J O U R N E Y
Chapter 9: My Immortal
Written by: BeneathTheSurface
Summary: Sequel to E X T R A H E L P. Twenty nine year old Gabriella Montez and her girlfriend twenty two year old Sharpay Evans are making a new chapter in their lives. Gabpay; femslash; GabriellaxSharpay
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In the last two months, life has been pretty good for the couple. They haven't been fighting at all and Gabriella went back to do the procedure for the second time. They decided to wait until they made an appointment with the OB/GYN to find out the results, rather then find out on their own again.
Sharpay and Gabriella have seen Lilly as much as possible. Sharpay saw her everyday and Gabriella saw her every weekend. The little girl looked like she was always happy to see them and that was always great to see for Sharpay. She loved the little girl and she'd do anything for her. Apart of her thought, she might not be getting better though. When she asked her if she got sick at all, she'd say 'a lot' or 'a little'; never 'no'. She prayed that she'd get better, so she could adopt her or something; anything to save this little girl.
Sharpay walked around the empty penthouse; Gabriella went to work early, so she was alone again. She just got done fixing herself some breakfast when her cell phone went off. She retrieved it off the charger in their room and answered it.
"Hello," she said.
"Shar, have you seen the paper?" It was Martin, asking in a frantic tone of voice.
"No why?"
"Well look quickly," he urged causing her to run out to the kitchen in search of the newspaper Gabriella brought in this morning. She opened it to the front page and scanned the headline, then the article, causing her to let a gasp, almost dropping the phone.
"Oh God," she whispered, holding her free hand to her mouth in disbelief.
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Gabriella typed a long on her computer, searching through old case reports that have been solved since Mark told her to quiz herself on her own and decide on what she'd do in certain situations before checking what the resulting verdict was, when she received a phone call.
"Hello Gabriella Montez speaking," she answered.
"Gabs, it's Mark come next door there is something you must see; it's urgent," he told her, causing her to become rather worried. What could have happened within the hour she's been there?
She said she was coming over and when she hung up the phone, she immediately got out of her chair and walked out of her office to Mark's; which was next door literally. She opened the door to see him look up at her and sigh. He took his glasses off and slid the newspaper towards her, causing her to look at it. Her eyes widened at what she read and her eyes began to water.
"You might want to go home and see what this is about," he told her in a soft tone, causing her give him a nod and she walked out quickly and out of the firm. She wasn't going to take off work, but she was going to get to the bottom of this breaking news.
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Gabriella stormed into the apartment; furious, slamming the door behind her and immediately Sharpay walked out with puffy red eyes.
"What the hell is this bullshit in the paper?" Gabriella yelled, walking towards her causing to the blonde to look down "SHARPAY ANSWER ME!" she yelled louder.
"Please…calm down," Sharpay begged in a whisper.
"Is this true?" Gabriella asked in a softer tone, even if it did sound still rather angry. She pointed to the paper "Sharpay, were you ever pregnant?" she asked her.
Sharpay's bottom lip trembled uncontrollably, but she nodded as the tears began to fall from her eyes. "Was it Chad's?" Sharpay nodded again. "Oh my God," Gabriella whispered, letting angry tears threaten to spill over her eye lids.
"It was a long time ago; before I met you. I swear to you that nothing has happened within the four years I've been with you," Sharpay told her through her crying.
"And that's supposed to make it okay? Sharpay, we're trying to have a child and yet you had your chance and fucking aborted it!" Gabriella yelled at the end throwing the paper on the floor. "What if I can't get pregnant? You gonna carry it?"
"Gabriella, I'd do that because it'd be with you. I aborted it for a good reason. Chad and I made a mistake, we weren't careful and I wasn't ready to me a Mom. If I had that baby and it one day wondered who its parents were; do you think it'd be happy to find out they're both gay? No, but I'm ready now and I'm ready to take on the responsibility because it will be with you; I love you," Sharpay sobbed, holding Gabriella's hands.
"Please look at me," Sharpay begged, trying to look Gabriella in the eyes, but the brunette just kept turning her head. Gabriella shook her head furiously, pulling her hands out of the blonde's grasp.
