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MITCHIES POV
"because if you don't tell me why, I will have to make up a reason my self as to why you were on medication and you know just how creative and irrational I am!" he cried before over-exaggeratingly (AN/ is that even a word? Oh well it is now!) shuddering. I cracked. laughing I gently shoved him before turning serious.
"I'll try" I whispered.
"thats all I ask for Mitch" Shane said before pecking my forhead. we were both surprised at his action but it just felt so natural. I smiled up at him letting him know it was ok. I began my story.
"well 2 years ago I started to date my best friend. My best friend who I had been best friends with for, practically my whole life. We were madly in-love with each other." I quickly stole a look at Shane to see if he was listening. He was. Quite intently actually. He nodded, signaling me to continue. So I did.
"well as I said we were madly in love, well a little bit too inlove for his case. He started getting extreemely clingy and wouldnt leave me alone at all for a second! I couldnt figure out his strange actions but I still loved him none the less."
"he got so clingy that he would threaten any guy who so much as glanced at me. It got to be too sufficating and I ended up breaking up with him. He pleaded and begged me to give him another chance, that he only did what he did because he loved me. So I gave him another chance because no matter what I told my self I did still love him."
"after a month is was ok but than he got clingy again but also a little...intense..."
I looked away hidding some tears, Shane noticed and pulled me chin towards him so I was looking straight in his eyes.
"you don't have to continue if you don't want to." he said with the most sincerity I have ever heard.
"no, n-no its ok. I'm ok."
"you sure?" he asked, still concerned.
"yea...well as I said he got...intense...he was driving me home after a date once and he parked at some random beach, in the middle of no where. Looked me up and down than started to kiss me very roughly. I was ok at first until he started feeling me up and down and tried undoing my bra and-" I stopped and gulped. I looked at Shane quickly before continuing.
"he tried to undo my bra but I stopped and said no. but he kept going anyway. I tried to struggle away but he wouldn't let me. He undid his pants and straddled me. I kept struggling trying to push him off. I got really scared and I just thought 'Oh My God I'm going to be raped.I tried to struggle again but he wouldnt let up. I freaked out and slapped him in the face so hard my nails made him bleed. He stopped to feel the blood trickling down his face. He got out of the car and screamed."
"I started to freak out! I slowly got out of the car. He screamed at me 'you told me you loved me!' I winced and looked up at him, tears brimming in my eyes I murmured 'I did'"
I choked back a sob before continuing my recount.
"he shouted again 'if you truly loved me you would let me do this' he shouted before slamming his tounge down my through and gropping at my breast and ass. I bit his tongue to get him to stop. I was scared. I didnt know what else to do. He had gone completely insane."
Shane hugged me tighter. Thats when I noticed I was crying again.
"he jumped back and slapped me 'LIAR!' he cried he kept calling me a liar over and over and over and over until he was screaming it at the top of is lungs. I was getting really scared."
"he kept screaming liar over and over 'I wasnt lying! I did love you but right now this isnt you!' I cried. 'you lied to me before and your lying to me now!' then he. he. he-" I couldn't hold back the tears. My body shook with sobs. Shane just held me tighter rocking me back and forth gently.
"shhhh. Shhhh. Mitchie its ok. You don't have to continue if its too hard. I don't want you to cry." Shane softly spoke into my hair.
"n-no. Shane I have to finnish."
he just nodded.
"he. he- umm. He pulled out a g-gun...I got really scared and couldnt stop sobbing. He kept histerically calling me a liar until he put the gun to his head. He looked me in the eye and said 'tell me the truth!Mimi!' Mimi was my child hood nick name he would call me. So I told him the truth...'I don't love you anymore' I murmured. And those were the final words he heard on this earth before he blew his brains out."
"I screamed and was crying histerically. I called 911 even though I knew he was dead but I didnt know what else to do. I had to talk to the police and explain what happened. At first they thought I killed him but the forensics said otherwise."
"the doctors told me that he was mentally ill and needed help bad and that his death wasnt my fault."
"when I got to school, everybody already knew what happened because it was all over the news. I got death glares and all sorts of mean looks. It went on for weeks. I had NO friends. Even the teachers treated me differently. His parents, family and close friends hated me with a passion."
