad that she wasn't there to comfort her, but at the same time, she knew Gabriella needed to be alone.
Sharpay sighed, scooping up her light fiancé in her arms. Sure she wasn't the strongest person alive, but Gabriella wasn't that heavy, so she struggled a little bit but not terribly. She made it to the bed with enough strength left in her system and placed Gabriella under the covers, then got in herself, drifting into a deep sleep.
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Gabriella woke up to the sun's bright rays, showing through the window of the bedroom. She didn't remember coming in there last night, but when she turned over to see the blonde next to her, she knew that she had something to do with it.
As she got up, memories of last night just piled into her head; she remember the painful stab in her heart she felt when she saw the little line on the test. She didn't even know what to think at that moment. She wasn't even sure she wanted to try again, in fear of seeing that negative again.
She stepped into the shower and allowed the warm water, wash away her fears and stress. She closed her eyes, feeling like all the negativity was being washed away. Gabriella let her mind wander, when she felt two warms wrap around her stomach and someone's breath against her neck. The person behind her lightly kissed her shoulder, making her feel all warm inside.
Gabriella knew who it was obviously. She wanted this baby, so they could get back to the way they were. She loved this girl so much and she never thought they'd make it as far as they did. She didn't like giving up and she most certainly knew Sharpay didn't either. She felt Sharpay's arms move away from her body, so she turned around to face the blonde who had a sad expression on her face.
Gabriella pulled Sharpay's arms back around her, laying her head on her "Don't let go, please," she whispered to her as she felt the warm salty tears, slip from her eyes. Sharpay sighed sadly, holding the crying brunette close to her body, not letting go for the life of her…
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Gabriella was getting ready for work as Sharpay sat on the couch in silence, just thinking about how she should approach the idea of talking to her fiancé. She wanted to try again; they had to. She knew that it wasn't going to be easy for either one of them, but they had to try again. Having a child with Gabriella is a dream of hers and she didn't want that to slip away; not that easily.
"Okay I'll be home at five, like usual," Gabriella said walking out of the room, letting her heels click on the floor.
"Gabs, should you really go to work today? I mean after what happened last night," Sharpay shrugged, getting up to face the woman.
"It'll help me get my mind off the disappointment," she replied, pulling her purse over her shoulder and grabbing her keys.
Sharpay sighed, walking towards the door deciding to stand in front of it. "Sharpay, I have to go to work, so move," Gabriella demanded to the blonde.
"We have talk about this," the blonde said softly to her.
"No we don't," Sharpay moved out of the way slightly.
"If you push me away anymore then you already are, then I might not be here at five when you come back," Sharpay whispered to her in a hash tone, walking away from the door, leaving Gabriella frozen in shock.
Gabriella turned around, placing her things down. She knew she had to talk to Sharpay about it some time, but she just was hurting so badly, why couldn't she understand that?
"What is that suppose to mean?" she asked her storming towards her, as Sharpay turned around slowly with a hard face.
"Exactly how it sounds. You're taking this shit out on me and it isn't fair. I want to try again, and I know you're afraid about it coming back negative again, but life has rejection; we know this. But if you're too damn stubborn to talk to me about it, what's the point?" Sharpay told her, with a serious look on her face.
"You obviously don't understand. I thought I was pregnant, but it hurts and you obviously don't understand that—,"
"BUT YOU ACT LIKE YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE EFFECTED BY THIS!" Sharpay yells at her, angry that she doesn't get it. "You don't get it. I wanted a baby just as much as you did, I still do because it was gonna be with you. This a mild bump in the road. The first time is always the hardest, some people are just lucky enough to get it on the first try.
"Gabriella I am still as in love with you as I was four years ago and that won't change. But don't take this out on me; talk to me," Sharpay pleaded as tears stung the brims of her eyes.
Gabriella looked down with glassy eyes, shaking her head "I don't know," she whispered, causing the blonde to shake her head.
"No, no not again. You are not gonna do that again. You promised you weren't going to shut me out and if that's what you're gonna do then let me know and I'm gone," Sharpay said, storming into the bedroom, slamming the door behind her. She began sobbing, against the door.
She never wanted this to happen. She knew they had to get through this. This was the worst fight they've been in and she just wanted them to get through this; she loved her. As she continued to sob, she walked towards her dresser and opened the first drawer, pulling out a little shirt that said Future Princess in Training. She stood there, with tears trickling down her cheeks, holding it close to her chest before walking to sit on the bed, holding it close as she cried.
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"Mark I just really need to take off today…yeah I can't…thanks bye," Gabriella hung up the phone, placing it back on the cradle. She sighed, placing her head down on the table. She didn't think it'd be this hard. She prepared herself for something like this to happen, but at the same time when it comes at you like this; you really feel the effects of it.
She didn't know Sharpay was hurting as bad as her. She shouldn't have been so sure that even though she was supposed to carry it that the person that was planning to become a parent with, wasn't going to feel the same pain. Gabriella felt terrible. She didn't want to lose Sharpay. She was her everything and if she lost her; she'd be nothing.
She knew she had to talk to her; not yell. Gabriella got up from where she sat and opened the bedroom door slowly "Sharpay," she said softly, before she completely entered to see the blonde sleeping, but she was holding something.