"I can't right now," she said before walking out of the apartment, slamming the door behind her, leaving Sharpay sobbing.
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Gabriella has been gone for over two hours now; Sharpay's guess was she went back to work. The blonde sat on the couch, staring blankly at the blank television in front of her. She couldn't figure out how this even got out. The only time she mentioned it was over the phone to Chad at Coffee Bean one morning, but –
"That's it," she whispered, sitting straight up "Someone must have been in the bushes and overheard our conversation and placed it out in the paper to ruin mine and Chad's reputation; fucking paparazzi," Sharpay said to herself.
She couldn't stand much more of this sitting alone in the empty apartment, so she decided since she's calmed down to see Lilly in the hospital; she always made her feel better. Sharpay was already dressed, so she just grabbed her keys and was out the door of hers and Gabriella's apartment on her way to the hospital.
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Sharpay practically ran through the entrance since paparazzi were following her, after that story was published; who wouldn't? She walked to the front desk, breathing heavily.
"Hi Jeannie, I'm here to see Lilly," Sharpay said. She already knew the nurse in the front desk because she's been there everyday since she's met the little girl. Jeannie looked up at her, meeting her eyes and she immediately felt the sadness within the blonde.
"Sharpay, I'm going to get the doctor. He wanted to speak with you, so just go into her room and wait there," she told her, confusing the young blonde, but she nodded walking in ready to embrace the little girl, but she wasn't in there; she was probably playing.
"Miss. Evans," Sharpay turned around to see a man about in his early 40's, bald with round framed glasses.
"Yes?" she said.
"Hello, I'm Dr. Henry; I hear you visit Lilly everyday and are practically her only family," he concludes; she nods. "I have some terrible news,"
This hit Sharpay; she needed to know if Lilly was okay "Is she okay?" she whispered concerned.
"Her cancer worsened and unexpectedly…" his voice trailed slightly "We couldn't do anything; she passed away last night. I am terribly sorry," he told her in a grieving tone of voice.
Sharpay felt the air from both of her lungs being sucked out of her and her legs giving out. "No, please tell me there's been a mistake," Sharpay begged through glassy eyes; he just shook his head with sad eyes. Her bottom lip began to tremble. How could this happen? She completed her, why is this happening? All in one fucking day; Sharpay felt like nothing was going right anymore.
Dr. Henry walked out to give her some time alone. Sharpay laid down on Lilly's bed, holding a bear that she gave her a couple of weeks ago, close to her body. "God hates me. Just when things are starting to fall into place, you have to fucking fuck everything up!" She yelled "I hope you're fucking happy!"
She got off the bed, storming out of the room and out of the hospital; not caring who took her picture at this point…
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That night, Gabriella slept in their bed. They didn't speak at all since their encounter that early afternoon. Gabriella tossed and turned in the large bed; it wasn't the same without the blonde in it with her. She felt like this back in Boston and now it was worse. She missed her holding her at night and just being next to her. Gabriella knew she probably overreacted again, but she just wished that Sharpay told her this secret.
She slipped out of the bed, walking across the hard wood floor into the living room to see Sharpay sitting straight up holding the bear, staring and playing with the little pieces of fur on it.
"Shar," she whispered, slightly tired, but she received no response. She walked around the couch and sat down next to the blonde, who didn't even bother moving. "Sharpay, please talk to me. Why do you have Lilly's bear?"
Sharpay turned her head slowly towards Gabriella to look at her. Her eyes were puffy red and more tears were threatening to spill from her eyes. "She's gone Gabs," she whispered through her trembling lips.
"What?" Gabriella whispered in disbelief.
"She's gone; she's dead Gabs. What am I gonna do without her? This isn't fair, this isn't fair," Sharpay sobbed, causing Gabriella to grab a hold of her, holding her close to her body as Sharpay wrapped her shaking arms around the brunette's waist, sobbing into her tank.
"I love her Gabs. I wanted her to be apart of our family when she got better," she whispered into her shirt. Gabriella's eyes were beginning to water as she held the blonde. She kissed her on the top of the blonde's head.