"3 months after his death and the funeral, I was walking into the cafeteria when someone whispered 'murderer' under their breath. I ignored it and kept my tears in. I kept walking to my seat in the back corner of the cafeteria until someone else said "murderer" but slightly louder. The whole cafeteria stood still. Just staring at me waiting to see what I would do. Until Erics (AN/ her boyfriends name was Eric BTW) best friend stood up. He walked up to me. He threw my food to the ground. He looked me straight in the eye and yelled murderer straight in my face. I ran from the building straight to the bathroom and cried and cried."
"I didnt come home that night, or the next night, or the night after that. My parents had no idea where I was. until they got a call from the hospital. I had tried to kill myself."
"we moved from that whole state and I went to a knew school and saw a psychologist. But I didnt stop cutting. The doctor made me take medication and I started getting better and more like myself. After a couple of months I was off the medication. I had one or two friends and was...happy...it was almost a year since he killed himself and I started getting texts and email saying 'muderer' thats it, just one word. but that one word over and over and over again. Just like he said Liar, over and over again. I got a new phone and email, I was put back on medication after my 2 visit to the hospital for blood loss."
"I started to get better again. We moved to another state again. I made a few more friends and was happy. I even got a boyfriend. I was so...happy...again. Until he cheated on me. I made some different friends, I got over him and started to like another guy, when, we started to get close, like, really close. He was my best friend we just started dating so I decided to tell him about my 'past' he was ..."
I looked down again trying to hold my tears in again. Shane hugged me tighter, letting me know it was ok and to continue.
"his family went on a vacation to, you guessed it, my home town. He didnt know that I used to live there. Well he made a couple of friends and they just so happened to be the good friends of Eric. He told them about me and they found out it was me and I'm not sure what happened but he got into a massive fight with them about me and...they seriously injured him. He is now a paraplegic and has mental brain damage. What a shocker! his family hates me and I have never seen him since."
"we move to yet another state again, well that is after 3 more trips to the hospital. I went to a new school and had stronger medication. I didnt date anyone but I had one close friend. Sierra. I started to get soo much better that I was happy without medication. I went off of it and stopped seeing a doctor 3 times a week."
I stopped and looked up at Shane. He looked down at me with tears in his eyes.
SHANES POV
"we move to yet another state again, well that is after 3 more trips to the hospital. I went to a new school and had stronger medication. I didnt date anyone but I had one close friend. Sierra. I started to get soo good that I was hapy without medication. I went off of it and stopped seen a doctor 3 times a week." Mitchie stopped. She looked up at me and saw the tears forming in my eyes.
"Shane, that was 3 months before Camp." she whispered before looking down. Ashamed again. My heart wrenched for her as she started sobbing again.
We sat in that position for a long time. Mitchie crying and me just holding her and rocking her back and forth. Caitlyn walked noisily into the cabin.
"Mitchie! Shane! Brown is getting pissed- Oh-uh was I interupting..." She trailed off before seeing Mitchie crying and me close to crying she just mouthed to me
"I'll cover for you"
I just nodded appreciatively and she left.
"I'm so sorry Shane! I was just so happy with you and I wanted to fit in so bad. I never lied to you and when you called me a liar and wouldnt let me explain it reminded me of Eric and I just couldnt take it."
Mitchies words couldn't hurt me anymore than that. So it is my fault!
I looked down at her. Even through all the tears, makeup and through all her past she was still beautiful to me and all I wanted to do was fix her. She was broken. She just needed someone to be there for her. I want to be that someone.
"Mitchie, you don't have to say sorry. if anyone does I do. I love you"
MITCHIES POV
"Mitchie, you don't have to say sorry. if anyone does I do. I love you" those words sounded so incredibly wonderful coming from his mouth. I felt like. I don't know how I felt but it was good.
Its like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel again.
"I love you too Shane" I said before kissing him on the cheek.
"you missed" he said smirking.
I giggled and put my hands around his neck before sliding one down to cup his cheek and pecked his lips.
After that he turned his face and grabbed my hand. He just stared at my wrist studdying every scar and cut.
I started to get scared and tried to pull away. He noticed me tense up and looked into my eyes. He kissed me softly but sweetly on the lips but never letting go of my wrist.
Than he slowly pulled back and looked down at my wrist again before kissing my wrist, on one of my scars.
I smiled at him once before sleep an exhaustion came over me. He lifted me up bridal style to the bed and put me down he climbed under the covers after me and kissed the inside of my wrist once more before I gave in to sleep.
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