LPOV
I saw the fire in his eyes go out. For the first time, I saw tears slide down his face. "Yeah," he agreed softly. "Hell."
"James?" I whispered.
"Yeah Lily?"
"I'm sorry. I didn't know."
"Yeah. I know."
Silence filled the corridor. "James?" I whispered again.
"Yeah?"
"Can I talk to you about it?"
"If that's what you want."
"It's what I need.
"My parents were always supportive of me. Even when I was little, and did accidental magic, they never scolded. My mum didn't want me to do it because she didn't want me to get hurt, but sometimes my dad and I would go out and I would show him what I could do.
"Then, I met Severus. He told me what I was, and explained all the things that had been happening. I know you don't like him, but he was the first friend I had in the magical world.
"And then the letter came. My sister Petunia was so mad. She still hasn't spoken to me, except to sneer, or say something to hurt me. She wrote to Dumbledore, asking to go too. Sev saw his reply, and wanted to know how she had done it. So, we snuck into her room, and we read the letter. It was a kind letdown. She never forgave me for reading that." Pain lit up in Lily's eyes. "And then it was September 1st. The first day of this new part of my life. The one that Petunia refused to be in. She hasn't even really spoken to me since that day, when she called me a freak. She told me I was going to a school for freaks, to keep us out of the way of the public. To hear that come from her, when she had been my best friend, just kind of broke me. Sev told me to pay it no mind, that she was just a Muggle, but it still hurt.
"So, off we went to Hogwarts. Everything went great those first few years, except for you pranking me and Sev all the time. I must say, I rather hated you for it. But after a while, I came to expect it.
"In our fourth year, you asked me to Hogsmeade. At first, I was sure that I was hearing things, but you just kept looking at me, like I was supposed to answer you. I didn't know what to do. I've never read a book on what to say when your enemy asks you on a date. So, I yelled. I screamed. I hoped that you would get the point. But of course, you didn't.
"Remember after our Defense OWLs? You asked me out while you were hanging Sev up-side down? That made me so mad. He really was my best friend. Then, he called me that― that word. After I stuck up for him, he called me that word. And you― you stuck up for me. You told him off after I had been so horrible to you. Thank you.
"And then I got that letter. I know that my parents and I hadn't been all that close, but they were my parents. The rocks that would be there when I came back. And now they're gone." Lily blinked back tears. "I'll never see them again. My mum won't give me any more advice on boys. My dad won't walk me down the aisle." The tears she had desperately tried to hold back streamed down her face.
"Lily?"
"Yeah?" She said thickly.
"Can I talk to you about it?"
"If it will make you feel better."
"My parents and I were close. It was just us, so we did a lot together. They were radiant and kind. They were both pure-bloods, but they didn't care about stuff like that.
"I knew they loved me. We were rich, so there were always presents under the tree. The physical proof of their love. But more than that was their actions. My mum would read to me every night. She had a different voice for each character. My dad wasn't quite so obvious with it. He always gave me a word of encouragement or a bit of advice when I was down. Sometimes, he'd say something that made absolutely no sense, just to get me laughing.
"Then she died. My mum did. It was never the same. My dad keeps going by working. I think he's just using work as a distraction though.
"I haven't spoken to him since the start of the term." Tears rolled down his cheeks, and his voice was chocked and wobbly. "I haven't really spoken to him since the night before she died. We were laughing, and having such a good time. Then she died." His voice went up a little as he spoke the last sentence. "She died, and he doesn't talk anymore. I try to be strong for her, but it's hard. It's just so hard!" He put his head on his knees, and silent sobs racked through his body.
After a moment, Lily put her arm around him and her head on his shoulder, and let her tears overcome her.
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