"No matter what, she was apart of the family. She was like a daughter to both of us and that won't change. She was an amazing little girl and she's in a better place now; she isn't in pain anymore," she whispered into her ear as Sharpay continued to cry. She ran her hand through her blonde locks, until she felt Sharpay's sobbing become controlled and then the slight sound of breathing; she was asleep. Soon enough, while Gabriella held her fiancée close; she fell into a deep slumber as well.
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The sun showed brightly through the apartment early that morning as the two women laid cuddled up on the couch, in the same position they fell asleep in. Sharpay awoke due to the brightness and glanced up at Gabriella who still was holding her in a grasp in her sleep. Sharpay smiled at that. Even with everything they went through last night and that afternoon; she was still there for her.
Gabriella's eyes began to flutter open and she came face to face with Sharpay, making her smile slightly. "Hey," she whispered.
"Hey," Sharpay replied "I'm sorry, I didn't tell you. I didn't think it mattered since it was before we met and because it was so long ago,"
"It's okay; it's over with," Gabriella accepted "But how are you doing with the whole Lilly situation?"
"I want bury her. I feel like we were more her family then anyone else and I think she'd like a burial to show we care," Sharpay concluded as Gabriella nodded in agreement.
"Okay, well I'm taking the rest of the week off. I need to be here with you and plus I have an appointment with Dr. Paige soon, so I need to be home," Gabriella explained.
Sharpay nodded. "Okay, I guess I'm gonna call the funeral home and the hospital to release Lilly's body to us," Sharpay said glumly. Gabriella sighed, as she watched Sharpay walk to the kitchen and grab the cordless phone off the hook and called the hospital. She couldn't believe that Sharpay was actually handling this all by herself, but she was and now she was there to help her through it.
Gabriella got off the couch and turned on Sharpay's laptop, then walked in and grabbed her cell phone. When she got back the screen was up and she couldn't help, but let the tears take over her eyes. Her desktop screen was a picture of the three of them; Sharpay, Lilly, and her at the hospital about three weeks ago. They were sitting on the bed; all smiling as Sharpay and her laid close to the little girl.
Gabriella remembered how happy they all were and Gabriella just wished that, that they could experience that again, but with their own child.
"Okay thank you very much Dr. Henry, bye," Sharpay hung up the phone "They're going to release her body to us as soon as we have prepared everything else," she told her fiancée, who just nodded.
Sharpay walked over to the computer to see what she was looking at and when she got there she couldn't help but smile. "I remember that day so clearly," Sharpay whispered.
"Yeah, it's amazing how everything can be so perfect and then not be in a flash," Gabriella replied as Sharpay nodded.
"Yeah, but we need to call the funeral home and pick out a coffin we know that Lilly would like," Sharpay told her, trying to be as strong as possible for Gabriella. She saw it this way she had her cries last night; it was time for Gabriella to have hers. She just didn't want go through this again; she never would want to deal with the thought of having to bury another child.
Hopefully Gabriella will be pregnant and they'll be able to have a wonderful family together; she hoped.
Before you all decide to kill me (holds hands up for protection) I did this for a good reason. As you can tell most of you were right about the secret, but barely any of you were right about Lilly. I'm sorry I killed the poor little girl off the story, but that's the direction I wanted to go on. Sharpay and Gabriella are going through a terrible time right now, but they're together; they're in it together now.
Gabriella is going for her appointment next chapter and hopefully they'll have the child they always dreamed of...or she could not be pregnant; you never know with me, do you? Anyway, thank you for the reviews. I love you guys and continue to read and enjoy the story because it's going to get better for Gabpay, but as you know a surprise visitor will come.
Oh and by the way, I have a new Gabpay idea for a story. I already made a written trailer and I completed a video one today as well. None are posted yet because I'm waiting until this is over but know that it's center strictly on Sharpay and Gabriella, but it's mainly Sharpay's side; she's the more important character.
So again, thanks for the reviews on here, please review again and yeah that's it. I'm too tired to think of anything else.