Gabriella walked closer to her fiancé and pulled the piece of clothing out of her soft grasp and read the saying on it. She smiled softly down at the sleeping blonde and leaned down to kiss her softly. "I love you," she whispered, before placing it back next to Sharpay, then shutting the door behind her.
Gabriella walked out of their apartment; she needed to talk to somebody, so she decided that Mark would be the best option because with the case that Chad was going through, Ryan was busy as well as Chad.
She drove to the firm quickly, went through the doors, surprising the receptionist because she already called in sick, but she just walked past her. She walked down to Mark's office and opened the door, shocking yet another person.
"Gabriella, I thought you were home?" Gabriella sighed, sitting down in front of his desk.
"I was, but I needed to talk to someone," she started as he nodded for her to continue "Sharpay and I got into this huge fight because I was being insensitive to her feelings about the fact that I wasn't pregnant. I thought that I could be the only one upset about the whole ordeal. I didn't realize she was too,"
"Well of course, I remember when my wife and I were trying she miscarried once and for a year and a half there was nothing; it was devastating on both her and I," he explained.
"I'm sure, but I wasn't sure I wanted to try again because I feared it'd come back negative again, but when I walked into the bedroom to talk to her I found her asleep holding this little piece of clothing and I knew…I knew I wanted to try again for her," she finished, making him smile.
"She's really grown up," she nodded, smiling a small smile. "But that's probably the best thing for you two to do, but before you decide to become pregnant again; talk to her; talk things through and work it out. I remember many fights in the past, but that's what it takes. You will get angry and you will be upset, but in any case the results are the most rewarding," he told her.
"Thank you Mark, so much; this helped a lot," she told him, getting up walking around his desk, hugging him tightly, then walked out of the office and firm entirely.
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Gabriella walked back into the apartment "Sharpay!" she yelled, but no answer, so she thought she might be sleeping still, but when she opened the door again; she wasn't there, but there was a note laying flat on the bed.
Dear Gabriella,
I didn't leave, I swear. I just got a call from Martin, telling me I have to greet fans at a hospital today and I don't know when I'll be done. I'm fearing what I'm going to see, but I just wanted you to know that I forgive you. I heard you come in and whisper to me. I love you too, but this doesn't mean are done talking about this. I'll be back soon.
Love Always,
Shar
Sharpay placed a smile on her face as she walked through the children's hospital floor. She was scared to see all the injured and sick children because she was never good with these things, but she knew she had to do it.
As Martin brought her into a fun area for the kids, she saw many of them with bald heads playing games, so she knew they had cancer. She took a deep breath, when she felt Martin's hand on her shoulder "It'll be okay," he whispered, causing her to nod distantly.
One of the nurses clapped her hands "Okay you guys we have a special guest here today. Welcome Sharpay Evans," she told them causing them to smile and run up to her.
"Hey guys," she said with a big smile, pretending that she wasn't hurting inside for them.
"I love you,"
"I'm you're biggest fan,"
Many of them were saying, until she noticed a little girl in the back. She had short blonde hair, but she was playing by herself, so she knew she was different from them all. Sharpay didn't know why, but she felt like she had to go over there.
She walked around the kids as the nurse calmed them down and walked towards the little girl. She leaned down in front of her "Hello,"
The girl looked up and Sharpay noticed she had the most beautiful big blue eyes she's ever seen "Hi," she whispered timidly. It wasn't everyday you get to meet a celebrity.
"Why are you playing by yourself?" she asked, finally sitting down next to her, holding her legs close to her chest.
"I'm not like them. They don't like me; no one really does," she told her in a small voice.
"I bet that's not true. You're mommy and daddy love you," she told her.
"No they don't. They never came back to see me," she told her, shocking Sharpay. She didn't understand why some parents are so cruel to their children. If you're going to bring children into this world, have the decency to take care of them. She couldn't understand why people that want children have such a hard time getting them, but people who are stupid enough to want protect themselves get them instead.
"Well I'll tell you what, I like you already and if you're interested, I'll come back as much as possible to visit you," she told her pointing to her.
The little girl looked up and smiled and for the first time since she's been there she saw life in her eyes. "I like that; promise?"
Sharpay nodded. "I cross my heart," she said, making a cross like thing on her heart. "What's your name?" she asked her.
"Lilly," she told her, making her smile.
"Well Lilly, I'll see you tomorrow, okay?" she told her as she saw Martin telling her to wrap it up. Lilly nodded frantically, before hugging her. She placed her arms around the small girl, holding her close to her heart. She felt tears welling up as she prayed that something goes right in her life from now on.
Yes ANOTHER UPDATE!! Um...the drama is just beginning. There will be a lot of problems, some will be resolved, others will resurface. Just a heads up really.lol But I just received 100 reviews, so thank you all VERY much and the original that started this all; E X T R A H E L P has been nominated in that UFO awards thing, so thank you for that as well; whoever nominated me.lol
Anyway, please review again on this chapter. I will give you another heads up, that I didn't revise the last few parts, so if there are many or any mistakes; I apologize. But anyway, thanks again and please review.
