Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's Anatomy, nor any of its characters. If I did, Derek would be fine with breathing for Meredith, and George wouldn't be married.
A/N: Ok, so who HATED Thursday's episode!?! I mean, I like how everyone is finally looking healthy, but what's going on with Derek? SERIOUSLY! Anywho, here's my next update, I sorta rushed through all the previous stuff because that's not what I want my plot line to be about. So I hope this one's better! Italics are flashbacks.
A/N 2: Just to let you know, my chapters may be short, but I'll have them up quickly. It's your choice really: short updates often or long updates not so often.
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I woke up to her in my arms. I almost forgot how nice that was. Even her innocent snoring was cute. Now, this was the way things were supposed to be.
My pager starts blaring from my side, and I remember I actually have a job. Luckily, the only doctor who came to check on her during that night was Addison, being the OB/GYN, and I was the neurosurgeon, so no one else really needed to check on her. There were always the nurses though; it was probably already ALL over the hospital.
I walk out of her room and head towards my office to shower and get ready for the long day ahead of me.
Meredith's POV
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I woke up the next morning alone. I started to panic, and then all the memories from the day before came flooding back.
I was walking out of Joe's, after taking many shots due to the recent sightings of Addison and Derek. All I wanted to do was drown out everything in my life. Tequila had a good way of doing just that. After several shots, I was stumbling outside to my cab. Suddenly, a strong hand pulled me into an alley.
"You know you want me," Said the light haired vet.
"Finn! Finn get off me!!" I yelled trying tot push him away.
"I know you're not a virgin, you slut. I know had sex with Derek at the prom. I know all about you." He spat. "You were making eyes with him over my shoulder. You think you're so innocent."
"Finn, please don't do this." I pleaded.
"No, you've kept me waiting long enough. I want my turn."
It all happened in slow motion. He started to feel me up. His body was on top of me, pinning me down on the cold concrete. I tried screaming, but his mouth was always on top of mine.
"I am just getting what I deserve Meredith."
I tried pleading with him over and over again. But he still kept going.
When he was done he got up and walked away. Just like nothing happened. But he turned around before he got too far. I thought he was going to come help me, but instead he spat "Tell anyone and I'll make sure it's worse next time, much worse."
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I started shivering. The feeling of his hands on me, it was frightening. I couldn't shut my eyes again. Every time I did, there he was, mocking me. I couldn't handle it.
I sat there for a while, just staring out the window. Then I heard a soft knock at the door. I really wasn't in the mood for visitors, but I let them come in anyway. I knew who it was even before I saw them.
In walked Christina, George, Izzie, and even Alex. I hated the looks of pity on their faces, but they were my family. Well, as close as I had to it, so I let them in, physically and emotionally.
"So I guess you all heard what happened?" I asked them.
"Mer, I'm so sorry, no one deserves to go through what you did." It was George speaking. I could tell without even looking at him that he was hurting.
"She doesn't need your pity George." This time it was Christina. God, now I knew why she was my best friend. "My person is strong. She can get through this," Though her tough words were overshadowed by her emotional voice.
For the first time since it happened, I looked at them. I took in their pitiful faces.. Even the usually tough Alex had tears in his eyes.
Izzie was the next to speak. "God Christina, don't be so insensitive. She's been through one of the toughest experiences a woman can go through. She's aloud to be a little insecure."
This is not what I needed right now.
"ENOUGH! I can't take it anymore! No, I'm not fine. But I'm not a fragile piece of glass you have to worry about breaking either. I cannot take the pitiful glances anymore. So stop tip-toeing around me and tell me what the hell is wrong!" I exclaimed.
"Look, we're just trying to do what's right here." This time it was Alex. "Mer, we all love you. And we want to be here for you. You have been raped." This comment earned a hard elbow in the stomach from Izzie.
"No Izzie, she wants the truth, I'm going to give it to her, no anesthesia." He turned back to me. "You were raped, there's no way around that. Luckily, you got no STDs and were not pregnant. But you did get a small aneurism and severe concussion, which you know can lead to permanent memory loss. The aneurism was small enough to fix itself, and you obviously have all your memory, which is good."
Everyone stood there. Waiting to see how I took the news. Watching me like a zoo animal. I was about to snap at them when I saw there faces again, this time in a different light. They were ones of pure fear, worry, and compassion. My mother had never looked at me that way, not when I fell off my bike, not when I broke up with my first boyfriend, never.
These people were my family. They loved me so much, and I loved them.
"Thank you guys so much." I said in a very emotional voice. Their faces showed their shock in my change of mood.
Until now Izzie had been quiet, but now she was the first to speak.
"Oh Mer, we'll always be here for you." With that she crawled into my bed and wrapped her arms around me. This time, I didn't fight it.
The next to climb in was the usually anti-physical Christina. She too wrapped her arms around me. Alex and George were quick to follow. We were all crammed into the tiny hospital bed, and surprisingly it felt like the most comfortable place in the world.
I was surrounded by all the people I love; all except one.
"Where's Derek?" I question.
"He, um, had to get to work. He wanted me to tell you he'd be back later though." George cautiously explained, unsure of how to tell me.
"Oh, he probably had to explain to Addison why he spent the night in his ex-mistress's bed." I said, more to myself than the others.
"Actually….." His voice echoed through my mind. I knew who it was even before looking. I look up to see Derek leaning against the door. His fierce blue eyes piercing mine.
There was something else in his eyes though. Hurt.
"Mer, there's something we need to talk about."
Christina, my angel, begins "Yeah, we need to get on with rounds anyway. Come on guys, " she gives the rest of them her perfected glare, they reluctantly get up and leave, "We'll be back later Mer."
"Meredith." His voice brings me back to those wonderfully blue eyes.
"Derek, I understand. I get it now. She is your family. You couldn't just give up on that. You wouldn't be you if you didn't try-"
I was cut short by his lips on mine. I pulled back sharply, fear showing in my eyes. I know Derek would never hurt me, but I couldn't stop seeing Finn. Someone I also thought would never hurt me. Instead I blamed it on the wife.
"Derek, I can't. I'm not going to be a home wrecker. I can't do this again."
"Meredith, Addison and I are done. I signed the papers last night. Seeing you, here, it broke me. I love you. I have been in love with you since the day I saw you in that bar. It's an all-encompassing love that takes over me. And seeing you hurting, I…I just can't take it. So Meredith, I'm in this. I'm in this with all my heart." He finished with tears in his eyes. He probably knew that wasn't the only reason I pulled back, but he was nice enough to let it go. "And I am willing to wait as long as it takes until you're ready."
By now tears were running down my face. These were happy tears though. I was too over-whelmed to say anything, so instead I pulled him into a close hug. He slipped his shoes off and climbed in the tiny, uncomfortable hospital bed with me; just as he had done the night before. I loved this man, I really did. I just had to find the strength inside myself to let my boundries and let him back in again.
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A/N: WOW-o! This was the longest story I've ever written! 5 pages in Word to be exact. Thanks so much for the reviews! Keep that up please! Again, sorry if my medical facts are wrong. Also, I really don't hate Finn!! But he was the only character Mer knew that would have any reason to hate her. So please don't hate me for that. Also, remember that no one else knows it was Finn.
I'm not sure how far I will go with this. Does anyone have any requests on what they want to see? I need some ides to keep this going. I'm thinking at least until the trial, but then what? Any suggestions?
